Red pov:
The question Chloe asked me hit deep. I started to think of an answer but wasn't able to.
Chloe: Do you even love your mom? Are you happy she changed for the better?
Do I? I got the mom I always wanted.... ever since I was a little girl, I craved for her gentle words and touch only to always get the opposite. I walk to my bed and sit. I started to tear up. I got the mom I've always wanted... the mom who cares. For the first time in my life, I heard the words "I love you" come out of her mouth, and it was to me. I started to tear up more. She said that to me, she has never done that ever. Why don't I believe it? She's finally proud of me, proud of who I am. I got everything I ever wanted. Why I am feeling like this? I should be happy, but I'm crying. I never cry, everytime I shed even a single tear, she would call me weak. I started to actually cry, and more and more rears fell down my face as I looked down on my bed. My vision was getting blurring as I held my tears in. Why does my heart hurt? Why does everything feel so heavy? I start to breathe heavily. I love my mom? I wish I could keep her here longer. I didn't want to let her go. For the first time in my life, I miss her. I genuinely miss my mom. I love you, mom. I always had. Idk why I felt resentment in the past, I just wanted you. That all I ever wanted was just to have you. Have you thought of me as your daughter and not just someone to mold in your image to become the next queen. I should be happy for this change, but everything still hurts. I cried for a solid 20 minutes before I started to feel sleepy and slowly lay down on my bed, facing away from Chloe.
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Chloe pov:
Even though I couldn't see Red's face, I could she her head tilted down and her body shake as she was heavily breathing. I really wanted to go and help her to soothe her pain. But I knew it wasn't right. My mom once said that crying is the bodies way of processing and understanding emotions, feelings, doubts, etc. As much as I wish I could help, I knew this was what she needed to do. She needs to let out the hurt she's has built up over the years of keeping it inside. I have no doubt she's overwhelmed with emotion and deep thoughts she hasn't thought twice about. After a good 20 minutes, I see her slowly become calmer. She slowly lays back in bed, facing the other way. I debated if I should intervene, but I decided to do it. I got up and walked to her, I slowly and carefully sat on her bed. Looking down, I can see a few tears stained on her cheek. With my hand, I placed it on her back and slowly rubbed her entire back in circles. Putting just enough pressure to feel it but not enough to push her. Her eyes are still closed, I can hear her make a sound. I continued to rub her back for 10 minutes as she fell asleep. I'm proud of her. She's healing. She's come so far just from the few days I've known her for. She's a unique girl, I l9ve learning about her, either from her past experiences or just fun facts about her. I just love getting to understand her more.
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Red pov:
After crying for 20 minutes, I felt like I had little to no tears left. My chest felt significantly lighter. I felt like I could breathe, and my body stopped shaking uncontrollably. I lay down feeling so relieved. I could hear Chloe getting closer to me, but I didn't budge. She sat behind me, I kept my eyes closed since I was too tired to open them. Not long after, I felt her hand on my back. It was a strange sensation at first. She then started to rub my back in circles, slow and gentle. She applied the perfect amount pressure for me to feel it. It was very soothing. I couldn't help but make a little noise of satisfaction. I quickly drift off to sleep.
I slowly woke up with the sun shining in the dorn with the window open, I sat up and checked the time. It was 7 am, I look Round and see Chloe still asleep in her bed. I felt so refreshed. The warm glow of the sun and the light coop breeze of the wind lightly touching my still felt heavenly. I took a few deep breaths and a big yawn later I can hear Chloe shifting, she started to wake up. She sat up and yawned. Her eyes still closed. Moving her hair out of her face she opens her eyes.
Red: good morning.
She looked over to me confused for a moment, not awake enough to process anything yet.
Chloe: Oh hi, how are you feeling today?
She closes her eyes still sleepy.
Red: good, I feel much lighter and less tired.
Chloe: Well that'd good
She yawned again covering her mouth.
Chloe: what time is it?
Red: about 7 am.
She forced her eyes open to look out the window. She bright sun lighting up the room.
Red: I wanted to thank you for yesterday.
Chloe: huh?
Red: for rubbing my back, it felt really nice.
Chloe: yeah my mom would rub my back like what when I got sad. I wasn't sure if I should for you but u didn't seem to mind it so I continued doing it til you were asleep.
Red: and sorry if I was crying loudly, I wasn't really expecting to cry last night especially that much.
Chloe: it's ok to cry Red, it's necessary. It's a sign of healing. I wanted to help you sooth when you started crying but I knew you needed to just let go. Crying doesn't make you weak. Red. It makes you human. I know you probably don't want to share your feeling with me. I don't blame you one bit.... But I want you to know that I promise to be there for you whenever you need. We're a team, always ready to help. Your my partner in crime. I hope you see me the same way I see you.
Red: I do, Chloe. I honestly starting to see you more like a....
I stopped. She looked at me with concern.
Chloe: yes?
I sigh working up the courage.
Red: a soulmate.
I could see her face light up as I said that. Even tho I never really believed in such things it's honestly the best way I can describe as how I see Chloe charming.
Chloe: I'm happy to hear that, I feel that much more special.
She said lightly giggling.
Chloe: you must be hungry after crying yourself to sleep. Let's go get ready for the way and eat some food... but this time I want you to choose what you want to eat.
I lightly scoffed at her sentence, knowing I never was allowed to choose what to eat. But I am open to try, Chloe makes me want to try and be better.
Red: can we hold hands as we walked to the cafeteria?... if you don't mind it of course.
I said nervously, I didn't want to sound desperate but it just felt so nice last time.
Chloe: sure!
We head down, holding hands. I was smiling and she was happy too. She got to the buffet counter. There's so much to eat.. so much toc house from. I looked at all the options. It looked like food heaven. As I'm scanning the food I can feel Chloe's thimb rubbing the back of my hand.
Chloe: you can do this, just pick what you feel looks good.
She grabs some toast and eggs. I grabbed some bacon and fruit. We walked to a table and ate as we chatted. She's really good at changing conversations and distracting me. She was telling me silly stories of her childhood with Chad, her older brother. I found it fun to hear her adventures. We laughed and giggles til class started. We started with gym today. I'm nervous but yet feel so ready.