( feels like we are in Europe, but in Guangzhou, China 💕)
Breakfast
Masakit ang aking ulo dahil na siguro hindi ako makagalaw ng maayos sa pagkakatulog. Umusog ako ng konte paabante at isiniksik ko ang aking katawan sa aking unan. This warm feeling is very relaxing and I want to sleep more.
Hindi ko alam kung ilang oras akong nakatulog ngayon alam kong nasa 10am pa ang aming call of time at wala din nman akong alarm clock pero bakit ang ingay-ingay nito. Unti- unti kong binuksan ang aking mga mata at saktong may mga mata ding makatingin sa akin. Naging alarma ang aking diwa sapagkat ang aking mga kamay ay nakayakap sa mga bisig niya at ang aking mga paay nakasandal sa kanya. Juicecolored, paano to nangyari! Kumalabog ang dibdib sa pagkakataranta ko ay hinanap ng aking mga kamay ang kumot at ikinomot ko sa aking buong katawan dumaosos ako pababa at natulog ng kunwari. Kainin man ako ng lupa paninindigan ko ang pagkakatulog ko ngayon.
"Mornin" Ayon niya.
Hindi man lang gumalaw. Ano na gagawin ko?
He chuckles after a few seconds siguro narealize niya ang aking ginagawa. Pero paano ba ito nangyari e magkasalungat kami kagabi sa isa't isa!
He stopped the alarm and then up and went outside the room. Bahala siya basta mamaya pa ako gigising. Sana umalis siya ng maaga para hindi na nakaka-awkward lalo na kanina.
Kinuha ko ang aking selpon at tiningnan ang oras, it's 8:45am and he is still here. OMG what should I do? Naririnig ko pa ang paglalakad niya sa labas at may ginagawa.
Bakit ako ang nahiya? Hindi ba dapat siya?
Bahala na siya dyan, tumayo ako kinuha ko ang aking gamit at dali-daling naligo. Most Chinese taking a bath in the morning wasn't their hobby but me nah, my Filipino blood runs to me more am proud about it. Di ko kaya papawisan sa umaga dahil sa walang ligo. Napakarefreshing kaya maligo at gumalaw sa buong araw.
I surely wear my clothes inside the toilet mahirap na may bisita ako. Nagngingitngit ako sa galit habang naiisip ang lalaking ito! Paano ko ba to palayasin? Uh! Kinaumagahan nastress ang utak ko!
Sumasakit pa ang sentido ko!
I act like no one is around sino ba siya di ba? As I walk in my small kitchen I smell the food in there a toast bread with butter, eggs, sausages, fruits and my creamy coffee. Shit! I'm hungry.
What? I know he is watching me right now. And this boastful guy is smirking at me.
I'm hungry, I'm a breakfast eater like with rice is possible in my breakfast ganoon ako!
He looks so sweet right now as he is smiling at me. Alam niyo yong muntik ng mawala ang mata niya dahil sa pagngiti niya. Jesus Christ! At di ko kayang ibalik man lang yang ngiti na yan. Mukha kong byernes santo ng dahil sa kanya!
Hanggang kailan kami magtitigan nito!
May kumakatok na sa pinto. Ano na General lumayas kana! May sundo kana!
Inirapan ko ang gago!
Kumakatok pa din.
"I uh, you should go now you're comrade must be outside." I sweetly said but deep inside sinisigawan ko na ito damuho na to!
Panatilihing kumalma ka Grace!
He sit in front of me. JWTF! Didn't he hear what I said?
I act like I'm eating now bahala siya. Hindi naman sinabi niya pero nasa harapan ang pagkain na niluto niya so akin to, bayad din sa pagtulog niya sa kama ko! Like the pretty cutey lady I eat so slow, I'm taking my time until he's gone. I want my peace!
"We will go together and you'll be at the camp site for medical rights this virus is taking all the people it's not contagious and yet it's not safe for everyone. Your team needs our assistance so we go together. " He said calmly.
I drop my fork after what he said. I watch him dreadfully. The door knock again.
" Should I open the door? " He ask again like nothing to discuss more.
Sa galit ko sinigawan ko siya at pinalalakihan ko ang aking mga mata!
" Yes, please! " Saad ko.
For the name of God he didn't get that! I'm angry! Imposible.
Ngayon ko lang napansin ay nakasuot pala siya ng long button shirt at tight pants. Di ba my duty din siya? Ano civilians lang?
Paki ko pala. Bahala siya.
I eat my fruit like my time is forever. I check my watch it's 9:25am may oras pa ako.
Nang biglang.
" Hey, good morning your brother? " Jared Wang said.
Napaangat ako sa aking tingin. How did he come inside?
