Song for this chapter: tattooed heart by Ariana grande
Jason's POV
Hurt. I'm hurt. I haven't been to school in days because Justin knocked me over the head with a vase, and over Onika. Justin whooped my ass, but I deserved it. I deserve whatever bad shit comes my way. I really fucked it all up with her. Not only am I embarrassed to step foot in school, but I can't function without her by my side. She's the glue to my success. Without my Nicki, I can't do anything. I know what I've done is wrong, but I can live without her. She's my everything. I refuse to live without her. I'd kill for her. I'd die for that girl...
Nicki's POV
Hurt, all it feels like is my heart cracking piece by piece everytime I wake up in the morning and don't see him on the other side of the bed. It feels like a bulldozer is running over my body repeatedly, slowly so I could feel every inch of the pain. I was in love with Jason, I gave him my life. That's the scariest thing about falling for someone. You give your life to them, but they could easily drop your heart and have you left with no options or nowhere to turn. I haven't been to school in days. From what Stacy tells me, Jason hasn't either. I know I hate him right now, but I can't help but to worry about him. Stacy tells me the whole school is calling us the "trouble in paradise couple". We kinda were... No one suspected we would have problems. We portrayed to be the best couple in school, when really we were the worst. I am still kind of debating on if I should go to his house to check on him. I miss him, yes. But, I think I'm done with him. I don't think I cant take any more of his lies, cheating, and most importantly, his abuse. He mentally and physically abused me to the point where I felt as if I wasn't good enough. I felt betrayed and worthless. I'm staying at my bestfriend's Stacy house, until I get on my feet. She's the only friend of mine that stays alone. Monica and Michelle both live with their parents.
As I was sitting in the living room contemplating whether or not I should go check on Jason, the doorbell was heard throughout the house. I got up to answer the door and was surprised at who it was. How did he know I was staying here?
"Justin?" It was a little awkward, considering the fact that our last encounter almost took a turn intimately. In other words, we kissed and that resulted in Jason almost busting his head from Justin knocking him out with a vase. He just stared at me, almost as surprised as me that he was actually here.
"H-here. These, um, these are for you." I hadn't noticed the flowers until he handed them to me.
"Aw. These are so pretty, thank you Justin." I smelled them, and looked at him with a full toothed smile. I noticed he just stared deep into my chocolate orbs.
We just stared at each other, until I realized I haven't invited him in yet. How rude of me...
"Oh, um. Would you like to-" I was cut off by a pair of familiar soft lips attached to mine. Just, like the first time, I instantly felt sparks between us. I pulled away, and stared into his caramel eyes. He stared back at mine. His face went crimson, while I was just visibly blushing.
"W-would you like to come in?" Aw geez, now I'm the one that's stuttering. He nodded, with the same smirk on.
We sat down on the couch, and I turned to him, and I looked into his eyes and he stared back in mine.
"You know, I really respect you, Onika. I'm not like my brother. I care about you, and I really, really REALLY" I laughed, and he snickered with me. "like you."
"How long have you had your eye on me?" I rubbed up and down his arm. He was forming goosebumps wherever I touched.
"Since freshman year." he said, instantly. "Since the first day of freshman year. I saw you walking down the hall with your cliché, and I just hid behind my locker and stared at you. You stood out to me. I admired you since day 1, Onika." The stuff he was telling me was really making me fall harder and harder for him, although I never thought I would settle for Jason's brother. I have always had eyes for Jason.
"Maybe I stood out because I had pink hair." He laughed, which made me chuckle. "Seriously Justin, how come you never said anything?" I asked him, while having flashbacks on all the times I used to witness him get all nervous and jittery around me. Now, I know why.
"Because, you were with my asshole of a brother. Before you started dating Jason, I would think of asking you out, but then I would see the way you looked at my brother. I knew you liked him, and most girls go for the bad boy, and I didn't think you would go for me because of what I represent." He was referring to him being a nerd. "When y'all finally started dating, he used to notice how I looked at you. He would tell me to not even try it because you wouldn't look my way. How you only loved him, and it was gonna stay that way." He looked down, but I lifted his chin and kissed him softly.
We were in complete and utter bliss. It started to heat up, Justin may be a nerd but he's one hell of a kisser. Next thing you know, I'm straddling his lap, and his warm hands are roaming my back. I could tell he wanted to touch my butt. He suddenly pulled away and sighed, with a smirk.
"Onika, can I do something?" He looked at me, with an embarrassed expression plastered on his cute face. "I've always wanted to do it to you, but I don't know how you would take it, you may think its disrespectful, most women do."
"What do you want to do, Justin." I chuckled, because I had a guess on what it was.
"Can I touch your booty? I have always wanted to."
With my guess being right, I just smiled, took his hands and slid them down to my butt.
"Oh god, