That's why I bang my head
against the wall
Cuz I don't like myself at all
Wish I could cut all the ties
𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐬:
~ 𝐦𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐠
~ 𝐟𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐲
❦︎
"Jiji, no!
Can you please put Kkami
back down, he doesn't want
to cuddle with you right now.
And Hana, dinner is almost
ready so no sweets right now!"
Seungmin could only sigh and
shook his head when his kids only
listened after some unhappy whines.
He was tired, he just wanted to
go to his bedroom and lay down,
just for a small nap.
There were two unhappy kids
in the living room and two
unhappy kids in his tummy,
kicking against his ribs and
lower belly in protest.
The twins were hungry and
not that fond of their mama
moving around and the noises
of the stove.
And Jimin and Hana were just
trying their really best to give
Seungmin a headache.
The brunette couldn't blame his kids,
it had been raining all day so the
two were still full of energy but it
was Hyunjin's job to tire them,
especially on bad weather days.
Seungmin wouldn't jump in
puddles for two hours while
being seven months pregnant.
"When daddy home?"
Hana pouted as she tugged on her
mama's apron, her big puppy eyes
flickering with sadness.
"Soon, baby.
Daddy will be home
before dinner is served"
He smiled and kissed his
daughter's head, picking her
up when she made grabby
hands at him.
Hyunjin would kill him when
he saw that the brunette was
carrying their almost two years
old while being heavily pregnant
with twins but three minutes
should be bearable.
But apparently only for him,
not for Hana's younger siblings.
"Ow ow ow, sorry babies!
Sorry princess, I can't carry you,
mama is sorry"
Seungmin whimpered and
immediately placed his daughter
back down when a strong pain struck
through his lower back and belly.
"Mama?"
"I'm okay, pup.
Mama is okay.
Go to your brother, darling.
Daddy will be here soon."
Fortunately the brunette did a
great job in acting that he was fine,
his daughter waddled away
without doubting him.
And the moment she was out
of his sight, Seungmin could finally
breathe out heavily as he cupped
his round tummy, caressing it gently
in hope to calm his unhappy kids.
But it was no use,
they were daddy's kids
and only Hyunjin could
calm them now.
At least the dinner was almost ready,
the brunette only added some more
spices before he turned off the stove
so he could finally sit down and rest.
"Babies, it's okay.
Daddy is almost home,
could you please calm down
and be nice to mama?"
He sighed and closed his eyes,
focusing on his hands rubbing
gentle circles on his baby bump
and the uncomfortable shifting
of his children in his belly.
Hyunjin and he had never really
planned to have more than two
children, especially not two
more at once.
But a broken condom on their
anniversary decided it for the couple,
why stop at two when you could
also have four kids?
"Minnie, I'm home!"
But before Seungmin could
actually say anything, there
were already loud squeals and
happy barks filling the corridor
and the brunette could only
smile hearing Hyunjin welcome
their children and dog.
Yeah, who doesn't love Hyunjin?
"Daddy, daddy!
Mama made food!"
"Oh, really?''
That's so nice of him, hm?
We should go say hi and help
him set up the table"
The ravenette picked up his
daughter and took his son's hand,
their little dog following closely
with a wagging tail.
But his smile fell a little seeing
his beloved husband so exhausted.
"Minnie?"
"Hey Jinnie, dinner is almost done.
I still need to-"
But when the brunette tried
to stand up, Hyunjin only pushed
him back gently and shook his head.
"No no, baby.
The kids and I will do the rest,
you take a little break here.
You look tired"
The older male pouted and leaned
down to give his husband a kiss,
allowing their daughter to kiss
her mama's cheek too.
"Okay, love."
Who would Seungmin be to
complain about that offer?
It wasn't like he begged to run
around and carry things with
his aching back and tummy.
Kkami stayed by his side and
only looked at his owner with
big eyes when he sighed again.
"You're so lucky you'll never
go through a pregnancy."
"Jiji, can you carry the spoons?
Good boy!"
The little boy smiled proudly
and waddled back to the dining
room with the cutlery in his small
hands, happy to help his daddy.
And Hana held her cup in her
hands as her daddy carried her
and the plates, an adorable smile
resting on her face simply because
she was so happy to be in
her father's arms.
"Do we need something else?
What do you think, babies?"
"Food!"
"Mama!"
"Yeah, right.
The food and your mama.
So I need you two to sit down
and wait patiently, okay?
Daddy will get the food and mama."
The two little ones nodded cutely
as they watched their father leave
and actually behaved for the short
two minutes they were left
alone at the table.
"Minnie love, everything okay?
You look exhausted, my love."
Hyunjin knelt down between
his husband's legs and took the
younger's hands in his,
giving them a gentle squeeze.
"The kids were just so...
...energetic today but I couldn't
calm them and the babies are
moving so much, i-it really
hurts sometimes.."
He didn't even know why his
voice was suddenly so shaky
but when Hyunjin looked at him
with those worried chocolate eyes,
he couldn't help but start to cry.
"Oh Minnie.. Love, look at me"
The ravenette cupped his husband's
face and gently wiped the crystal
tears from those rosy cheeks he
adored so much, his eyes never
breaking eye contact
with Seungmin.
"I'm so sorry I didn't come home
earlier, I promise you I'll be home
at three from now on and I'll work
more from home if possible.
I know I told you to rest and I know
that is impossible as long as you're
alone with those two rascals.
But you need to promise me that
you won't do anything at all besides
taking a rest when the babies
are giving you a hard time, okay?
No cooking, no cleaning,
no washing or folding clothes,
okay love?"
Seungmin nodded as he sniffled
softly but he only smiled a bit
when Hyunjin placed a long,
soft kiss on his husband's lips.
"You're so amazing, Minnie.
I love you so much."
"I-I love you too, Jinnie.."
"And I love you two whirlwinds
too but please stop hurting your
mama, I don't want to see him
cry just because you two wanted
to have a dance battle in there,
alright?"
The brunette giggled softly
as he watched the love of his
life scold their unborn kinds
and to his surprise the twins
immediately calmed quite a
bit when their daddy gave
their home a gentle rub and
a few kisses.
"Now let's eat, Minnie.
The kids are waiting and I bet
you're also hungry, am I right?"
❦︎
People who think depression can
be cured are hilarious to me.
It can get better, you can get better at dealing with it but you can't escape it.
It'll never be gone and one day it's gonna kill me, that's just how it works with illnesses that aren't curable,
right?
I'm just so fucking sick of it,
and I'm sorry for rambling here