Aurora
Me and Mattheo left the classroom to see a very flustered Theo, waiting for us.
"Just making sure you're not traumatised" I said and patted him on the shoulder.
"By that? Pfttt no. When I see something, I haven't seen before I'll throw a galleon at it"
"Right, I'm not even going to ask when you've seen me naked before" Mattheo said with furrowed eyebrows.
"Oh it was the time when you had that girl in the dorm last year and I walked in right when you were about to-...."
"THEO Shutup!" Mattheo clamped a hand over his mouth.
"Okayyyy, time for me to leave" I turned around quickly and walked away.
I don't know why I felt a sense of jealousy building in the Pitt of my stomach....i already knew Mattheo had been with other girls, many other girls but now that I'd actually heard someone else mention it, it was affecting me differently. My thoughts started to run wild with doubt. What if I wasn't as good as they were? I mean I had zero experience. Did they have better bodies than me? Did they make him feel better than me?. I stopped walking and let my body fall back against the wall behind me, I slid down to the ground and put my hands on my head. Hoping to ease my mind.
"Aurora, what's wrong?" I lifted my head to see Theo looking at me with concern.
"Nothing I'm okay, I just feel sick" I said and sent him a small smile.
"Shall I get Mattheo?"
"No! Um I mean, no it's fine. I-I don't want to bother him. Can you just take me to my room" it wasn't a complete lie, I did feel sick. But not because I was ill, because I was letting self doubt and anxiety rise within my body.
Theo held his hand out, which I gladly took ahold of. He wrapped an arm around my shoulders as we walked towards the common room.
Once we were inside, and Theo started to head towards the stairs. Draco spoke up from the sofas.
"If you're wanting your bed Aurora, I wouldn't go in there, Pansy is fucking some guy" Draco said without lifting his eyes away from the book in his hand.
I let a deep sigh out of my mouth, which Theo noticed instantly. My eyes started to burn and I could feel tears threatening to spill.
"Hey, don't cry" Theo said softly.
"I don't know why I'm crying, I-I just want my bed. I feel sick and my head hurts and I want MY bed" I was sobbing now.
"Come with me" Theo said and guided me up the stairs to the boy's dormitory's.
We entered the boys room and Theo sat me down on the edge of his bed.
"Okay so, you can either take my bed or Mattheo's. It's up to you mi amore" he smiled softly as he wiped a tear away from my cheek.
"I'll just stay here" I said quietly and moved my body to lie down. I felt Theo pull the sheets over my body and place a delicate kiss to my head.
"I'll be in the common room if you need me".
Mattheo
I walked into the common room and saw Theo and Draco on the sofa's. But Aurora wasn't there, I hadn't seen her since earlier and neither had any of the girls.
"Have either of you seen Aurora?" I asked and took a seat on the sofa next to Theo.
"Yeah, she's in our room" he said bluntly.
"Why is she in there and not out here?"
"She didn't feel well, I found her sat on the floor in the corridor with her head in her hands"
"Not only that, when he got her into the common room and I informed her she wouldn't be able to get into her bed because Pansy was getting fucked in their room, she burst into tears" Draco added.
"Yeah so I took her to our room instead and now she's in my bed, I'm guessing she's asleep because I told her if she needed me I'd be here and she hasn't come down" Theo shrugged.
"Why is she in your bed Nott?" I growled at him.
"Calm down, Mattheo. Your jealousy is showing. That's where I sat her down and then told her she could lie in my bed or yours and she said she'd stay where she was" he narrowed his eyes at me.
"But why didn't she want to get into my bed instead, I don't understand? Is there something going on with you two" I pointed my finger at him.
"No! What the fuck Mattheo. She's my friend as well and you know for a fact that she was always closer with me. You're a physco" he spat at me angrily as he stood up from the sofa.
"Nott, calm down" Draco said.
"I'm sorry okay, I-I didn't mean it. I just get worried about her" I said and let a sigh fall from my lips.
"I know you do mate, but so do I" Theo said and sat back down next me.
"I'm going to go make sure she's okay" I pushed myself up off the sofa and took the stairs two at a time. When I pushed the door open to the room, there she was curled up on her side in Theo's bed, like he said she would be.
"Aurora" I whispered gently.
Her body stirred and her eyes flickered open.
"Hi" she said quietly.
"Are you okay? Theo said you felt ill"
"Yeah I um, just felt sick" she spoke and rubbed a hand against her forehead.
"And it just came on out of nowhere?"
"Honestly no, I know exactly why I felt sick" she said with a sigh.
"What is it, darling?"
"It's what Theo said, about you and another girl. I already knew you'd been with other girls but hearing someone say it out loud. I started to feel jealous and then my mind was running wild, with all this self doubt and anxiety and I just felt really nauseous" she shrugged her shoulders, as if what she said was unimportant.
"Oh darling, listen to me. Yes I've slept with other girls. But I have never been in love with anyone else but you and that makes sex with you even more special. Because it's not just sex, it's a way to show our love for eachother. It means something" I could see tears welling up in her eyes. She lent forward and threw her arms around my neck.
"I love you Mattheo"
"I love you too, my perfect girl".
And I truly did, more than she would ever know. I would kill for her, die for her and I wished we could stay in this moment forever without facing any consequences.
Authors note
(1151 words) ughhh I relate to Aurora so much. That self doubt anxiety is a bitch.
Kisses xoxo
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