29 Aug 2024
2:43 am
I really wanna shout like aaaaaa.
It was literally difficult for me to sleep, my nose blocked due to crying like a pig and stomach ached. I had thought about sleeping early around 9 or 10. I got myself into an uncomfortable sleep around 11 pm thinking about him and other melodramas and it resulted in seeing dreams , very very eccentric dreams.
All I remember is that I saw a lady asking me about why I chose architect then some seniors, then as far as I remember I also dreamt about seeing M#hi and him texting me back.
I jolted awake and saw the light through the window. I panicked about if I was late or something then checked my phone and it was 2:37 am and the light outside was due to tubelight.
But the most important thing that happened as I checked my phone.
M#hi! finally texted. 4 messages and the last one at 2:27 am. Exactly 10 mins before I woke up.
He texted me so nicely that I couldn't stop echoing those texts in my brain...
No u r not bothering me
How have you been omega
This book is about me n?
I will definitely read it butt now I sleeping it's too late
I didn't cry like a pig now. I was happy... Happy with the fact that my dream came true, that he finally texted and I couldn't cry anymore now as all the tears supposed to flow now had been flew away few hours ago.
I was writing on Wattpad about this and halfway my ached stomach gave me a signal that I need to go to washroom.
After that I continued writing. And as it's too late( as M#hi! had said) I won't text him now but in the morning.
And there was also another reason that what if I texted him, he might be sleeping peacefully then his notification tone would ring up and break his sleep.
I whispered to myself, I can too vibe with romantic songs now!
Then I tried sleeping but couldn't. As my stomach ached and my sleep already broken.
It was exactly 4:14 am when my phone buzzed and I switched it on hoping it would be M#hi!.
And he was M#hi!
ARSH will u be my friend ..
I was like... PHINALLLYY ( FINALLYY)
HE KNOWS ME NOW. HE KNOWS NOW THAT OMEGA IZZZ ARSH.
I was so happy. I replied to all his previous texts and said at last... I can't believe I finally confessed.
Then he was typing. I was so eagerly waiting what he was typing. And after 2 mins his reply came...
Arsh I'm not into these things like relationship so I'll not accept ur proposal.
If there were a euphoric scale from 1 to 10, I dropped from 10 to 0.
Firstly it was all my fault. Because I texted him not considering other facts. I didn't thought like anything what would he say or happen. I wasn't even clear about what I truly wanted.
If M#hi! had agreed, I would surely have dated him.
But as far as I remember, I didn't like relationships. I really despise them. I always thought that a friendship is pure and comfortable.
But in case of M#hi!, if he loves what I hate , I would stop hating that thing.
But I was a little broken to know that he won't be with me. I replied saying it's fine it's totally fine and on the other side, my heart got heavy and tears fell down my cheek as we talked in the darkness surrounding my room.
He talked so nicely with me. Reassured me again and again that I can text him anytime on whatsapp.
He gave me Princess treatment.
All the time he said thanku.
I felt sad. And can't explain further...
He read all of my book. He even told me to follow on snap. And sent me his snap too. And I know why he did so. I read one my writings where I had talked about drawing the only pic I've seen of him since last year.