Waking up the next morning feeling amazing as the memories from yesterday flooded through my mind. The image of Blair on top of me makes me shiver. Even though yesterday was great I hate that we can't have as many moments alone. Getting ready for the day I took a shower and got changed into my uniform. As I'm in a good mood I felt like doing a little makeup. I put on some eyeliner and mascara.
***
Going downstairs I saw that there is another letter addressed to me making my stomach instantly drop and churn. My hands shaking slightly; I went back up to my room haphazardly opening up the envelope.
Dear Addison,
Didn't you understand my last letter? You're supposed to end it with Blair. I guess as you carry on disobeying me I'll have to take action. Maybe this time she'll get more than a broken arm...
xx
My chest feels tight and everything is too loud. I can't let anything happen to her. I won't let anything happen to her. Did she see us at the play? We were sitting next to each other that must've been suspicious after all the stalker does know our history. Then a horrible thought comes to my mind, did we close the curtains?
***
I went downstairs barely touching my breakfast. All I want to do is see Blair. My mind races with thoughts that the stalker might have photos of us doing... that. This is worse than I thought. Any elation from yesterday has gone, instead replaced with an unbeknown dread. As much as I need to tell Blair, I'm worried at how she'll react. Whoever this person is we will get to the bottom of it, we have to if not who knows what'll happen.
"Sweetie, what's wrong?" Mum asked as I looked down focused on staring at my food.
"How long do I have to stay grounded?" I questioned.
"Have you stopped being a lesbian?" Dad asked from across the table. Have you stoped being a homophobic dick?
I could lie. That would at least get me to see Blair more. We could say that we are friends and that I'm in love with the actor Andrew Garfield. No, that's crazy.
"Well?" He questioned strictly.
"You're a therapist haven't you ever had any LGBTQ+ clients?" I asked my mum.
"Well yes, I guess I have," she replied with a shrug.
"And what do you tell them? Do you tell them that they're 'confused' or that they will 'find the right man someday' how about 'It's just a phase'?" I retorted incredulously.
"No," she responded curtly, not elaborating on that point. Her face scrunching up in discomfort.
"So what do you say?" I questioned.
"I say what they want to hear, not what I believe," she sounded irritated.
"And what is that you believe?" I asked.
"I'm no longer having this conversation with you now it's time for you to go to school!" She snapped harshly before leaving the table.
***
I walked to school with Marcus because our dad wants us to. This is so we don't walk to school with who we're dating. He didn't think it through much because we met each other near Blair's house. Like normal Kyle and Blair are both waiting whilst looking at their phones.
"Hi," I said, going up to Blair giving her a quick kiss on the lips.
"Hi," she replied, putting her arms around my waist.
Once we'd all greeted each other we all walked to school. Kyle and Marcus are both holding hands, so are Blair and me.
When we got nearer to school we let go of the hands of each other because we're not out yet, whilst Marcus and Kyle are still holding hands. Even though their relationship wasn't announced in the best of ways I do feel envious over them being out. Blair and I have spoken about coming out to the school but I don't want her to mess up her reputation and I don't want the stalker to use any potential pictures as leverage with my dad.
***
Walking into school we all parted ways to go to our class so we are ready for the first lesson.
Blair meets me back at the classroom door because we both have chemistry together.
***
After we got to class and were seated I got the letter out of my bag and passed it to Blair.
"Another one?" she asked, her brows furrowed.
"Yeah."
Blair took a deep breath then opened up the letter.
"We're not breaking up, that would hurt more than any injury," Blair stated entwining her hand in mine under the table.
"I don't want to break up, but the stalker..." I trailed off.
"We'll be more careful, everything will be fine trust me," she replied sincerely.
"Only if you're sure, I don't want you to get hurt."
"Don't worry I'm sure," she said smiling, "If this doesn't stop soon we're contacting the police."
I smiled in return even though at the pit of my stomach I felt sick with dread. Although I know we should contact the police, part of me doesn't want to find out who it is because it's most likely someone we know.
***
Lunch was fun with Tess and April talking about everything that happened after the play. They got a fantastic review in the school paper as well. My mind drifts off to Blair and I's conversation earlier, I still need to speak to her about the curtains.
"I'm already excited for the next performance!" Tess exclaimed in her over the top-performing voice.
"Same but I'm also tired," April groaned through a yawn.
"Yeah, you've seemed really busy lately, both of you. We don't hang out that much anymore," Tess replied looking from April to me.
"Not true you've been prancing about with some Noah guy," April snickers.
"Whose Noah? Oh right sorry my brain has been so weird all I've been thinking about is the play," Tess quickly corrects herself. How could she not remember Noah? She's been talking about him for months.
"I'm grounded," I admitted, trying to break Tess's awkward tension.
"What! Why?"
"What. Why?"
Tess and April said in unison although April's response was a lot less exaggerated.
"My mum and dad found out that I'm you know," I replied hinting my sexulality, I don't want to say it in case someone overheard, doing some god awful hand gestures.
"What?" Tess replied dumbfounded.
"You know a lesbian," I whispered.
"Oh but you can't change that," Tess responded irritably.
"I'd happily punch them for you," April said, sounding so serious I had to laugh, causing them both to laugh with me.
"It's fine really, I'm fine," I replied lying.
"Are you sure?" Tess asked.
"Yeah. I'm sure," I lied again.
***
After school, I got home to my mum sitting on the sofa crying.
"I'm so sorry," she said.
"Sorry for what?" I asked sternly.
"I'm sorry for how I reacted to finding out that you're gay. I should be supportive and I'll try to persuade your dad."
"Wait so am I no longer grounded?" I asked finding it odd how she just changed her mind
"Yes. I'll go get your phone," she replied walking into the kitchen. I followed her watching her take my phone out of the locked drawer.
"Why now?" I questioned.
"What do you mean?" She asked.
"Why are you now choosing to accept me?"
"You were right. It was bad for me not to understand. I did a little research and have been thinking about it during the day. Earlier I put your stuff back in your room and your brother's stuff in his. I'm so sorry and I'm really going to try. I'm your mum. I should love you no matter what even if I don't like it," she replied.
"Thanks," I mumbled, taking my phone, not sure of what to say.
She gave me this sad smile as I walked out of the room.
***
Going to my room I texted Blair.
I got my phone back and am no longer grounded. My mum is going to try and talk to my dad about accepting my brother and I xxx
She replied straight away.
Yay. We'll get to hang out more ;) xxx
-Blair
I smiled down at my phone. Could everything be okay?
Then I got a text.
Congrats you got your phone back. An even faster way to break up with Blair.
Xx
How does the stalker know?
Then an attachment came up. It's a picture of my mum handing me the phone in our kitchen. I instantly felt sick and rushed over to the curtains. Just in case they are watching me.
Then everything went black.