Alex P.O.V.
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I sit with my head leaned back on the couch with my eyes close while Luke and Gus play some video game named GTA I think. Its a car game that's all I know, something taps my shoulder causing me to left up and open my eyes. I look over to my right and see Luke holding two water bottles offing me one. Smiling as I take it from him, I open and Luke takes a seat next to me taking a sip from his water bottle.
he laughs at Gus who cusses out the tv when his car falls off a high way bridge, I giggle my smile now showing my teeth. Luke relaxes back against the couch turning to me and laying his arm back against the back of the love seat as he asks "So what is Alex short for?" I tuck my left leg underneath me as I turn resting my back against the arm rest and say "Alexandria" I take another drink from my water bottle closing it and setting it on the floor sitting back up looking at Luke, he smiles " I really like that, would you care if I called you that instead?" I smile and think about it then say " I'd like that no one calls me that unless I'm in trouble I think it would be nice."
"Okay then, Alexandria how old are you if don't mind me asking." Luke asks I smile giggling a little than say "no I don't mind hehe, uh I'm sixteen I turn 17 next month on the 8th." Luke smiles looking over at Gus playing the game then back to me, "hmm were not that far apart in age you know that? I turn 20 the month after next on the 5th." "So your only three years and one month older then me.." I say leaning forward on my knees being flirty "But come on someone like you cant possibly be single and so happens that you are why would you even be interested in me?"
Luke chuckles sitting up straighter resting his other arm on the arm rest behind him as he says " well I am single and want to know a secret?" I nod my head slowly getting lost in his raspy voice and beautiful eyes. He leans closer to me his lips inches from my ear his collar bone even closer to my lips and how very tempting it is to kiss it but I just look up swallowing and lick my lips as he whispers," you're more beautiful then you give your self credit for sweet heart." He pulls back his lips hovering mine as my heart bounds in my ears hanging on to ever word he says, "And maybe one day I can be the lucky guy to show you just how much that is, because some one like me would be stupid to think you were anything less but some one to be lucky to be with." Chills cover my skin as he speaks from the words he says and his breathe on my lips, I cant move even though ever part of me is screaming to kiss him all I say is "thank you." Luke smiles winking at me then sits back turning back sitting forward while he shouts to Gus "Dude if you focus on that game anymore your gonna fry your brain" I laugh as I watch Gus shake his head and close his month smiling at us laughing nervously.
Me and Luke share a small smile with each other then look back to Gus messing with him a little more about the game.
I'm glad our plans got changed.
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Me and Gus get back to his apartment around 3 in the morning, when Gus suggested to get going and getting some sleep I honestly didn't want to leave I was having fun hanging out and talking with Luke, I've never talked to some one who looked so interested when I talked, so engaged like they wanted me to keep going so they could hang on to ever word. That was Luke and with him even when I would talk about something small he would just sit there and look at me like he never wanted me to stop and I didn't want to, and everytime I laughed or giggled his eyes would light up like it was his favorite song playing. He just made me feel worth something he made me feel important and not broken, not a charity case, not anything less but important and no one, not even Colton, made me feel like this. I didn't want it to end.
But before we slipped out the door Luke gave me his number and as we get back to the apartment Luke texts me 'had a great night talking with you Alexandria , so glad I got to met you'
I smile down at my phone and type back, 'me to had a great time, you have to really be glad considering you met me with no make up and messie hair in an outfit I never let people, especially perfect guys like you, see.' Gus closes the door behind me taking off his shoes then looking at me," well sis hate to leave ya but I'm gonna go off to bed, I'm really happy you clicked with Luke looked like you were able to escape tonight, get your mind off everything." I gave him a hug and say "yah I did I had fun, I'm glad I got to tag along Luke seems like a pretty cool guy." Gus pulls back from the hug resting his hand on my shoulder looking me in the eyes with all seriousness saying, "He really is Alex I know your in a fragile place right now but I think it'd be good for you to let you guard down around him." I smile nodding my head, " thanks I'll remember that and think about it." he smiles nodding then heading up the stairs and off to bed.
I settle onto the couch with a blanket and a bowl of pop corn watching Pitch Perfect, one of my favorite movies, while texting Luke.
You don't need the make up, I'm glad I got to met you like that in your natural look, like I said your more beautiful then you give your self credit for and I'm not as perfect as you think sweet heart, everyone has their skeletons.
