LALA POV
*2 weeks later*
So its been 2 weeks since i slept with Quay. To be honest im so ashamed. I haven't left my house since the day he kicked me out. I cant even explain to you how much i regret smoking that night. I just wanted to get high enough to balance my lows ya know. My life was already a living hell. I just wanted to forget about all my problems and have a little fun.
Well, let me tell u a little bit about myself. Im 16 and my full name is Jayla Monae Marshall. Everyone calls me lala though. When i was real young i found out my mother had lung cancer. After that she lived for about 6 months then she passed. I was right by her side when she took her last breaths. Even though i was only 6 years old when it all happened ill never forget her last words. She looked at me and said "baby, mommy loves you with all her heart, its time for me to go and be with the lord now but i want you to keep this. Always remember that nothing in this world comes easy to you. If you want something you have to go and get it yourself. Now mama wants you to be a big girl. Look after yourself as best as you can and ill be looking over you babygirl. Mommys going to be with the angles now" She smiled at me and took a deep breath.. "I will always love you Jayla Monae Marshall, and ill always be with you in your heart." She closed her eyes and drifted off into a new place. Somewhere where she wasn't sick anymore. A place where she didn't have to suffer. Lord knows i miss my mama but i know that shes at peace.
I held the locket necklace she gave me that day and just starred at it. I let a few tears fall then i put it back around my neck. If she was here she wouldn't want to see me like this. She would want to see me make better choices. I let a few tears fall again. I knew mama was watching my every move. I don't want to disappoint her anymore. I just want do right but im a fuck up! No one likes me! Im a failure. I mean seriously. I gave my virginity to a boy who i only knew for a couple of hours. I hate myself! I hate my life! I ran downstairs to the basement. Found the biggest rope i could find and ran back upstairs to my room. I wrote a quick note and left it on my bed. I tied one end of the rope to my ceiling fan and then tied the other end around my neck. I opened my locket necklace and took one last look at the picture inside of it. I closed my eyes and prepared myself to step off the stool that was under me. That was the only thing keeping me from hanging from the ceiling fan and choking to death. Oh god im sorry. I started having flashbacks of my life. I saw my dad and my 2 little sisters. I saw my dogs and all my friends. I saw quay and the way he through me out. I saw myself rolling a blunt for the very first time. It was like my life was flashing in front of my eyes. I just wanted the pain to go away.
I just wanted to be with mama. I kicked the stool from under me. U WAS GOING TO BE WITH MAMA.
SHY POV
It was 2:35 and i had just finishing washing myself and baby Trey up. Today was the day i was going to get to see TreKel again. My day was going so good so far. I woke up to a smiling baby and he hasn't even cried once. I made breakfast for me and my mom this morning and she was so pleased. She even offered to keep baby Trey this weekend so i could go out and have fun. I was so excited because thats the first time shes ever offered to watch him. Even before summer started when i was at school she made me bring him because there was a daycare there and she said she wasn't going to watch him for. Thanks ma! Maybe i should start making breakfast more often i said playfully. "Haha yeah well dont count on me as an all the time babysitter but making breakfast more often just may help you out." I laughed and went to the sit and the living room. About five minutes later my dad walked in. "Hey, babygirl hows it going?" Hey daddy! I said running up to him and jumping in his arms as if i was a toddler again. Its going great! "Haha, well thats good honey.. Im happy your cheerful today." Me too i said with the biggest smile on my face. He just laughed at me and went to go sit with my mom in the kitchen. I loved my dad so much. I was a daddy's girl allllllllllll the way. When i got pregnant he was very disappointed in me and i thought he was going to kick me out or disown me but he didn't. Instead he encouraged me to do better for myself and my son. He was everything to me that Tony wasn't to Tremaine. It made me feel better to know that at least my baby will have his grandfather to look up to.
Around 12:00 i brought baby Trey to the park. We had so much fun going down slides together. I put him in the baby swings and he just laughed and smiled the whole time. Haha. Even though being a mother at 16 was hard times like this made me realize how much Trey changed me for the better. Watching him laugh and smile was the best feeling in the world. I would give my heart to this little boy if he needed it. A mothers love for her child is truly unconditional. I took a few pics and posted them on instagram. I knew my notifications was going to blow up because Trey always got a lot of likes on his pictures when i posted them up. Way more than me when i posted pics of myself. Haha. I wasn't mad though. At least my baby was cute.
