*THREE WEEKS LATER*
I've had a lot of time thinking. Since brother took over after dad I try to help him do some work. He's been pushing himself a lot lately.
I bought a home for the first time in my life. It's pretty. Not at all what I thought I would go for when I bought my first home. It's open and has two floors. I don't use the second floor that much.
I know my brother just moved into his home but I want him here. With me. He and Mia is all that I've got now so it would be amazing if Alex would move in with me. The whole second floor would be his since I don't even use it.
He told me he would think about it so I hope that means yes.
I don't think I can ever live alone. As for now I stay at Mia's but I don't want to be a burden to her. She has her life too so I will get out of her house as soon as the payment for my house goes through. Living alone would be so much thinking, too much actually. I can't get my mind off of him. It's like he's stuck with me. Ezra.
But I am past that now. I have to get over it. This time I won't go back. He's hurt me so many times. I just hope he one day understands what he lost. Because we were everything.
I start to cook me and Mia some dinner. On today's menu I've decided to do spaghetti bolognese. It's simple and easy. "Hello girlie" Mia says stepping into her apartment giving me a hug. "Hi" I say as she takes off her shoes. "It's so freaking hot outside" she says rubbing of the sweat on her forehead. I'm so happy spring is finally here. The sun peeking through the curtains and the birds singing gives me happiness. I will be happy again I've promised myself that. I try everyday to push my past away. Some days are harder than other but I will get over all of it. Just a little more time.
"Oh my gosh it smells amazing" Mia says putting plates on the table. "Wait till you taste it" I say knowing my cooking never fails.
We both eat two whole plates and lean back on the chairs. "I'm so full" I say holding my stomach. "How was your day" I ask. "You know making smoothies for the whole town isn't as easy without you" Mia says wanting me to go back to working at the store. I still try to figure out what I want with my life.
"Mia I think I want to finish school." I say. "Really are you ready to go back there?" she asks knowing I had a hard time making friends because of Ezra. "I've only missed a few months. Maybe I can get back in from where I left. I probably have to catch up a lot but I think I want this" I say. I want to graduate this year.
"Alright, you know I support you in everything so go for it" she says smiling.
***
I've spent one hour talking on the phone with the principal to get me back in school. He said he could get me in if I promised to catch up with everything I've missed. I have faith in myself and know I can do this so I agreed. And besides I have nothing else to do other than training and help my brother once in a while. This will get me on other thoughts. I will have no time to think about him.
"I'm in Mia!" I run up to her and celebrate. "Omg I'm so happy" she says hugging me. She too will graduate this year but we go different schools. It's fine tho I will hopefully find someone to be friends with.
***
It's Monday morning and I get ready to go to school. I will be put into a new class since my last one hated me. Hope this one will be better. I put on low waisted jeans with an oversized white t-shirt. It's basic but good for a first day. I let my hair down. I grab my bag and leave the house.
Alex drives me to school. "Hey be careful today, if someone is mean you call me" he says making sure I know he is there for me. "I can handle the mean ones" I say smiling. "Oh I know you can I will just come to watch you beat them up" he says making me laugh. "Omg class starts in 5 minutes" I say getting out of the car and running to my classroom. Running down the hall I bump into a man.
He catches me before I fall. Strong arms pull me up. It's a new face. Who could this be. "I'm so sorry totally my fault" I say stepping away from him. His eyes scan me. Making me a bit uncomfortable. "I'm Kai" he says holding out his hand. I don't have time for this. So I shake his hand fast. "Amelia" I say then run away. And I am just in time for my first lesson.
I take a seat beside a girl. I've seen her before but never talked. Her name is Lisa and seems like a good person.
As the teacher talks she explained things I couldn't understand and gave me her pencil to borrow when mine broke. She is very nice to me. We talked a little on the five min break. I've learned that she likes cheerleading.
