thank you aphr0d1teh for the idea inspo! ily!💓
As I rode my bike home from work at the Country Club, all I could think of was being wrapped up in Rafe's arms and having a chill night with the love of my life. Customers were extremely rude today, and I was in no mood for drama.
I made the last left turn and started picking up the pace, pedaling quickly as I approached Tannyhill. I parked my bike by the steps, walking up them and pulled my key out to let myself in. When I walked in, I noticed how quiet it was in the large mansion. The lights were off, except for a faint light in the kitchen.
I turned on a few lights, and Rafe was nowhere to be found.
"Baby love? I'm home!" I called, looking for Rafe.
Rafe has been working a lot of late nights for Cameron Development, so maybe he was out working on the next project. As I was about to head upstairs to get ready for bed, I walked into Rafe's office to set my purse and keys down. I hung my purse on the hook and set my keys on Rafe's desk, when I noticed a white powder on my fingers.
"Huh, that's strange. I don't remember leaving any makeup down here." I said, looking around his desk. I opened one of the drawers and that's when I saw the bag of coke. I grabbed it and headed for the kitchen.
"Barry," I said, putting two and two together. "You've got to be fucking kidding me." I huffed.
I walked into the kitchen and washed my hands, and as I dried them, I heard the lights turn on.
"Angel!" Rafe said, stumbling over to me. I stayed by the sink.
"Rafe." I said, pursing my lips.
"How was work, love?" Rafe slurred lowly. He walked over to me, wrapping his arms around my waist. His eyes were bloodshot red.
I pushed Rafe's arms off of me. I pulled the bag of coke from behind me.
"Rafe," I said harshly. "Why do you have this?"
Rafe chuckled drunkenly. "That's not mine, it's Barry's."
I stepped in front of Rafe. "Rafe, I know it's yours. I can smell it on you."
"You always do this." Rafe muttered.
"Do what?" I question.
"You come home, act like I'm the bad guy, and then accuse me of the worst shit. I am telling you right now that is not mine." Rafe slurred.
I inched closer to him. "Don't fucking lie to me." I hissed.
Rafe glared at me darkly, his height towered over me. "So what if it is mine, huh? Maybe if you didn't stress me out all the time, I wouldn't have to take this!"
I looked at him, the man I love and I no longer recognized him. "Rafe, you're hurting yourself when you take it. I love you so much, and I see the good in you. You know I'd do absolutely anything for you. You are going down a path that I can't follow." I said, my eyes welling up with tears.
"See? There it is! You are judging me. You've always been against me." Rafe said, bringing a glass of whiskey to his lips.
"No I haven't," I replied, shaking my head. I took his hands in my hands. "I've done so much for you, Rafe. I would've done anything for you, but that's long gone now." I said, tears streaming down my face.
"Don't shake your head. You've always been against me, and you still are. You're probably conspiring with that dirty Pogue, JJ," Rafe said lowly. He reached his hand and cupped my cheek. "You're in love with him, aren't you? That's where you were tonight, huh?" Rafe said, more anger in his voice.
"I was at work, asshole! JJ is my best friend, you know this." I retorted.
Rafe finished the last drop of whiskey, stood up from the chair and set the glass behind his head.
"Rafe, please don't-" but it was too late. He threw the glass and it shattered, one piece slitting the right corner of my eyelid.
My lips quivered as I looked at Rafe. My brain couldn't even process what had happened. I knelt down and started picking up the glass.
Rafe closed his eyes and when he did so, the memory of him throwing the glass cup at me played in his mind. He knelt down beside me and started helping me pick up the glass, his other hand grasping my hand tightly.
"Y/n, baby, I- I didn't mean to. Come on sweet love, let's get you cleaned up. I am so sorry. Baby please believe me I didn't mean to." Rafe said quickly.
I looked at Rafe and shook my head. "One time I can forgive. This has happened way too many times and I can't do this anymore." I said through tears.
I went into our bathroom and took one good look at my eye and cried softly. I went into our room and grabbed a suitcase and packed a couple of outfits and things I would need for a few days.
Rafe came up the stairs and came into our room. He saw me packing my things and panicked.
"Baby- what are you- what are you doing? Let's just talk this through. I really did plan on getting and staying clean. You know I'd do anything for you my love. It was an accident, it will never happen again." He said, looking at me with his ocean blue eyes.
"I just need some time, Rafe. Can you please respect that?" I whispered.
Rafe grabbed my hand. "Where are you going? Please don't leave me!" He cried.
"I'm gonna stay with the Pogues for a bit while you and I figure things out. Guess that makes me dirty, doesn't it? Since I am one?" I said, my eyes dark.
"Baby, no, no. I didn't mean you when I said-" I cut him off.
"I know exactly what you meant. Goodnight, Rafe." I said, leaving Tannyhill.
As I shut the door, I heard Rafe yell, "SHIT!" and I could hear things being thrown, and glass breaking. I closed my eyes and covered my ears.
It was a total Godsend when I heard the sound of a vehicle approach Tannyhill. I looked up, and I saw The Twinkie pull up to Tannyhill.