The Horse never broke he's eyes watching Jared. Is he angry? Will, in that case who opens the door and lets him go inside at kung umasta parang kasalanan ko pa?
Tayka bakit ka ano-ano ba kita hooyyyy!
Umasta pa na galit.
"No, I'm her husband." He said naturally. A playful smirk slip on his lips.
Oh wow! Jared's eyes ask me if this is real.
Oh my God!
Ano to!
I find myself cornered by this asshole!
How can I prolong this issue it will come out anyway. How about a white lies then I mean I can maybe... But I should be truthful to him no one can get too close to me but Jared he deserves the truth.
"I, uh... My husband prepared my breakfast " I awkwardly smile at him. " You shouldn't bother but thanks Jared. " I give him my very convincing smile. I don't normally smile widely but this guy makes me do it I look like an idiot now . Meeting this horse I am not myself anymore this is a very bad sign!
Well, the horse looks happy how can he change his mode with an instant.
I feel sorry for Jared because I feel like I offended him. I could make him understand in a good way after all he is a good friend of mine.
It may feel like I am heartless now but I know this truth can give us line to where we should be. I should honor my marriage even it is force by our family. This is about my family. I shouldn't ignore this fact and I shouldn't forget how it happened on that day. I don't want to give to others more pain or could make their life hard because of me. I can't bear that.
" Oh well see you in the field then. " He look disappointed and gone. He can't look at me.
My tears ran down to my cheeks, i compose myself to finish my breakfast, I didn't react after he was gone I continued to eat while my tears keep falling, after that i cleaned and prepared to go.
My heart hurts. I feel like I've done so many bad things in my life.
I thought the horse was gone, he was in my sofa waiting for me. I couldnt say more I am in rage.
"I am not sorry,I know you are angry but I am fucking jealous with that man. He can get close to you and make you smile those fucking things I should be that man Grace it's should be me. I am sorry if your mad but fucking hell I can't stop it. Watching you from afar is one thing and watching you two in this close is another thing. " He clenched his jaw. His eyes never leave mine. I get even more nervous with his words, what is he saying? He is jealous? in my nervousness I step backward as he is walking forward, he cornered me at the door. His hand at door like his drooling over me.
What's happening now?
Nilakasan ko ang aking loob, ano nalang na ganito siya pwede na?
" Where are you those days then huh? You talk like its my fault. What we are because of our family." My voice faded. I couldn't hold my tears. " Do not accuse me for the things I did not commit, he is a good friend William I can tell him in a good way. I feel like I am such a liar person that i hide you from him-"
Hindi ko alam kung bakit humantong sa ganitong hinalikan niya ako una sa ibabaw ng aking labi at sumunod sa pang ibaba muling binalik sa taas na may kasamang dila na. Pakiramdam ko nawawalan ako ng lakas at napasandal ako sa kanya dahil kung hindi ay baka mahuhulog ako pababa. This is my first kiss and the things is I don't know what to do. He kisses my forehead and dries my tears and lastly a swift kiss on my lips.
That was fast, and I am speechless.
" I'm sorry qin ai de I will try not to do it again, hao ba hao. " Natulala ako sa sinabi niya. He kisses me once more this time is more torrid and passionate. Pumintig ang puso ko at nasa isip ko ay ang ginagawa niyang paghalik. I like it. I tried to follow his lips, I kissed him back but I ended up biting his tongue. He groaned painfully, I stopped and checked in the corner of lips bleeding. Dali-dali kong kinuha ang aking dalang tissue sa bag ba bitbit ko at pinunasan.
"Tongue out now!" Utos ko.
"What for? " He ask back.
"I'll check how bad is it, tongue out!" Ulit ko.
He chuckles and give a swift kiss.
"Nah, it wouldn't kill me qin ai de it takes more than that to kill me." He wink.
Qin ai de?
For real?
For a moment he hugged me for I don't know how long, I just let him. I couldn't understand why I just let him. His head was in the crack of my neck as he sniffed my skin and pampered me with kisses. He relaxed his body so I could feel it.
We stand there filling for each other's comfort.
It felt good.
God what did this man do to make me submit this easy.
He held my hand, opened the door and we walked to his car. Intertwine our fingers with each other.
He's black Ferrari 296 gtb told me how rich he is.
I can't help but look at him.
A Ferrari on the island.
Love, the thing is I don't know how these four letters are but right now I trust his words. There is something with him that makes me believe in him. Seldom to me, but it happens right now.
Pwede bang maramdaman ito sa sandaling panahon?
My heart is not heavy at all.
It was a Relief.
William Huang, the first young battalion General commander in Chief as the rumors says, he was a heartless but i prove them wrong.
He holds my hand with respect and his eyes tells me everything.
He is a good person.