"It is often the small steps, not the giant leaps, that bring about the most lasting change."
— Queen Elizabeth II
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I know he would find the journal sooner or later, but...I didn't expect this soon.
I had found it missing this morning. And I had seen it on his bedside table.
He knows I caught onto him. He keeps saying "it's nothing". But he knows I know it's not "Nothing". He knows I'm going to dig deeper anyways.
He knows how much I want to say Sarah isn't the bad guy.
I need to show him he can trust me.
I don't think he will.
He will probably find this again.
So I need to hide it.
Maybe I should sneak to her house.
Maybe I could hide and find out what has been happening.
Or maybe I'm wrong and she is a jerk.
Or am I right?
This is just too hard for me.
I can't handle it.
Maybe I just need to talk to Colby.
Or Sarah.
Or both.
Or none.
People are panicking.
I'm not.
Well, not for their reason.
I miss Mom.
And Dad.
And little Ben.
And Big Alison.
I wish I could see them again.
But I'm too busy.
Too busy with my situation.
Maybe I need a break.
A vacation.
Or maybe to explore.
I heard Colby likes exploring.
Maybe we could explore together?
I don't know.
This writing stuff down is helping me.
Maybe I should continue.
Maybe I will.
There is this abandoned place I wanted to go to.
Maybe we can go together.
Me and Colby.
Perfect.
It will be fun.
Just time to ask him.
-Sam Golbach (June 3rd, 2018)
Ps: He said yes. We are going tommorrow.