✿Gabby's P.O.V✿
I cried less now since the past week Joe died but, still had a few dreams and memories that washed through my head. Today was Joe's funeral and I was really happy cause I wanted to share a few things with him. It's still shocking to me everyday when I think of him being dead and not alive. Usually around these days he would've been kissing on me and being so flirtatious that would make me blush every bit. I remembered the times we used to fight In high school and made up so quick. The students in school used to call us couples because the way we loved each other so much.
Throwback : High school
"Why can't you stick up for yourself more?" Joe said walking me home from school on a rainy night.
"I do stick up for myself." I replied to him with a slight smile.
"No you let her talk to you any kind of way she wants. I don't like that."
"Well I didn't born her with a lot of mouth." I rolled my eyes switching my face with a casual look and looked up at the red umbrella we shared keeping us dry from the endless rain.
"I didn't say that." He looked down.
"Well...I'm not a mean person and...you know that. I just--" I froze not knowing what to say.
"You just what?" He looked at me deeply that made me even more nervous.
"I don't know."
"What do you mean you don't know? Gabs? I'm trying to make you look up more."
"Well I don't need your help. I am who I am. If I want to look up more I can..and If I don't want to I don't want to." I bit my lip from how I snapped at him.
"..and I'm not forcing you to be something you don't want to be. Don't friends tell each other what's right or wrong about them?"
"Yeah I know that because everything is always wrong with Gabby..and everyone else around her is sooooo perfect." I got angry and tried to not freak out so crazy.
"Nobody's perfect Gabby. Why do you keep saying that?!" He looked at me like I was insane.
"Cause It's true, what else do you want me to say?!"
"It's not true you chose to be that way!"
"Then let me be!" I walked away but he grabbed my wrist that had the best friend bracelet he gave me on valentine's day.
"I hate it when you think you know everything about everyone!"
"I don't! that's just-- can you please let go of my wrist?"
"Why'd you change the subject?" he squinted his eyes. He always did that when he know I was trying to escape from something
"I want to go home! Leave me alone." I tried to escape but he continued to hold on tight.
"Gabby! listen to me."
"Why do you care? I don't know why we're even friends! some of your exes hated me deep down their souls and only treated me nicely when your around..and you still pretend to not notice! Probably our relationship is fake anyways!"
"That's how you really feel about us?" His eyebrows lifted up.
"I'm sorry but yes." I forcedly removed my hands from his and walked away.
"I can't believe you right now!" I heard him threw the umbrella hard on the hard, wet ground.
I turned around and looked at him getting soaked up just like I was.
Joe and I ALWAYS fought but somehow we remained as best friends.
The next school morning my locker was filled with notes, more notes, my favorite snacks, and beautiful flowers. I blushed thinking who would do this for me.
"I'm sorry.." I turned around startled, looking up to Joe who looked like he hadn't slept for centuries.
"For what?" I asked because I'm sure I was the one who acted completely wrong yesterday.
"For everything I said about you..and I don't care...because your going to hate me from now on."
"Why? I don't hate you.."
"From now on..even if you don't choose to stick up for yourself I'm going to handle everyone who says shit about you." He gripped on my hands.
"No don't--"
"Sorry Gabby but I'm not gonna watch people say what they want to say to my best friend. They'll have to get past me first."
"No--"
"Gabby? I said what I had to say and your going to stick with it. I'm tired of everyone including my friends thinking your going to land off the picture. That's garbage now..Starting from today we're going to be closer than you think."
"Joe--"
"Shhh." He put his fingers on my glossy lips and put his arm around me walking me to class.
End of Throwback
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The funeral was dark and rainy. My team and I stood in two rows with the casket in between us. Black uniform we wore standing with our heads down filled with depression. All you could hear in the back ground were crying noises, soft sobs, and sniffing.
The tears were uncontrollable--My eyes kept stinging with non stop tears. I just wish I could wake up in a bad dream, rather than actually being in one.
Kevin stood beside me with his hands on my shoulders making sure I was okay.
My mom showed a lot by showing up with James. I didn't have most family here but, in California. So mostly my family was my mom and I. My Dad was dead and it really didn't hurt me that much because he was mostly out of the picture.
Joe's family gathered together. I know exactly how his parents felt. The thing that hurt me so much is that I never got to say goodbye. Families told their stories about the memories with Joe including me. I was his best friend/half girlfriend. I know we'll meet again when it's my time.
Love is strong.
It's hard to face things you never expect.
No matter what, you should always have a soft spot to show your always there for that loved person, so they could know your close and there for them.
It should've been me.
Not him.
I wish time could rewind so I could save him before the gun shot.
Their endless.
All I hear in my dreams.
I will always love Joe in all my life event.
You never know when it's your time.
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