*Chris's POV*
We walked to the sidewalk and I looked around. I see groups of friends talking to each other, laughing and for once it's not at me under a tree. But I still saw others give me dirty looks like they do everyday and whisper to each other while pointing in my direction.
We walked past a pair of girls and one of them whispered loudly "Why are they with her? Just look at her she's ugly, worthless and not popular. I feel bad for them cause they have to be seen with her. What an embarrassment." The boys froze where they were meaning I ran into Calum's back. The girls snickered when I did. Sorry about that Calum.
It's fine Chris, don't worry about it. Calum messaged.
"Hey your not even going to say sorry you worthless piece of shit. Your such a bitch you know." The girl said to me with disgusted tone. The other girl snickered.
"U-umm" I stuttered out close to tears.
"Oh wow cat's got your tounge or something." She mocked.
"Hey! You can't talk to our sister like that! Okay!" Michael shouted.
"Michael why are you defending this slut. Oh wait I know she probably sucked your dick that's why. Wait she probably sucked all three of your's and Ashton's." Venom was dripping from her voice. I almost burst into tears cause she had so much hatred towards me even though I didn't do anything to her. This is just like with them.
"OKAY! THAT'S ENOUGH! I HAD ENOUGH OF YOU TALKING SHIT ABOUT MY SISTER! WHAT HAS SHE EVER DONE TO YOU TO DESERVE THIS! WHAT HAS SHE EVER DONE TO ALL OF YOU TO DO THIS!?" Luke shouted at everybody with fiery in his eyes. Nobody said anything. "THAT'S WHAT I THOUGHT." Luke spat. He turned around and headed into the school while we followed but he was going really fast. With his long legs it made him faster some how. When he's mad or pissed off he would usually walk really fast. Oh boy. A mad Luke is hard to calm down. We finally caught up with him and I was panting a little. Wow I need to work out.
"Thanks Luke." I whispered. Luke still looked pissed off so I was surprised when Luke hugged me.
"Any time lil sis." Luke whispered in my ear. Soon the other boys joined.
"Group hug." Michael yelled. I started giggling at his randomness. We stood in the hallway hugging for a good 30 seconds until we finally broke the hug and went to our lockers. Mine's and Luke's are right next to each other so we went in the same direction. Usually when Luke is done grabbing his books he will go find Michael and Calum and head to class or talk. We all have the same classes cause I don't want to brag but I'm a nerd and I'm technically a senior but I'm 15 so after today I'm graduating with the boys. And let's just say I'm super duper excited. But when the boys ask where I was after I gotten beaten up I would just tell them I had to do something for another teacher or something like that.
So this is how the boy never knew. But I almost got caught many many times but I just make up a excuse again. And Calum just believed me, didn't look much into it, but now he has to be extra careful.
I opened my locker and grabbed my sketch book for art, sketch pencils, colour pencils, pencil case and art folder. I closed my locker and turned the lock but when I turned around I was met with icy blue eyes. I jumped back thinking it was Nash since he has blue eyes. I flinched and closed my eyes thinking that I'll get hit. But when I didn't I opened up my eyes and look to see it was Luke with a confusion written all over his face. I let out a sigh of relief.
"Hey it's just me Chris." Luke said while stepping back a little.
"Oh yeah, sorry. Hey Luke whatcha need?" I asked confused also to why Luke is still here.
"Oh nothing, I was just wondering if you wanted to walk to homeroom with me and the boys?" Luke looked at me with hope in his eyes. It was like a puppy was staring into my soul.
"Um, I don't know Luke." I didn't want to go since I knew I'll just bring him more into the problem. I would get made fun of 24/7 and I don't want him to see that happening. His face fell a little but he just smiled at me.
"Oh it's fine Chris. Well I'll see you in homeroom then." He said doing a little solute and walking away. I walk the other and go into the bathroom. I've been having this urge to cut really badly and my demons were going out of control. I look into the mirror and see bags under my eyes, my big thighs that have a small curve, my fat body, my ugly face and when I rolled up my sleeve of my baggy sweater I see my scars. I started tracing over them and started silently crying. I grab my pencil case and pull out my razor. Nobody usually uses the bathroom but I still checked if someone was coming or in the here. I start cutting my arm. My demons were winning and I was letting them. I'm so fucking weak and pathetic. I'm so fat. I'm so ugly. Why can't I be skinny and pretty? Why do I have to get bullied? Why am I so invisible? Why am I so stupid? Why am I still alive? Why did this happen to me? Why? Why? Why?! Somebody please tell me.
These were the thoughts running through my head. Once I was done cutting and watching the blood run down my arm I went to get cleaned up so I can go to class. I put my arm under water and grabbed some paper towels to dry my arms. I grabbed my bandages in my pencil case and wrapped my arms. I rolled down my sleeves, dried my face and walked out of the bathroom and headed to class.
I walked into homeroom right when the bell rung. I searched the room to find an open seat and found one right next to Michael. I walked over there, sat down and pulled out my phone and ear buds. I unlocked my phone, went to my music, plugged in my ear buds and started listening to music on full blast. Nobody noticed I was there for a little bit until Calum waved and smiled at me. I waved back and he resumed the conversation they were having. I was halfway through Amnesia when I see everyone get up from there seats and walk out the door so I'm guessing the bell rang. I got up, grabbed everything I had for art and headed out the door.
I wish I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
You and me both. I was walking down the hallway and saw the same thing I saw this morning. Typical. I rolled my eyes and continued walking until I got to art class. I walked through the door. And just saying all fallen angels can walk through anything but it takes alot of energy. But I walked through the door like a "normal" person. And I saw Calum already at our table in the back of the room. Each table has 4 chairs but can have 5 if the teacher, Mrs. Le, would let us. I sat down and watched the door. Oh yeah I forgot to mention all of my bullies are in this class. Yay. *note the sarcasm. Luke walked in after of few other students and then Mikey. A minute till the bell all my bullies walked in at the same time laughing about something.
Time to get this day over with and then after that bye bye bitches.
A/N
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