Today, someone that, no matter what, I always let them know I was there for them, said I wasn't allowed to hang out with them.
And I'm laying in bed thinking about them.
Then, I think of the butterfly challenge. Here are he rules.
1. If you feel like cutting, get a pen or marker and draw a butterfly on your wrist or where you self had, I know it isn't always cutting.
2. Write the name of someone important to you on that butterfly.
3. You cannot scrub the butterfly off, it has to come off naturally.
4. If you self harm with that butterfly still on hat butterfly dies. You can have one or more butterflies.
5. You can have someone else draw the butterfly(s) for you. Those ones are more special.
6. If you self harm when you have more than one butterfly, they all die.
So, I did this challenge, cause it has helped before. But when I looked at the name of the butterfly on my wrist, i saw that I had put the name of the person I'm not allowed to be near. If she ever reads this, I call you Mikasa on this, then know that even now, no matter what I still care.