"We can share spoon."
You averted your eyes quickly from Yoongi, you can feel your face getting hot again.
Things like sharing spoon or sharing a drink from the same bottle are an intimate act to you. Hoseok, on the other hand doesn't really like sharing utensils or drinking in the same bottle with another person. He told you that he's a bit sensitive on things like this. But eventually he let you share utensils and drinks after few months of dating.
And here, Yoongi just told you that you two should share one spoon. You're not actually fuss with sharing saliva with another person, even you and Seol share the same utensils all the time. But Yoongi is a man, and sharing your saliva with another man other than your boyfriend is a bit weird.
Is it? Or am I just being overly sensitive?
He's the one who bought the ice cream after all. He bought you ice cream because he saw you crying, dumbass. And here you being bothered by sharing a spoon and ice cream he bought with his money.
He's just being friendly. Yes, friends share spoon. Yoongi and I are friends, right?
"What? You don't want to share spoon with me?" Yoongi speak again after noticing that you went silent.
"N-no...it's just-"
"I brushed my teeth."
"It's not that..." you mutter, your eyes looking down on the ice cream tub on your lap.
"Or you just want the ice cream all to yourself?" Yoongi chuckled breathily.
You didn't respond, your eyes still fix at the ice cream on your lap. You bit your lip, you can't even lift your head now, your face is so flushed.
"Eat it before it melts."
Yoongi takes his phone from his pocket. You try to look at him in the side of your eye, he looks like he's texting somebody.
Without lifting your head, you tore the lid of the ice cream tub gently. The smell of chocolate graze through your nose. You took the spoon out from the plastic bag and quickly dig in the tub of ice cream. You bring the spoonful of chocolate almond ice cream to your mouth, and you close your eyes feeling the cold and savoring the pure and sweet flavor of almond on your tongue.
You dig a spoonful of ice cream again and before you could bring it to your mouth, Yoongi grab your wrist and move your hand towards his mouth. He opens his mouth and took the spoonful of ice cream.
Now it looks like your feeding him the ice cream. He close his eyes, savoring the flavor with overly dramatic expression on his face like he's in some Baskin Robbins commercial.
And then he moaned.
You can feel the vibration of his moan into the plastic spoon.
And just when you thought you couldn't get more flustered, he then slowly lick the spoon clean.
You swear to God, you felt something inside you jolted.
You quickly let go of the spoon, leaving it inside Yoongi's mouth.
He took the spoon from his mouth and dig a spoonful of ice cream and bring it to his mouth. He moaned again. He dig another spoonful, and he moaned again. And again, and again.
What the actual fuck is going on!?
You just froze on your seat, with a strong grip on the tub of ice cream still on your lap.
This time, when he dig another spoonful, instead of bringing it to his mouth he brings it to yours.
"Say aaahhh~" Yoongi told you, with a playful look on his face.
He bump the tip of the spoon gently to your sealed lip, trying to feed you the ice cream.
What the hell? Is he suddenly drunk or what?
"Aaahhh~" he said it longer this time, while he keep bumping the tip of the spoon on your tightly closed lips.
You look at him and his mouth is open wide, he's gesturing you to open yours. His mouth was open wide you can clearly see his pinkish tongue and his shiny white teeth.
Realizing he's not gonna leave you alone without you opening your mouth, you slowly parted your lips and Yoongi immediately shove the spoon inside your mouth. The ice cream melted quickly on your warm mouth.
"You like it Y/N?"
You gulp as you swallow air on your throat. His voice sounded very husky and velvety, you've never heard him speak in this voice before.
What the fuck is happening? You screamed inside your head. Beads of cold sweat starting to form on your forehead.
And just when you think this night can't get any weirder, all of a sudden Yoongi put his thumb over your lower lip.
Your heart started stammering with intensity, you swear you can almost feel every beat against your ribcage.
Then he simply stare down at your lips. His lips parted with his front teeth peeking out. You froze as he wiped the pad of his thumb across your bottom lip.
He remove his finger from your lower lip. He speak and raise his thumb in front of your face.
"Ice cream"
You look at his thumb and you see the melted ice cream on it.
He just wipe the ice cream that smeared on your lip. Of course, what are you thinking, Y/N?
"Oh...thanks." you mumbled silently
Then you realized Yoongi is still staring at your face. And you can't help but stare at him too. No one dare to speak. The atmosphere was so silent, the only thing you can hear was the sound of cicadas and crickets and the very soft sound of water.
Yoongi's face looks unfairly beautiful under the pale moonlight. His crescent moon shaped eyes and his warm brown orbs shining under the moonlight, like a gem, catching your attention.
You want to touch his face. To feel the smooth skin of his face. His face is so pale, in a beautiful way. His lips are so pink, you want to graze it with your thumb.
Yoongi is so beautiful.
Yoongi clear his throat, and your eyes immediately fall on your lap as you realized what your mind was thinking just seconds ago.
He shift on his seat, turning away from you and looking straight in front of the car where he can clearly see the river glisten under the moonlight.
He lower the back of his seat and lay his back comfortably. He let out a sigh, still looking straight at the river. All of a sudden, he speak with a very low and soft voice.
"Why were you crying at the club earlier?"
Flashback of those girls giggling at the restroom flash through your mind. You just stay silent, you don't even know what to say to Yoongi. Do you say you cry because of those girls? Or was it because of Hoseok? At this point you're not even sure what you are crying about.
"Y/N, you can tell me."
