3rd person's POV:
TW: !Intrusive thoughts and overdose!
As soon as Ryan arrived back at his house, tears stained his cheeks.
Laura had tried to comfort him and was full of endless questions asking what happened and if her friend was okay.
Ryan didn't reply, Instead he just headed up to his room and shut the door. Sarah and Laura decided it was best to leave him be and to let him have time to himself to cool down.
Ryan flopped onto his bed, facing into his pillow.
For the longest time in Ryan's life, he felt empty, he hadn't felt this way since his parents first left and his grandma passed away.
After what felt like hours of laying there feeling dull, Ryan was overcome by a surge of anger, regret, guilt and severe sadness in one.
Ryan sat up and grabbed his phone from where he left it on the bedspace beside him. Ryan entered his pin and selected messages. Ryan felt a twinge of regret as he saw Dylan's contact on his most recent. But Ryan scrolled past it, pressing on the contact he was targeting.
3hrs ago
Unknown Number: has sent attachment.
Ry-Guy: Well, you fucking imbecile, I hope you're happy.
Unknown Number: What? What do you mean?
Ry-Guy: You know what I mean. You fucking bitch. Me and my bf broke up because of you.
Unknown Number: Ha, well I guess karma shows itself eventually.
Ry-Guy: What the fuck do you mean by that!? You sent that picture and my boyfriend saw it and now he thinks I'm cheating on him..well he did.
Unknown Number: Well, it was your fault for not blocking me, and you were in a way.
Ry-Guy: Fuck you!! I would never cheat on Dylan! You selfish asshole, you knew I had no interest in you and you still decided to act like a whore. And I didn't block you because I fell asleep and I don't think of you at all so I forgot.
Unknown Number: Wow. Is that any way to talk to a woman?
Ry-Guy: At least I don't go sleep around. Well I hope you feel so great about yourself for ruining my happiness and for making everyone's lives worse. I bet you feel on top of the world by making people miserable to make you feel good about yourself.
Unknown Number: Wow! You're so rude! I could report you for threatening me like this!
Ry-Guy: How the fuck am I threatening you!? Just fucking stay away from me! I want nothing to do with you ever again. I will never forgive you for what you've done.
Unknown Number: I guess you should've just blocked me then, It isn't actually my fault you failed to do that.
Ry-Guy: Well I won't ever make that mistake again.
You blocked this number.
Ryan threw his phone against the wall, anger eating him up inside, not just at Ashley; but at himself too.
Ryan slammed his pillow roughly into his face and screamed into it.
"FUCK!"
Ryan sobbed as he knelt on his mattress.
"I'm such a fucking idiot!"
Tears flowed from Ryan's eyes and wet the pillow beneath them as Ryan cried miserably.
You're such a fool
You did this
This is your fault
You'll always be alone
Nobody will ever love you
You always push people away
Dylan will be way better off without you
You were just suffocating him
You don't deserve to be loved
Just die
Nobody would care anyway
You've lost everything
And it's all your fault
Your fault
Your fault
Your fault.
"Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up!!"
Ryan whimpered as his thoughts ate away at him.
Ryan lifted his head from his pillow with red eyes.
He blankly looked toward his cabinet and reached for it, opening the first draw and withdrawing his antidepressants.
Ryan felt empty, like there was a void of eternal depth in his soul. Truth was, he needed Dylan to fill that hole, but now Dylan was gone. And Ryan was desperate to find any way to fill that hole.
Ryan felt like he was not able to control his body, his shaky fingers opened the capsule and poured 6 pills into his palm.
Ryan emptied them into his mouth and swallowed.
His prescription was no more than 3 pills a day.
But right now, Ryan didn't care, he just wanted the pain to stop.
Ryan fell back onto his bed, tears continued to spill from his eyes as memories of his times with Dylan played over his mind, he would never feel that warmth he had felt with Dylan again.
Ryan brought his hands to his face, holding them over his eyes as he cried.
About 30 minutes of Ryan sobbing had gone past and a soft knock was heard on his door.
"Go away.."
Ryan said weakly, his tone warn out.
"Ryan. It's me."
Sarahs voice sounded from the other side of the door.
"Can I please come in?"
Ryan wasn't in the mindset for talking but he agreed, thinking that it would be better to talk to someone than being by himself in a time like this.
"..Yeah."
Ryan tried to make his tone sound more normal but he couldn't, his voice shook and he knew Sarah could tell.
The door swung open and Sarah stepped in, her eyebrows furrowed and her eyes round with concern.
"Ryan, your eyes are red.."
Sarah said gently as she made her way to the center of the room.
"Yeah.."
Ryan tried to chuckle to shine some light on the situation but failed, coughing instead.
"Oh Ryan.."
Sarah closed the distance between them, wrapping her arms around her brother.
"Do you want to tell me what happened?"
She asked gently as Ryan sniffed, returning her embrace tightly.
"Well.."
Ryan drew in a deep breath and withdrawed from the hug, clasping his hands on his lap and gazing at them.
"M-me and Dyl..we.."
Sarah patiently listened.
"We broke up.."
Ryan whispered to prevent his voice from cracking as he acknowledged what happened.
"What? How!? You guys seemed so close when you arrived!"
Sarahs eyes widened.
"Well..I-"
Ryan paused as he felt a sharp pain in his stomach, he flinched, eyes rounding.
"What's wrong!?"
Sarahs voice was full of worry, Ryan grasped his stomach, grinding his teeth in pain.
"Sarah-"
Ryan choked on the words, standing abruptly and staggering toward his sister as she gazed at him in horror.
Ryans vision blurred and he lost consciousness of his senses. Swaying on his feet, not able to stand straight.
Ryan fell to the floor with a thud before darkness swallowed him.
He could faintly hear Sarah's frantic voice scream.
"LAURA, HELP!! RYAN COLLAPSED!!"
Ryans hearing then drowned out, enclosed by a pit of darkness...
Author: Oh no!! Poor Ryan! Will he be okay!? What's going on with Dylan? Find out in the next chapter!