After being asked a thousand questions, Dr. Manuel leaves to go schedule another CT scan. My mother never leaves the window. Tears always streaming down her face. I wonder what she's thinking. Jake continues to sit by my bed, holding my hand. I look on his arm and see a tattoo that I have never seen before. And then a memory flashes back,
We are sitting in the tattoo shop, we are arguing about something. His face is getting red and he begins yelling at me.
"I don't know why you are getting so upset about this. It's my body, I will do whatever the hell that I want."
"I'm sorry that I was trying to save you from getting a ridiculous tattoo that make no sense Jake! Why can't you see that!"
"Quit being a stupid bitch." He pushes me, and I fall to the ground. All of the people in the tattoo shop turn to look at me and see what I am going to do. I stand up and look him straight in the eye and say,
"Your the piece of shit in this relationship, we are done, and don't you ever lay a hand on me again." I walk out of the tattoo shop and get in my car. As soon as I shut my door, tears being streaming down my face. Why does this keep happening to me? Before I could see what happens next, the memory becomes more and more fuzzy. Then, I am back in my hospital bed.
Dr. Manuel comes back in and puts me in the wheel chair. I turn and say to him, "What's wrong with me?" He stops pushing the chair and comes around kneeling in front of me.
"Nellie here is the thing, it looks like there is a tumor growing inside of your brain. Thing is, every time you bring back a memory from you and Jake, the tumor becomes smaller and smaller. I don't know how much more I can describe it too you "
"Then why do I feel like I am getting worse and worse every time that I wake up? I keep getting memories every time that a new memory comes back to me."
"Maybe there is no medical excuse for this. Maybe you just need him a little bit more than he needs you."
"But how did I end up in the hospital?"
"You really want to know?" I quickly nod my head bracing myself for what I don't know. "After the fight at the tattoo shop, you were driving back to the apartment when suddenly, a car pulled out in front of you, because you were crying you were not able to see the car. It was a drunk driver and he was speeding pretty bad. The car ended up hitting you head on, and your head broke the window. We found pieces of glass sitting inside your brain, which ended up tearing something. The driver is currently in the hospital as well, but with not as serious of injuries as you. Jake began driving right behind you and saw the entire thing happen. He pulled you out of the car, and well I think he can tell you the rest after your CT scan. I want to see how many pieces are still in your brain." The then begins wheeling me out of the room and I take a quick look at my parents who are sitting at the window, watching me. Jake never leaves his sleep, and I watch him as I am wheeled away. I begin to look at the other patients around me. I notice a man in the room next to me with his leg up in a sling, and a bandage around his chest and head. Family is sitting all around his room, probably praying like mine that we would get better. An old women turns around and looks at me and runs out of the room towards us. She says,
"Nellie, you will get better, don't think about what's wrong in life, think about what's good."
"How do you know my name?"
"My son is the one that hit you darling. I know that you don't remember anything now, but I need you to believe that you can get better, rather than getting worse." She then walks back into her sons room and sits down beside him, holding his hand. I watch the rest of the family turn and look at me and wave. The man laying on the beds eyes suddenly fly open, and look around the room, but before anything got good. He began having a seizure. Nurses begin running through the hallway hearing the screams of his family. Dr. Manuel then begins pushing me a little bit faster past his room, and towards my fate.
"Alright you know how this goes, just relax, and it will be over before you know it." A nurse says to me and quickly begins scanning my brain. I watch my doctors reaction as the image pops up into his computer screen. A smile surfaces on his face, but then shifted to a frown. I watch him say something to the nurse and they both look at me. What is going on? The nurse comes back into the room and helps me into the wheelchair. I turn to her and say,
"What happened to the man in the room next to me?"
"Nellie, he had to be rushed to the operating room, and he is still in there. We won't know his condition until he comes out." We arrive back into my room, and I am relieved to finally be able to sleep, but Dr. Manuel had a different idea.
"Nellie, are you ready for the news?" I turn around and see that no one else is in the room besides us.
I look at him and say, "I want Jake here with me to hear this, I have been alone enough. I want him, but only him in here." Dr. Manuel nods and walks into the hallway saying something to my family and I see Jake emerge from the crowd. Jake walks behind Dr. Manuel and sits down right next to me and grabs my hand.
"Your tumor is still there. And we are going to have to operate and remove it, but the good news is. There is no glass sitting inside of your brain. And everything that was torn is healing nicely. But later today, we are going to have you in the OR. So get ready." He leaves and begins explaining everything to my parents, and there is just pure silence between me and Jake.
He turns and looks at me and says, "What are we going to do?"
All I can think about now that I am finally alone with him is having him explain to me what really happened to us. "Jake, what happened with us at the tattoo shop?" His eyes become huge and then his head goes down and I understand that he is ashamed for what happened between us.
"Nellie, I never meant to hurt you like that. I just lost my temper because its my money and I will spend it how I want to. You got extremely upset at me and left. I didn't want you leaving upset so I began driving after you . We were almost home when I saw that car pull out in front of you, and I just knew that something bad was going to happen. And then, it did. The car slammed right into you. I immediately stopped my car, and ran to the scene calling 911. The man that hit you was unconscious. But you were my main worry. Your entire head was covered in blood, and the glass was shattered, some even in your head. I have never seen something so gory in my entire life. I pulled you out from the car and held you in my arms. I began trying to talk to you, but you weren't responding to anything that I was saying. I couldn't even get you to wake up. At some times, I even thought you were dead. The only thing that kept my thinking that you were alive was that I could feel your heart beating. That was the scariest thing that I have ever been through. And now sitting there when you woke up and looked at me and didn't know me I felt like I may as well die."
I watch him as he kisses my hand and I know that I was in love with him, every time we talk, I remember something more. I put my hand on his cheek, he looks up smiling at me. He knows that I will always remember him, no matter how many things attempt to pull us apart. My only worry is when I go into surgery, will we have to do this all over again?
"Jake, what if I don't remember anything after the surgery? I know I don't know now, but I at least have a few memories. What if the surgery doesn't turn out right?" I feel tears swelling up in my eyes.
"Nellie you cant think like that. I am blessed that you remember what you do. And if the surgery doesn't go right, then we can do this all over again. Yeah its going to hurt like hell seeing you again not remembering me. But I know that at some point you will. Or I will make you fall in love with me all over again."
"Nellie, its time to get ready for surgery." I nod and Jake leaves me with the nurse. She injects me with something in my IV, and I watch as everything turns into a blur.
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Time to leave for Florida! Whoop! I probably will not update until tomorrow night. But I hope you like it! Thank you so much for reading! Party Time