Yoongi flashes you that smile again. That soft smile, a smile that looks like it can comfort someone who is uncertain and afraid. And you felt like it's slowly melting your walls when he shared the most captivating smile. His smile feels so warm and it makes you want to open yourself to him. To share your thoughts to him. To share your pain to him.
Yoongi stay silent like he's just waiting for you to speak.
A minute passed and the silence start to feel deafening.
Can I tell him? Will it make me feel better if I tell him?
You haven't share to anybody what happened between you and Hoseok, not even Seol. Because you never expect it to turn out like this. You thought it was just a mere argument. You thought after you talk with Hoseok at the café that day everything will be okay again. But it didn't, it just make it worse. And you feel like everyday of not talking or seeing Hoseok drove you far away from him. Especially, after hearing what those girls at the club were talking about.
You wonder if he's hurting like you. If he's crying at night, when he take a shower or when he's alone at his studio. Did he hole up himself in his bedroom and wallow in self-pity like you?
You're just so lost and exhausted of everything happening in your life right now. With Hoseok, with work. And you want a break, a 'destressing', as what Adora like to call it.
Will opening up to Yoongi help me destress?
Maybe talking about my feelings with another person will help me destress and help me process my feelings.
But Hoseok and Yoongi are friends, hell they are best friends. What if he disregard your feelings because Hoseok is his best friend?
But Yoongi and I are friends too, right?
He asked you first why you were crying at the club. He even bought you ice cream. He care, right? Maybe. Maybe not.
Oh fuck, whatever. I'm letting this out of me.
"Hoseok and I are going through a rough patch."
"But we'll get through it." you continued, eyes fixed on the glistening river.
"We'll get through it." That's what you always put on your head whenever you and Hoseok are going through something. And you two always get through it. But this time, you're not really sure if that's the case.
There was a moment of silence before Yoongi decided to speak.
"He love you. Hoseok love you so much, I know it. Everybody knows it." He said in a low voice, almost whispering.
I felt good to hear it. "Hoseok love you so much." It felt good hearing it from somebody outside your relationship. You felt reassured somewhat.
You turn to look at Yoongi who is still staring straight at the river.
"That felt really good to hear."
Yoongi was about to say something when you heard a weird clapping noise.
"Did you hear that?" You asked him as you try to locate where that weird clapping noise was coming from.
Yoongi just glance past you.
"What was that?" You asked again, confusion written on your face.
"What do you think?" a playful grin form on his mouth.
You turn your head towards the direction he was looking at. And there you see a silver car, parked few meters away from Yoongi's car. Your eyes flew open as you realized that the silver car was shaking
"Told you, people go here to fu-"
"Oh my god! Stop, don't say it!"
You quickly tear your eyes away from the silver car. Yoongi just laugh out loud at your reaction.
"Can we please just go!?"
He just continue laughing and without saying another word he started to drive. The drive to your apartment took only 15 minutes since it's 1:00 am already and there are only few vehicles on the road.
Yoongi parked his car on the parking ground and you grab your purse, looking at your reflection in the rear view mirror before getting out of the car.
"Thank you Yoongi, keep safe driving home."
You gave him a smile and you grab the door handle and you were about to open the door but Yoongi grab your wrist.
"Y/N...if you ever need someone to talk to just send me a message or call me anytime, day or night. I know we're not that close yet but I wanna be friends with you. And I...I really enjoy hanging out with you." he quietly said, giving you that prescious reassuring smile again.
You stare at Yoongi intently for a long time. Then you smile, tears welling up on the side of your eyes. Something in what Yoongi just said stir something inside of you.
It feels good hearing nice things, knowing that someone is willing to talk to you, to listen to you. Especially these past few weeks that you kinda feel alone, with Seol being busy with her acting career and with all the stuff that's happening with Hoseok.
What you need the most right now is a friend. A friend that will simply be there for you, someone that you can spend good time with. Someone who can bring you out of your circling thoughts, and that someone could be Yoongi.
Without saying anything, you lean forward to Yoongi and put your two arms around him. You snake your arms around his neck and bury your face on his shoulder, sobbing lightly.
Yoongi move his arms around your waist, pressing your body and hugging you warmly towards him. He press his chest lightly against yours, and started giving you small massages on the top of your back.
You keep Yoongi in that position for a couple of more seconds and then gently let go of him. You look at him in the eyes when you separate. He cupped your face with his both hands and bring his thumb below your eyes and wipe the tear stain on your cheek.
"It's all gonna be okay." he told you while giving you a genuine smile.
"Thanks Yoongi, you're a great friend."
Yoongi let go of your face and his smile fell to a line. But you don't want him to let go. You want him to be there with you, you want him to hold your face, you want him to hug you more. You want him to touch you.
You want more.
Heat flares up fast, this time not only on your face, but all through out your whole body. A feeling of familiar warmth pooling below your stomach, and it's definitely not something you eat.
You clear your throat and stare straight at Yoongi's eyes.
Y/N, you're not on your right mind. Please don't say anything.
Don't open your mouth.
I'm not thinking right.
You found yourself speaking the words before you thought through them clearly. "I don't know if you have any plans tonight but would you like to come over and have a few more drinks?"
Yoongi's expression changed after hearing what you said. His eyes are wide like he couldn't believe what you just said. He tore his eyes on you and look forward. He stay silent for a while, he seems to be in deep thought.
Inhaling deeply, Yoongi cleared his throat, turning towards you. Then he close his eyes for a few seconds and open it again.
"I need to go. You need to sleep too, it's late."