Tw: Ed, sh.
Age: 16
This one is sad lol
Scarlett: mom
Lizzie: aunt
*not proofread*
Y/n's pov:
I was upstairs in my room looking at myself in the mirror. I hated what I saw, my belly. My face. My thighs, and my old sh scars. I'm so ugly.
"You'll never be good enough" I told myself looking in the mirror tears threatening to fall. I stood there a little longer before I heard a knock on my door.
Shit.
I quickly threw on my shirt and my sweatpants before looking in the mirror and scoffed. I opened my door to see my mom standing there waiting for me for open the door leaning on the wall.
"Hey, mom" I said as I let her in. She walked in and sat on my bed motioning for me to come and sit beside her.
"What's up?" I asked casually.
"I just wanted to tell you that your aunt Lizzie and I are going shopping, do you want to come?" She asked holding my hand.
"I don't know mom.." I wanted to go so bad but it's so hot outside and then I'd have to take my hoodie of.
"Come oonnnnn, it'll be fun" she made her ridiculous puppy eyes. I rolled my eyes.
"Fine" I finally agreed.
"Yayyyy" she whisper shouted. I giggled at her silliness.
"Okay Lizzie is going to be here soon." She said walking out of the room.
"Okay!"
She closed the door behind her and I sighed. What did you do y/n. I was still going to wear my hoodie, my mom isn't going to like it but idc.
I went downstairs because I heard knocking on the door so I assumed it was Lizzie and I was right. I saw Lizzie hugging my mom so I ran down the stairs and waited for my mom to pull away.
When my mom pulled away I basically jumped into her hugging her longer than I needed to. It was a hug I needed.
"Well hello there" she pulled away and smiled down at me. I just smiled back and then hugging her again before pulling away.
"Are you going to wear that hoodie?" Lizzie asked me looking at me a little confused.
"Yeah I am, why?" I just answered straight away. My mom and Lizzie shared a look before they both looked at me again.
"Why don't you go change honey" my mom said to me. I just shook my head no. She sighed but eventually said it was fine.
We got into the car. Lizzie is driving, mom is in the passenger seat, and I'm in the back. I got out my phone and saw a text from my bsf. I clicked on it and teared up when I saw the text.
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Best friend forever💜
Best friend forever💜
You're disgusting, I only used you to
meet your mom. Did you really think I
Wanted to be YOUR friend??!😂. You're
Pathetic. You're useless, ugly, fat. I feel bad
for your mom. She must be so disappointed in
You. And she must hate you bc you're ugly.
Why don't you give us all a favour, go kys.
The world would be so much better
Without you. Now go cry in your mommas lap
Like you always do.
Bye.
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I couldn't help it. My tears I tried to hold on so bad fell down my cheeks. I quickly tried to wipe them away but they just kept coming. My best friend literally used me for my mom. I can't believe it. I continued trying to wipe my tears away but they just kept coming.
We had been friends for 4 years. And now I found out she just used me. She was the one that helped me out with everything. I hid my face with my hair so aunt Lizzie and my mom couldn't see me crying.
Without thinking I let out a loud sob. Mom looked back at me and Lizzie looked though the mirror. But my face was still hidden by my hair.
"Are you okay y/n?" Aunt Lizzie asked clear concern in her voice.
My mom tucked my hair behind my ears and saw my face still tears running down my rosey cheeks.
"Oh, y/n... why are you crying?" She asked wiping away my tears with her thumbs. She then told Lizzie to pull over.
Lizzie pulled over and they both got out of the car before climbing into the backseat with me. I was in the middle.
"Hey, hey, what's wrong pumpkin?" aunt Lizzie asked me while rubbing my back. I didn't respond and just kept my head hanging low.
"Can you please tell us what's wrong so we can help?" My mom asked and I took my phone and unlocked it before passing it to mom first.
She read it and passed it to Lizzie. After she read it they both sighed. And I could see Lizzie tear up and my mom had a tear running down her cheek but she quickly wiped it away.
"Y/n, she's fake. It's her loss." My mom tried to comfort me. But it didn't work.
"No it wasn't. She's right. I'm stupid"
"Y/n Kimberly Johansson!" Lizzie said in a serious tone. I froze. "Don't you ever, EVER. say something like that about yourself again. Do you understand?" Aunt Lizzie looked at me serious.
"Y-yes. Sorry" I looked down at my fingers starting to play with them.
"Don't apologise" my mom said while Lizzie took my hand in hers so I would stop fidgeting with them.
"How about we go home and watch a movie with lots of snacks instead of going shopping? You can pick movie. And Lizzie can stay over" my mom suggested.
It did sound fun so I nodded my head. Lizzie went out of the car and into the driver seat but mom stayed with me holding my hand.
Lizzie started driving and I rested my head on my mom's shoulder. After a while we were home again. We all got out of the car and walked into the house taking off our shoes.
After that Lizzie and I went into the living room to pick a movie, and mom were going to get snacks from the kitchen.
Lizzie took the remote and turned on the tv. She scrolled through Netflix in hope to find my favourite movie and I just kept zoning out.
I came back to reality when mom came in with popcorn and chips. She placed it on the table and went to grab our drinks.
After a while she came back and placed them on the table as well before sitting down next to me. Once again, I was sat in the middle.
Lizzie continued to scroll through and eventually found it. She put it in and placed the remote on the table before taking some popcorn.
We had watched like 30 minutes of the movie and I still hadn't had any snacks. I didn't need the calories. You see, I stopped eating a while ago. Well, I eat so my mom won't be suspicious, but then I go to the toilet and you know.
"Y/n, aren't you going to have any snacks?" Aunt Lizzie asked looking at me.
"No" I simply answered before turning to watch the movie. She also did that.
