Bellana then looked around the bed for evidence on what happened last night . She couldn't find anything .
She sat on the table and tried to remember what happened ... " I was drinking a beer with Alex and then ... What ? I was upset , it doesn't matter why . Then someone was comforting me , who ? Well , it was a tall brunette with strong arms , i think it was a man judging by their physic . He started wiping my tears and he looked into my eyes deeply . I thought this was a once in a lifetime opportunity , in my whole live no man had ever came up to me unlike everyone in the band . He put a hand on my thigh , i thought this was my chance , if i can't make him stay then i'll be alone forever . I kissed him , we kissed for a while . He wanted more . But what about me ? Did i want to do this ? I don't remember . But he dragged me somewhere , the bus . I must've agreed to go with him . We kiss even more . Then he takes off my clothes for me . He touched my naked body gently as i felt the need to cry . All of that was happening too fast for me , i don't think he cared . He looked at my v as a clutched into the sheets . I don't remember anything after that . No matter how hard i try . Not even his face or name ... That was so stupid of me ! How did i agree to such activity ! That was so lewd of me ! The worst part is that he just ... left !"
Bellana felt crushed , she cried at the horrible decision she took last night as she felt more stupid and alone than ever ...
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Alex then enters the bus with a few groceries . She was shocked to see Bellana crying . She ran to her and asked what's wrong . Bellana just looked at her heartbroken . Bellana hugged her and buried her head into her shoulders . Alex hugged her back , she remembered how the same thing happened last night .
A-"were you worried that i left you alone ?"
Bellana didn't answer , she just lifted her face from Alex's shoulder . Alex thought that means yes .
A-"there there . It's good to see you finally awake , how was last night?"
B-"you remember what happened !?"
A-" this was a night i'll never forget Bella "
Alex held Bellana's chin she wanted to kiss her but she stopped when she asked what happened ...
A-"you don't ... remember ?"
B-"i mean , just a little . I went with a strange man here and that was last thing i remember . I woke up naked , Alex please don't tell me that we did it "
Bellana asked desperately ... As tears had halfway blocked her vision .
A-"m-man ...?"
B- "please Alex ... Be honest ..."
A-"..."
A-POV:"She thought i was a man this whole time . The condom thing now makes more sense ... Shit , i can't tell her it was me . She'll hate me for eternity ..."
A-"you went in the bus with a guy and then after a few hours when i got in the bus you were naked in my bed . I left you alone in the bus and here we are "
B-"so he just ... Left ?"
A-"..."
Alex didn't know what to do , Bellana kept crying on Alex's shoulder . Alex tried her best to comfort her . Alex also wanted to cry but didn't , she thought that Bellana liked her back , but no , it was all just a hallucination ...
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Then , Alex made Bellana a cup of coffee and added honey to it .
A-"here you go , it's ok , it could've been worse y'know"
B-"what do you mean it could've been worse !? I just exposed my body to a stranger ! What could be possibly worse !?"
A-"well he didn't force you , right ? And you definitely didn't catch an infection or something ..."
B-"it felt like i was being forced"
A-"oh c'mon , don't act like a virgin"
B-"i am a virgin ! Well , used to be"
Alex was shocked , she realised that she had took her virginity out ... She blushed a bit and then tried to comfort Bella again by hugging her and saying ...
A-"hey look , my first time was hard too . Almost everyone's first time wasn't so great . You're not alone ..."
B-"do you think it'll be alright ?"
A-"yeah ! Why wouldn't it ?"
B-"Thank you , Alex . I don't know where i would be without you ..."
Bellana hugged Alex . Alex felt happy Bella felt safe in her arms , but she was also upset she didn't remember her at all ...
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After about an hour of talking between the two . DeeJane and Puff came into the bus .
B-"morning , where were you two ?"
P-"Alex somehow convinced us to sleep outside the bus last night . Say , why tho ?"
B-"..."
A-"why should i tell you ?"
P-"your ass better tell me Alex !! I just slept on DeeJane's floor for you !"
Puff and Alex started fighting while DeeJane sat infront of Bellana . Bellana was extra quiet for obvious reasons . DeeJane noticed that and asked her if everything was alright . Bellana lied and said yes , she didn't want the news to spread . DeeJane wasn't convinced and so she dragged her to the recording studio for some privacy . Bellana refused to talk , DeeJane had tried everything to get her to speak but her efforts were useless ...
Throughout the whole day , Bellana was quiet , pale and burned out . When it was her turn to sing or to play an instrument she would just stare at it , apologises and leave .
P-"ayo what's up with her ?"
D-"i dunno . I tried to talk to her but she refused to say a word"
A-"..."
P-"you're quiet too , you know something we don't ?"
A-"i ... Uhh ... No"
Puff looked at Alex suspiciously .
P-"Alex , this is serious . What is it "
D-"yeah girl , she might need our help too y'know"
A-"there's nothing you could do about it . I'm her probleme . If anyone should fix this it's me"
P-"i hate asking more than twice . What . Happened ."
A-"stop being a bitch Puff ! Why can't be more like Bella and mind your business !"
P-"why would i be like her !? That's the biggest insulte i have ever heard come out of you !"
A-"take that back you whore !"
P-"why should i !? You like her or somethin' ?
Alex blushed at the question and pushed Puff while heavily denying her statement . Then she stormed off to her bed and layed down .
When she looked aside , Bellana was asleep while having her headphones on . Alex then goes and removes them for her and takes her phone to put it aside . She covered her with some blankets and left a soft kiss on her cheek .
P-"Interesting..."
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A/N : Idk why but i feel like this song really fits these few chapters . It's my favourite song btw .
Word count : 1155