The struggle is real.
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People that are reading this, thanks a lot for the voting. Please read my new story called "summer paradise." I have one chapter and if I receive ten votes I'll post next chapter. I hope you like it. And now talking about me and you.
How are you?
And I run out of question cause I have my mind fill with thoughts.
I need to rant.
I don't know what to do anymore, just this morning I wanted to cut again. I didn't care I had 5 months. (In January 1st is 6 months). I just want to feel the blade against my skin. See the blood pour out of my wrists.
And then late on today, a guy tells me that he likes me. It's like what the actual fuck ??.
Do you understand me?
It's like why does he the Fucks likes me?
I'm not good enough or anything.
And like besides HE HAS A FUCKING GIRLFRIEND .
do you know how hard is that? Have you gone through the same thing.
And like I don't know what the fuck I feel about the guy (like we just start talking like two weeks ago).
(Sighs) I don't know what to feel anymore.
I asked God go send me an angel to save/help/talk to.. me, but someone who was a girlfriend ?
Like, just no.
So anyways. I just had a fight with my best friend. Well (we always fight so I don't know what we are anymore).
Like she can talk to me how she feels and everything about how ex boyfriend left her. But now that i want her to be there for me, to help me make the right choice she is telling me that I always talk about him. Like I have never ever talk about him.
Ughhhhhhhh why all this happen in ONE DAY ??
And then there's that crush I have one this guy from school, cause he is so different. And well, I don't know if he feels something. Cause, oh just forget it.
Me,
Out.