After a while the movie was done and it was only 5pm.
"Okay, I'm going to make dinner." My mom said while getting up from the couch.
I layed down and closed my eyes. I kept thinking about what my 'friend' said.
'Your mom must be so disappointed in you'
'Your ugly'
'Your useless'
'Go kys'
I felt a tear roll down my cheek and someone wiping it away, I opened my eyes to see Lizzie bending down in front of me giving me a little smile.
"What's wrong, pumpkin?" She asked gently tucking my hair behind my ear. I sighed before sitting up and Lizzie sat beside me.
"I just can't stop thinking about what she said.." I admitted honestly.
"Exactly what words are you thinking about?" She asked soft. Should I tell her? Yeah, no. Maybe I should. Ugh fuck it.
"Like everything but mostly 'Your ugly' and 'go kys'." I answered honestly. I looked at her for a second before looking away because I felt my eyes water.
"Oh sweet y/n.." I could hear the little crack in her voice. I turned to look at her and I saw that her eyes had tears in them. I couldn't help but to let my tears fall down my cheeks.
"Please, don't listen to her. She's wrong. You're beautiful. You're a goddess. And the world would not have been the same without you." She said comforting me. I hugged her crying hard into her Shoulder.
"It's okay, let it all out" she said rubbing my back.
After a while I stopped crying and I pulled away from Lizzie.
"Thank you" I said giving her a small smile. She smiled back at me before saying "it's okay"
After a while mom said that it was dinner so Lizzie and I are now on our way to the kitchen. When we entered the kitchen I saw that mom had made my favourite dinner. It's kinda sad that I'll have to throw it up later.
I sat down on a chair next to my mom and lizzie is sat in front of us. I picked up the fork my hands shaking. I slowly ate it and immediately felt the urge to throw up but I quickly pulled myself together.
I ate like half the plate. I couldn't eat more. I put my fork down before wiping my mouth with my sleeve.
"Thank you so much for the food mom, it was delicious." I said before getting up taking my plate with me to wash it in the sink.
"Aren't you going to eat more honey?" Mom asked me with concern written on her face. I turned on the water.
"No, I'm full" I answered her simply.
"Oh, okay. Honey, I can wash the dishes. You don't have to, you know that right?" She said
"Yeah, but I want to if thats okay." I said as I continued washing my plate.
"Yeah, of course"
After I as done with washing the dishes I excused myself to the bathroom. I walked upstairs and walked into my bathroom and locking it.
I bent down in front of the toilet and took a deep breath before putting my fingers down my throat. I could feel it coming. But just then I heard a knock on the bathroom door.
"Hey, y/n. I just wanted to say that Lizzie and I are going to be in the garden." My mom said informing me where to look for them later.
I didn't answer and just kept on going. I made gag sounds but I didn't care, I just needed to get the food out of me.
"Y/n? Are you okay?"
Scarlett's pov:
I heard gag sounds and I assumed it was y/n because who else would it be? I knocked on the door again.
"Y/n? Are you okay?" I asked worried. I noticed that she must've forgotten to lock the door so I thought that I would go in to see if she was okay.
"Y/n, I'm coming in!" I warned her before opening the door.
When I opened the door I saw the most unexpected thing I think I'd never see. My little girl, making herself sick.
I quickly rushed over to her and took the fingers out of her mouth.
"NO!! MOM STOP. I NEED TO DO THIS!" She yelled crying trying to get out of my grip. She kicked me but I didn't let go.
Eventually she gave up and just melted into my embrace. I hugged her tight. I couldn't believe that my little girl would do this to herself.
"Shh, it's okay. I've got you" I said comforting her.
She pulled away and looked me In my eyes.
"I'm sorry!!! I'm so sorry!!!" She cried out. I frowned.
"Don't apologise baby" I said giving her a gentle smile.
"Y/n.. I have one question tho" I said and she hummed in response. I sighed.
"Why did you do this to yourself?" I said as I teared up again. A tear fell down her cheek and I wiped it away with my thumb.
"I get bullied at school" she started. She took a deep breath before continuing.
"Everyone says that I'm discussing, ugly, fat. A disappointment and a mistake. They also says that nobody loves me and that you and aunt Lizzie just pretend. And they say that I should go kill my self.
But I know that I couldn't do that to you or Lizzie.
And I started to get really insecure because of what
They say. So I stopped eating. And then I knew that I couldn't kill my self because I couldn't leave you so I started hurting myself instead..." she admitted honestly.
Wow. I couldn't believe it. Tears were streaming down my cheeks and y/n was looking down at her hands fidgeting with them.
I just hugged her. I couldn't say anything. The words didn't come out of my mouth. My little girl is insecure because of people at school.
"Y/n.. is it okay if I take a look at your scars?.." I asked her not wanting to overstep.
She slowly nodded and gave me her arms. I pulled up her sleeves and teared up once again. How could I not see the signs? This is all my fault.
"Are you mad?..." y/n asked me out of no where.
What?
"Of course not!" I said
"Really?"
"Yes" I hugged her.
I heard a sob from the door so I turned around and y/n looked up. It was Lizzie. Did she hear everything? I guess so. I gave her a little smile telling her to come. She bent down to us.
"It it okay if I give you a hug y/n?" She asked not wanting to step over the line.
"Of course aunt Lizzie, you don't have to ask!" Y/n answered her and almost jumped into her arms. They hugged for a while and I gotta admit it, I felt left out.
"Heyyyy, can I join the hug?" I asked pouting. They both laughed.
"Come here" Lizzie said pulling me into the hug.
"We're going to get through this together" I said to y/n and she said a small 'thank you'
"I love you guys" y/n said
"We love you too honey"