*Tay's POV
I sat there and waited for Nikki to tell me what happened while inside i switched from side to side with the question that became my thought for the past few days. “well she asked me to walk her to the library and we spoke a little about school, she did mention that she noticed me before and said I stood out because I’m punk, I think that is a good thing.” She looked down at me waiting for a reaction while fiddling with her ear, something she did when she is nervous. I did register what she said but I was now sitting on the boarder-line of telling her the truth so I didn’t respond as soon as I should. “Hello, earth to Tay?” she waved her hand in front of me and I quickly assessed what she said, making notes of what it all meant as I went along. “Well Nikki from the looks of it she could either be very friendly or she could be interested, but if she is interested what will you do?”
My throat became dry as the last word rolled out of my mouth, I didn’t want Nikki to do anything with Sona, I wanted her to do something with me! But if I told her that, would she feel the same? We are such good friends and I guess this is risking our friendship but will this feeing go away. I looked at her leaning her hand on my desk, her long fingers looked so soft, I had an urge to reach out and touch them. This is going way beyond what I imagined. I let my eyes wonder up her body to her face, she looked deep in thought but nervous at the same time. She must have been thinking of what she would do if Sona was interested. I could not resist my eyes moved to her lips and I could see she was nibbling on the inside of her cheek. My breath quickened, my heart picked up pace, my body stiffened as the image of me gently cupping her cheek and brushing my lips across hers shot into my head.
“I guess I would go along with it, and see where it will take me, I mean, I have thought of us.” I snapped out of my thoughts as she said the word “us” but then realised she meant her and Sona. I quickly shoved an excited smile on my face to block out the disappointment but maybe I was too slow. “Tay are you ok? You seem distracted?” she turned it into a question rather than a statement and took a seat next to me then put a hand on my shoulder. I almost jumped out of my seat at the touch of her, why am I becoming so sensitive to her touch, I need to control this or ill be caught out. “Silly am fine, just a little stressed for the bio assignment that’s all, well I think going along with it is a great idea. I mean all that can happen is that she isn’t interested though I doubt that she wouldn’t be.” I let that statement hand in the air hoping she might catch the hint. “Thanks Tay you’re right, I hope I see her at break, then maybe we can talk more.” I saw a huge smile excitedly dance on her face and
that’s when I decided to just let her focus on Sona, she looked so happy and I don’t even know what I am feeling so why trouble her with something that’s just for fun. The bell rang and class started so I turned ahead and took out my notebook to write down notes. Looks like we will just have to see where this all goes and how it turns out.
Throughout first period I could not concentrate at all, I kept looking over to Nikki to see what she was doing, ok I lie, I just wanted to look at her. She caught me once and smiled which made her cheeks puff out, I always thought it was the cutest thing ever. I could tell Sona was on her mind now and then as she regularly turned to look out the window where the corridor was visible, most likely in hopes of seeing her walking past. Class was almost over then i would have to head to art and would only see Nikki at break again. Although I had to leave I think I needed this time to think about what it was I felt for Nikki and what I would do about these feelings.
I said bye to Nikki and we agreed to meet at our usual spot at break, we stepped out the class she going right and I walked left towards the art rooms. As walked along the corridor and to the end of the staircase I saw Sona walking down the stairs. She spotted me and looked around probably to check if Nikki was with me. This was bad, I think Sona is interested, if she wasn’t why would she look for Nikki.
Although Nikki wouldn’t find this bad, in fact she would be very happy about this and I still don’t know how I feel about this whole situation, so I think I will let this all play out like it should. I passed Sona and headed to my art class where I took my seat and opened my art bag to take out my work for today.
I have been working on a project for the art festival next month and I still have a lot to do till I’m anywhere near done. The topic was “My identity”, I thought of a lot of ideas but none really jumped out at me till this very moment. I began to think of Nikki and these new feelings, wondering what they are and why do I feel this way all of a sudden. While doing so I started to unconsciously draw, with every line I thought of all the memories Nikki and I had together, all the trips to the pool and down to the park where we rode on the swings till the late afternoons being forced to leave. I thought of our early morning meetings where we never seem to run out of things to tell each other although we spent the past day together.