:) awe really your too kind.
haha no just honest :D, so tell me how you don't possibly have boyfriend.
... well actually I had a boyfriend, we broke up tonight actually..
awe sweetie I'm sorry to hear that, what happened if you don't mind the asking..
I think about telling him that's a story for another time but the words Gus said earlier run through my mind 'let your guard down around him" I take a deep breathe and type,
well for me to tell you what happened I would have to tell you about everything else
hit me
well you should call me its a lot to have to text.
I type, pausing the movie knowing that he will, my phone buzzes then my ring toe goes off.
"Ello." I answer playing with the blanket to keep my hands from shaking. "You said to call so I called haha, begin when ever your ready." I take a deep breath sitting up tucking my leg under me as I set the half empty bowl next to me then say, "well do you know how Gus has been gone for the last three years right?" Luke hums "mhm kinda." through the phone and I let out a breathe as my hands begin to shake a little more, I haven't been this nervous in a while but I keep going. "Well after our dad pasted away a lot of distance became between me and my brother and I mean like he went from being my best friend I told everything to, to the guy I didn't recognize and avoided in the hall ways, we became total strangers to each other. And he got into drugs and sneaking out and I got into...." I went silent for a while so Luke says, "its ok to not tell me everything right now Alexandria, somethings can wait." I nod my head then remember he cant see me and say," ok.. I got into my own source of escape and well my source put me in the hospital one night and after that night Gus disappeared I guess he blamed it on himself I don't know we haven't really talked about since he's been home.
But I went through a lot in the past three years of him being gone and I mean a lot... well one day after school I went to my favorite park cause its all broken down and abandoned, like me, and on this particular day this new guy at my school named Colton." "And this is your ex?" Luke interrupts "sorry.." he says and it causes me to smile, he's really sweet. "its ok, and yeah he's my ex. He is also the first guy that made me feel something since well my ex before him.. Jess and uh she was really more just something I could use as an escape from my reality." "She?" Luke asks while chuckling and I laugh nervously, " haha yah.. she, Ive really only had a thing for just her so I don't really know if I'm bisexual or anything." "Hm that's cool I guess haha" he laughs.
I stand up and get a cigarette out of Gus's pack sitting on the kitchen counter grabbing my hot pink and black lighter out of my pocket then step out on to the back porch with my blanket wrapped around me. Sitting in one of the porch chairs lighting my cigarette and say, "haha yah I guess, but Colton was the first person I ever opened up to I told him things that I hadn't even told my best friends of two years, he was also the first person to show any source of real love for me and I fell for him hard, and well to keep this long story from being longer short story is that his mother was sick and needed help so he and his step father put her in a rehab and after that he was never the same." I flick my cigarette then take a long drag inhaling deep then exhale and say, " He became very bipolar and the other night I had gone out with my friends and ended up going to a party with Gus, we all ended up staying the night at Gus apartment without telling him and this morning when I had gotten home to his house me and him got in to a really big fight and..." I pause taking in a shakie breathe flicking the cigarette.
"Alexandria... what happened?" Luke asks with concern laced in his voice like he already had an idea on what happened and was waiting for me to confirm it, " and it got physical... I still have the bruises faintly on my arms, my back still hurts if I move to fast or bend over to far but I mean I'm so use to it that the pain doesn't really bother me anymore.." "Use to it from him?" Luke asks calmly which surprises me. "No that was the only time he had laid a hand on me and the rest of the times are stories for another time." I say taking the last drag from my cigarette and put it out, I grab my blanket and lighter and head back inside.
"And where does this guy live?" Luke says casually but I can tell he's smilingly evily on the other side of the phone. "That's really sweet but no Gus already beat you to it when he went to go get all my stuff from his house earlier." I say closing the back door behind me locking it then sitting back on the couch cuddling up in the blanket shivering.
"Doesn't mean I can have my turn at the asshole." Luke says while chuckling I can hear him moving around on the other side of the phone and wonder what he is doing then says "gosh its cold outside now I'm freezing!" I laugh cuddling more into the blanket shivering loud enough for him to hear threw the phone, "awe sweet heart come here and let me warm you up" Luke says making me smile "oh how much I would like that I right now I'm cold and lonely."
I lay down propping the phone up between my ear and my pillow having silly conversations with Luke and loving how his voice alone sooths away the shakes from my hands and as he explains a story about something him and Gus did at some party I begin to dose off with one thought going through my mind..
Maybe Luke can be my new beginning...