I took Trey out the swing and put him in his stroller. It was 1:30 and i was ready to go back home. Right before i started walking two girls that i use to go to school with came up to me. "Oh my goodness Shyanne is this your baby?" One girl said. "He so cute!" Another girl said. Mhmm yea thanks i said rolling me eyes. "Aww can i hold him?" No bitch dont touch my baby! I smacked the girls hand as she was reaching towards the stroller. They both just looked up at me with so much confusion in their eyes. "What the hell is your problem?" the chubby girl said. "Yeah, what the fuck shy?" The ugly one said. Listen here bitches, when i was pregnant yaw left my ass. I remember you saying dont talk to you because you didnt want to be know as "the pregnant girls friend" RIGHT OR WRONG?! They both just looked at me speechless. But now that my baby is here u want to be all nice and aww he so cute.. Aww shy .. Blah! Blah! Blah! I laughed at myself mimicking them. You weren't there for me before so dont try to be all in my face now. I turned around and start walking and pushing Treys stroller like a boss. I knew they were starting at me and probably talking shit but i didn't care. FUCK those 2 faced ass bitches! Straight like that.
When i got home me and Trey washed up and got ready for out little date with Tre'Kel. I knew he would probably be a little confused on why i always had baby Trey with me. I guess ill just tell him my parents work alot so they cant watch him.
It was 2:50 and me and baby Trey were officially ready! I had on some black and white leggings with a white tank top and some cute white sandals. I sprayed some bath and body works twilight moon on me and i was smelling good. I let my hair down and curled the ends under so that it had a bounce to it. I put on my gold earring and my gold necklace. Yasss. I was officially ready. As for Trey he had on a simple polo outfit. His polo shirts were black and his shirt was red with a black polo sign. He had a white t-shirt under his polo shirt so i decided to put on his white and red Jordan's. My baby was looking fly i must say. I went downstairs to ask my mom if i could borrow the car. I figured she would say no but to my surprise she said yes. I grabbed her keys and was out the door with baby Trey. I couldn't wait to see my new boo!
TREKEL POV
i got to the ice cream shop around 2:55. I didn't see Shy so i just went in and found a seat. I sat down and this cute waitress came over to take my order. She was being all seductive, bending over forward so that her boobs were showing and licking her lips. Im not gon lie.. She was fine! But i was already waiting for my little shawty. Nahh thats okay, i told her. Im waiting on somebody. "Are you sure" she said one more time biting her lip. Yes! I said with annoyance in my voice. I looked over to see Shy standing behind the waitress with her brother. The waitress turned around and rolled here eyes at Shy. "Ughh i guess ill give you two a minute.." She said before walking off. "What was all that about" Shy asked looking at me. Nothing ma, just a thirst ass waitress looking for attention. "Oh, i see" she smiled and we both took out seats. Shy held the baby on her lap. We just starred at each other. It was so awkward. The silence finally broke when the waitress came over and asked for our orders. I told shy to get her and the baby whatever they want. I looked at the waiter and said ill have a triple chocolate scoop supreme.
(lmao idk i just made that up.. It sounds good though)
"Okay" the waitress wrote it down. "and you?" She asked looking at shy. "Yeah um ill just have a a strawberry ice cream cone and a small vanilla ice cream bowl off the toddlers menu." "sure, coming right up" the waitress said sounding annoyed then walked away. It started getting awkward again so shy broke the silence. "So um i know you wandering why i brought Tremaine along with me. Well both my parents work alot and they dont want to hire a babysitter so i decided ill just watch him when they cant. Im sorry i know i should of told you i hope your not upset." Oh nah, thats cool ma i said smiling at her. "U sure?" She looked up at me and smiled back. No doubt i completely understand.
Okay so i lied to her. I was a little upset that she didn't come alone. I was getting a little suspicious about why she happened to always have this baby with her. I guess shes just being a caring big sister and helping her parents out. I cant be mad at her for that. I just hope well get to chill alone soon. For now baby Trey is fine i guess.
The waitress came and brought us our ice creams. We just ate and talked. I finished mine so i offered to feed lil Trey his while she ate hers before it melted. She laughed and took pictures of me feeding him. Lil trey was making a mess all over his shirt but it was cute how he was enjoying the ice cream. Whats so funny? I asked. "Oh nothing" she said. Haha. Tell me ma! I said smiling at her. "Its just.. I think you are gonna make such a good father one day" she said blushing. Haha. Thanks ma. Only if your my babymama though i said winking at her. She giggled and sounded so cute lol. I wana be your baby daddy i said to her. She giggled again "aww really Tre?" Yeahh .. I said while scooting closer to her. Your one and only. She flashed me a little smile but i could tell that she was thinking something. The rest of the time we spent together was okay. A little weird though.
Damn .. I wander if it was something i said .. ?
CHAPTER 4 : ) !!!
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Crazy shit with LaLa huh . Wonder if she really went through with it ??
Shy & Tre cute together . U think she needa tell him the truth ?!
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