“Ok girls ten more minutes then you need to pack up” I zoomed out of my thoughts and back to the classroom and my work. When I looked at my page my page I saw a pencil sketch of a small sleek hand reaching out through a pile of leaves to another hand that was also sleek and small but different in a way. I could not reach out to her, not now when she is so focused on Sona, that would not be fair to Nikki and I was not going to put her in a position. Just then the bell rang, so I got up looked over at the sketch I just made, picked it up, folded it and put it at the back of my art bag.
Nikki's POV
I practically raced down to our meeting spot near the ref, found a table, placed my bag down and scanned the area for any trace of her. there was non sadly but i did spot Tay walking down the bank which means she took what i call the scenic route.It’s odd but I swear she looks a little lost to me today, I hope nothing is wrong but she would have told me by now, we always find ways of telling each other things instantly which is funny because somehow we always seem to be talking like we could never run out of things to say to one another. She got closer and as she saw me she let out a huge smile but that didn’t fool me at all, I knew her like the back of my hand. “Don’t lie to me or I will fry your eyes out missy” Tay turned towards me as she was putting her bag down and kicked into defence mode instantly. “Please drop it Nikki I promise it’s not a big deal at all, if it was I would have told you don’t you think?” she pleaded so well but I will not give into her puppy eyes! “You are my best friend and if-” There she was, walking down the field towards the ref with some of her friends. Sona, but wait, i shook it off. There was something wrong with Tay so Sona would just have to wait.
I turned back to look at Tay and saw she turned to see what I was looking at when I stopped talking, but when she turned back she seemed disappointed. Not knowing that I stopped looking at Sona but was rather looking at her she jumped and faked a smile. Something was defiantly wrong with Tay. “Ok now we really need to talk, is it your family? Or did something happen at school?” We took our seats and I waited for her to answer me while I got out my lunch. “Nikki if something was wrong I would tell you, but really now I’m fine, sometimes you see things that aren’t there. I’m your best friend, and you are mine so there would be no reason for me not to tell you if something is wrong.” She gave me the biggest smile of the day, a Tay smile and I knew that for now she was ok but also that there was something wrong and she didn’t want to talk about it now, so I figured I’d give her time and that she will come to me when she needs me.
“Aren’t you going to talk to Sona?” she looked in the direction of the ref line but I kept my eyes on her. “Well I wanted to talk to you, besides I don’t know if I should, I mean she didn’t even look around to see if I’m here or not so I don’t think she really is interested anyway.” Tay looked thoughtful but kind of relieved in a way which made me confused, yet again. “I think she did look for you, when I was walking to art she was coming down the stairs and saw me so she looked around to see who I was with, I assume she was looking for you, better think fast coz I think she is done in the line and should be coming past soon.” She winked and nodded towards Sona, I turned and saw her coming past our way. I decided I should greet because I doubt she would see us sitting in the corner here anyway but I as I got up to walk over to her I saw her stop and look around till she spotted me.
“Found you” she said with that crooked smile of hers as she came closer for a hug. My mind kicked into full gear trying to absorb everything that was happening; Sona was actually looking for me, she actually came to hug me, her arms are around me and her body is so close. All I could do was stand there, hug her and take in all of her as we hugged for what felt like ages. She pulled away and I felt my heart sink a little, great this can only mean one thing that I am getting emotionally attached. “You were looking for me?” Crap why did I just ask that? Play it cool Nikki! “Yup thought you would be here and I just came to the ref to get a coke, oh and I think your sister needs to see you, she was saying something about taking the wrong lunch. I tried to find you earlier but didn’t see you on the corridors today at all so thought I would most likely see you now.” I looked over at the desk we were sitting at and I saw my sister’s lunch box on the desk. Great so is this the only reason she was looking for me and that was the reason why she looked for me earlier.
“Thanks I’ll swap them now.” I picked up the lunch box and smiled at Sona. She smiled back, “no problem, enjoy the rest of the day, will see you at registration am going to the library at second break.” Wait now am really confused, does that mean she wants me to come to the library and why did she say that she would see me at reg, and is she coming to my reg class to see me? “Ok cool have fun.” I waved as she walked off with her friends and then turned to Tay who was blushing for me. “What did all that mean?!” You could tell by my voice that I was so confused and frustrated. “To be honest I’m not completely sure hey I think you going to have to wait till reg to see what happens, but by the looks of it she is going to come see you.” Tay teased as she lifted her eyebrows up and down. “Well you right, will see what happens.”
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