I was too stunned to speak because of what he said. I already got the idea who is he but I mentally shook my head and shrugs it of my mind, dismissing the thoughts. Hindi siya 'yun! Damn it, hindi ako makakaalis ng hotel na 'to ng hindi nababaliw. Heck! This is complicated. I don't know what to feel and say anymore.
I want to cry badly right now. But that's too gay. But aren't I...gay for having sex with the same gender?
Fuck! Now I'm having identity crisis.
You should stop this nonsense Vrkos. Overthinking is a fucking sign of weakness. No one in the Hakkien Clan is weak. Stop overthinking and get over it like a real man you are. Nadala ka lang sa init ng katawan at sa drogang nainom mo. You had no choice that time but to give in to the pleasure.
That's it, think like that. You.Are.Not.A.Fucking.Gay.
But you had sex with the same...gender? Stop you dipshit mind! In the midst of the battle with my own mind I got to my reverie when I heard him talk again.
"Talk, baby. Talk to me please." He pleaded using he's gentle but soothing voice. Gone. The cold tone is gone, it's nowhere near his voice this time.
Itinulak ko ito ng bahagya habang nakakunot ang nuo at seryosong tinignan 'to. "What the hell dude! Are you crazy?"
I know who is he. His Mr. Police Grey Eyes! The one who accused me. Yung dapat kakasuhan ko. But I didn't bother cause I'm busy at that time and I also forgotten about it. Now that he's here, naalala ko nanaman. Lalo lang nasira ang araw ko. Should I continue sueing him? He pop up out of nowhere. Tapos kung ano ano pa ang sinasabi. Bakla 'ata si gago, hindi ako.
"Now you forget about me." He look upset telling me that.
I shot him a bored look. What the is this man even saying? I forget about him? Me, forgetting him is absorb. "Dude, I didn't forget you."
"Really?" He looks like a lost puppy waggling his tail when he saw his master carrying a bone for him to eat. Fuck, he look like a clingy big man.
"Really. Who would even forget someone who fucking wrong and accused you for illegal trafficking." I said in a matter fact tone with a poker face.
Kita ko kung pa'no bumagsak ang balikat nito sa mga sinabi ko. I arch my brow in wonder. What? Is he expecting something though?
"And will you please distance yourself a little. Masyado ka ng malapit...dude."
He distance a little, enough to give me space to breathe in relief. Muntik na akong maubusan ng hininga do'n, ah. Atsaka ko lang napansin na hindi pala uniporme ng pulis ang suot niya. He is wearing an expensive business suit. A Emporio Armani Single-Breasted Straight Leg Suit. A very expensive suit, did he came from a wealthy family? Ang akala ko pulis 'to? Bakit mukhang businessman.
The suit looks good in him. It emphasis his huge and mouth dropping body build.
I definitely sounds gay for a second, lusting for a man who I have a huge crush on.
What the hell Vrkos, you have the audacity to praise him in this situation. Man, you have the same body! Mas malaki lang ang kanya at mukhang mas balak sa workout.
I think I need to workout again. This past few months I didn't go to the gym. Kaylangan ko ng magpalaki ng katawan para maging kapantay ko ang katawan nito at para hindi ko pinupuri masyado sa utak ko.
"Stop calling me dude. Hindi mo 'ko kaibigan," He irritatedly stated.
I smile sarcastically. "What do you want me to call you? Honey?"
He did not talk for a minute. He just stared at me. I can see a red tint in his cheeks spreading trough his whole face and neck. I frown a little. Is he sick. Bakit namumula siya. Hindi naman ga'no kainit dito sa cr, although kulob 'to. Kanina wala naman 'yan, ah. Is he blushing by any chance?
"Why are you getting red? Honey." I continue my sarcastic remarks.
"Stop saying that!"
"What do you mean honey?" Maang maangan ko.
"T-that, t-that w-word-"
"What word honey? And will you please stop stuttering, hindi mo bagay. For a huge man, you stutter too much."
"T-the w-word h-h-honey!"
"Why naman honey? What would you do if I did not?" I continue teasing him. Yes, I don't know how my teasing started. Basta alam ko nageenjoy akong nauutal siya at nahihiya.
"Just because!"
"Just because, what?"
"Don't ask." I can see the visible vain popping in his neck because of frustration.
"Why not just answer me honey?"
He suddenly glared at me. Dahan dahan niyang kinain ang distasya namin at hinawakan ang dalawa kung kamay. Hihilahin ko na sana ito ng itaas niya 'to sa uluhan ko. Now the table has turned. I can feel the hot feeling spreading to my face down to my neck and body.
Inilapit nito ang mukha sa tenga ko at bumulong. His breath fan in my neck. Ramdam ko ang pagtaas ng balahibo ko sa batok dahil do'n.
"Stop teasing me, honey. Cause I'm already hard. Might bang you here if I totally lose my sanity."
He close the distance of our lower torso. And I feel the hard thing poking my stomach. I became speechless. I think I just lost for words.
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