JJ POV
I turned down the long road to Tannyhill, hoping Rafe would be asleep and I could maybe talk to y/n. I haven't seen her in so long, and I just wanted to make sure she's alright. When I saw her sitting on the steps with a suitcase and phone in her hands, I knew something was wrong.
I rolled down the window. "Hey, y/n!" I said, cheerfully.
She looked up at me with hopeful eyes, like I was just the person she had been looking for. I parked the Twinkie and walked up the steps to greet her. She looked disoriented and exhausted. I opened my arms to her and she pulled me in. I held her as she sobbed. When she let go of my embrace, I wiped her tears.
"Hey, hey. Shh, it's okay, it's alright," I spoke softly as I held her. "What happened?"
"Can I stay with you guys for a couple of days? I promise I won't intrude. I just need to get out of here for a little while." Y/n whispered.
"You don't even have to ask, y/n. You're always welcome at the chateau. I miss you. We all miss you." I said softly, rubbing her back.
Y/n put her hands up by her ears to block out Rafe yelling.
"Come on, let's get you home." I said. She nodded as she got into the Twinkie.
Y/N POV
It was a quiet ride back to the Chateau. My head was still trying to figure out what had happened. I'm so grateful JJ had been right there, he always has a way of showing up right when I need him to.
We pulled into the chateau, I could see Kie, Sarah, John B, and Pope having a great time in the Cat's Ass. I was in no mood for hanging out with them. I just wanted to cry.
JJ parked the Twinkie and helped me down from my seat. "Thanks, JJ. You always seem to have a way of showing up when I need you most." I said softly.
JJ looked at me and said, "I'd do anything for you, y/n. You're my best friend. When myself and the rest of us hadn't heard from you in a while, I got worried. You know if you ever need anything, I'm always here for you."
"Thank you." I said softly.
"Come on, let's get some ice cream and we can talk." JJ said, leading me inside. As I followed him, I looked around the Chatueu, so many fond memories played in my head as I looked at all the photos.
There was one photo in particular that caught my eye. It was one Kiara took of JJ and I on the HMS. I sat on his lap, he placed his red baseball cap on my head, giving me a cheesy grin. Everybody thought JJ and I would end up together, and part of me thought we would, but then Rafe happened. After everything that's happened with Rafe, I don't know if I would even stand a chance with JJ, or if he would even be interested.
"I remember that day very well, it's my favorite picture." JJ said, snapping me from my thoughts.
"And then I pushed you in later." I chuckled, thinking back to the memory.
"You know, I still have to get you back for that. Someday." JJ laughed.
"Yeah. Someday," I said softly. I cleared my throat and said, "Cookie dough." with a smile.
"Of course, gotta have your favorite on hand for when you return." JJ smiled. I looked at him softly.
"What?" JJ asked.
"I'm just thinking." I hummed as I took a spoon into the ice cream.
"What are you thinking about?" JJ asked, as he took a bite of ice cream.
"How different my life would be if I didn't fall for Rafe Cameron." I whispered.
JJ took my hands and looked at me. "I think about that all the time. I should've told you sooner that I.." JJ started to trail off. "Oh my god y/n, did Rafe do that to you?" JJ asked, as he looked at my eye.
"It's nothing that hasn't happened before, Jay. Don't worry about it. What were you saying? Something that you should've told me sooner?" I asked.
"Never mind that," JJ said, blushing. "What happened?" JJ asked intently, grabbing a warm wash cloth and some disinfectant.
"Oh, Rafe just got upset, that's all. It happens." I replied, looking away.
"Y/n. I'm going to ask you one more time. What did Rafe do to you?" JJ asked a little louder, tilting my chin so I'd look at him.
"He threw his glass at me. He was aiming for the floor, but it hit my eye instead. It was an accident, Jay. I'm fine." I said, holding onto his arm.
JJ's jaw clenched. I could only imagine what JJ was thinking right now. "I'm calling the police." JJ said quickly as he took out his phone.
"JJ, don't. Please. It was an accident." I said.
"Do you love him, y/n? Even after what he does to you?" JJ asked.
"Yes, JJ, I love him. The good, the bad, and the ugly." I answered truthfully.
"Your mouth says one thing, but your eyes say another." JJ whispered, holding my hand.
"JJ, it's.. complicated! I don't know." I said, feeling overwhelmed.
"It doesn't have to be, y/n. And even if it is, we will work it out. We always do." JJ said softly, rubbing my hand.
"JJ, it's too complicated." I said again, seeing the hurt in his eyes.
"Nothing's too complicated for me," JJ replied. "And if it's so complicated, why are you still holding my hand?" JJ grinned.
I looked down and realized he was right, my hand was still entwined with his. I quickly let go and brushed my hand on my thigh.
"Listen, y/n. I know you have a lot going on in your head at the moment. I know it's a lot. But I love you. I won't ever hurt you. You'd be safe here with me, I promise," JJ said. He placed a kiss on my forehead and headed to his room. He turned around and looked at me. "Are you coming?"
I smiled and followed behind him and closed the door. In the morning, I'd know what to do.
A/N: part 2?