seventeen .
can't sleep
after dinner you, jisoo, mari, laska and mya went home. the guys were sweet enough to bring all of you home; you went with han, hyunjin, jisoo and mari, and laska and mya went with felix and jeongin.
you apparently live closest to jisoo and mari, so that's why han brought the three of you home with hyunjin. jisoo was the first to be back home, then mari, and latest you, because you live closer to their home if you make a small circle.
you said bye to the guys after having an awkward goodbye with their loved ones (you were literally that person that waited at the sidelines for the lovebirds to say goodbye).
but now you're back home.
you went straight to bed since it was already 1am when you got home, and you have a deadline tomorrow for some animation.
things just don't go your way ever, because now you're stuck looking at the ceiling for one and a half hour already.
you sigh to yourself and close your eyes, "riley, just fucking go to sleep."
but it hasn't been happening for the past one and a half hour, so why would you go to sleep now? apparently your body doesn't want to sleep for some odd reason.
you pout and get your phone, the light of your screen lightning your whole face. somehow it doesn't even hurt that much, meaning you're still quite awake.
well, time to bother people.
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minho is a big dumbass
[ 2.39 am ]
riley is online
yooooo
someone awake?
i can't sleep and
i need someone to
talk to
but i bet y'all are
already asleep
and i'm the only
one awake
how sad
minho is online
minho
shut up riley
you woke me up
oh
i'm sorry :/
minho
it's fine
cuz it's you
awww
changbin is online
changbin
lol don't u have
this gc on mute?
minho
no because i'm
nice
but i'm gonna go
back to sleep and
mute the gc
i'm tired
alright lee know
gn <33
minho
good night !
:)
minho is offline
changbin
i was about to
go to sleep, i'm
sorry riley
maybe someone
else is awake
they better hurry
and come online
then
girls ??
y'all with me ??
chan is online
chan
i'm not a girl
but i'm awake
changbin
of course you
are
well i'm gonna
hit the hay
goodnight :)
gn changbin<3
changbin is offline
chan
oh well bye?
hi chris :)
chan
hi riley :)
i can't sleep
wanna chat?
chan
of course
i'll text you in
private
ok ok !
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bang chan
[ 2.47 am ]
hi riley!
hi chris :)
you can't sleep?
no :/
any idea why?
not really tbh
i've just been
laying in bed
for the past errr,
almost two hours
staring at the
ceiling
and not being
able to go to
sleep
oh i feel that
i thought i'd go
straight to bed
when the guys
came back home,
but no
haven't been
able to sleep
sucks huh
how funny we
both can't sleep
for shit
it's what you
call funny
yup
i've just been
thinking about
a lot i guess
yeah same, can't
help but think
about things
poetic
"things"
ikr
i'm very poetic
you are
sighs
woah woah
sighing over
text ???
that means
you're really
going through it
yeh idk🥲
sometimes you
just have that,
you know?
i have it every
damn night
that's even
worse
kinda
i just be having
these nightmares
dk where they
come from but
it's bad
and i can't sleep
bc of them
i bet
nightmares are
shit
i hate it when
i have them
yeah
every night ain't
fun at all
:(
i'm sorry u have
to go through
that every night
not your fault
but thanks for
your concern
of course
i'm here for
you, chris
thank you :)
...
...
...
you still there?
yeah i am
sorry
i was staring at
the ceiling
oh that's fine
do you want to
call maybe?
idk if that's
weird
not at all
i'll call you
okay :)
incoming call from bang chan
accept / decline
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"hi," you hear his raspy voice say through your phone.
a smile grows on your face as you hear his voice. you close your eyes and place your phone next to you on your pillow.
"hey, chris."
"it's good hearing your voice."
you feel your face start to heat up, the smile around your lips bigger as you hear him say those words.
mate, you're so whipped, it ain't good.
"i feel the same way about yours. it's very comforting," you whisper.
you don't know why you're whispering too, because unlike chris, you're home alone. you have an apartment for your own, so there is no one you have to whisper for.
maybe it's just a habit.
"thank you," chan answers with a chuckle. "it's good to hear someone liking my voice."
"are you kidding?" you start, your eyes now open as you look at the ceiling again. "there are so many people that like your voice, chris. there's a reason why you're the leader of a well known k-pop group."
chan rolls his eyes at your words, "you're overdoing it, that's not true."
"i know it's true, i've seen the comments on your videos and your live."
"you watched my live?"
your eyes widen. you slap your hand in front of your mouth. oh my god, i did not just say that, did i?
"riley?"
"uh—" you start, the embarrassment taking over your body. "i might've stumbled across it when i was... uh... doing some animation work. yeah," you say with a nod.
"you can only watch it on vlive, did you make an account?"
chan chuckles. he's enjoying this. not in a creepy way, it just makes him laugh that you were stalking him a little.
you sigh, "fine. i was googling stray kids online because i was curious and then i stumbled across the vlive thing, so i downloaded it. then last sunday you were live and i was doing some work so i watched it."
chan chuckles, "that's cute."
"your voice is very comforting, i can't help it. it's nice to have in the background."
chan smiles at your words and places his hands under his head, his eyes focused on the ceiling above him.
he feels special. you were watching his live the entire time when you were working, just listening to his voice and see him interact with fans.
can it get any cuter?
yeah, can riley get any cuter than this?
chan pouts to himself. "thank you, i'm glad you enjoyed."
"of course. but yeah, your fans also like your voice, and i get it. you do sing incredibly well, it's phenomenal."
chan blushes because of your words. he hides his face by pulling the sheets more up to his nose. "that's sweet."
"and the truth."
it's silent between the two of you for a while. you're just staring at the ceiling while you focus on your beating. sometimes you hear small movement sounds coming from your phone, but that's it, nothing more happens.
you're about to ask him something, maybe if he needed sleep or something else, when you hear a faint snore.
you widen your eyes and chuckle, "no way," you mumble softly.
you get on your side and look at your phone. you and chan have been calling for twenty minutes now, but the soft snores through the phone ain't lying.
chris really fell asleep while calling you.
you chuckle slightly. "good night, chris," you mumble before you end the call.
you place your phone on your nightstand and look at the ceiling again. even though you're still not asleep, you're happy chris is sleeping. it seemed like he needed it.
you close your eyes, chris' voice still in your head, making you doze off in sleep as well.
finally some rest...
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bang chan
[ 6.49 am ]
i'm sorry i fell
asleep
sleep well, riley
take care <3
it was fun
calling you
we should do it
again sometime
soon :)
big hug<3
— chan
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time for sleep fr
i kinda wanted to stop halfway but i also wanted to continue so now u end up with a half asleep me that has written this chapter. hope it's still good :)
have a good night / day / anything
love, riley <3