She makes me company as we walk to our next class. "If you need help with anything just tell me, I've been in your seat before and it was hard catching up." She says her smile so cute.
"Thank you Lisa you really helped me a lot today" I say as we step into the classroom. Lisa sees her other friends and runs up to hug them. "Omg we have to tell you something" the girls say getting excited for gossip. None of them looks at me so I take a seat far away from the them. When the teacher comes in everyone sits down.
Five minutes pass and one person knocks on the door. The teacher opens it and lets the person in "So sorry I'm late" a manly voice says. It's the boy from earlier. Kai. "You can't keep coming late Kai" mrs Heard says. Kai takes the seat beside me. I give him a soft smile then turn my attention back to the teacher.
***
"Get into groups of two and choose a subject to talk about. I want the assignment done next week, good luck to everyone" she says.
I try to lock eyes with Lisa but she's already found a partner. Shit. "Seems like no one wants to be with us" The boy beside me says. I turn my head and meet his eyes. I don't think Kai is the one to do his assignments. "Well it's only us left now so? Partners?" He asks. "Sure" I say nodding.
Kai. His name sounds so familiar. I've seen it somewhere but can't think of where. "Are you free tomorrow after school?" I ask so we can do this assignment as soon as possible. Since I have a lot more to do. "I won't be here tomorrow, let's do it today" he says then stands up. "Oh. Okey" I say following him out.
"We're are we doing the project?" I say as he walks towards a car. "At my house" he says opening the car door for me. I step inside. He has a driver so he gets in the back seat with me. "Are you always this nervous" Kai asks after a while. I've been playing with my fingers a lot I guess that's how he knows. "No I just... you remind me of someone a lot" I say.
"I see, let me introduce myself." He says. "My name is Kai Admos, I would have hoped you knew me since you too are in the mafia."
What. "Wait I knew your name sounded familiar." I say shocked. "I'm the youngest son of Theo Admos, the Greek mafia" he says. I don't know what to respond. "I'm sorry for your losses, I recently heard your father died" he says not knowing what my father has done to me. I try to change the subject.
"You aren't going to hurt me are you" I say unsure of why he put me in his car. "No of course not I just want to get to know you" he says smiling. I smile back. "Your really pretty Amelia" he says. It's nice to feel seen. "Thank you" I say blushing. We arrive at a big mansion. This family is big. If I remember correctly they are 7 siblings in total. I step out the car and follow Kai inside.
I say hi to everybody in here. "Finally you bring a pretty girl" one of the boys says. "Shut up Haze!" Kai says getting frustrated at his big brother. Kai leads me upstairs to his room. "Leave the door open" another brother yells. "Oh my gosh I'm so sorry don't mind my brothers" he says. I laugh. "No I like that you guys have a good relationship." I say making Kai smile.
"So are we doing this project" he says taking a seat on his bed. I take out my laptop from my bag. "What should we pic as a topic?" I ask. We are going to talk about how the body reacts to things. "What about love?" Kai asks. I look at him unsure. "What, we have all been in love before so writing about how the body reacts to love is easy" he says. He has a point I know everything Ezra made me feel. How my body felt every time he was near me. I know it all. So yes it is a easy topic but still a hard one because of how much it reminds me of him. "Or are you afraid of love" Kai says.
"No, fine. Love it is" I say even though it's hard. I write it big on the screen.
We do the project pretty fast. We are almost done. It's easy talking to Kai. He makes me laugh a lot.
His eyes hold mine for a long time as we stand there quietly. "What?" I ask as I break the eye contact. "I can't take my eyes of off you" he says. "Oh stop with that" I say laughing. I don't know if I like this. If I could ever handle love again. I don't think I could ever fall for anyone else ever again.
"It's true though." He says. I don't know what to respond. "I should probably get going" I say packing my laptop. He follows me downstairs and opens the front door. "I had a really great time thank you" I tell him then give him a hug. He hugs me back. "See you in school" he says as I step outside.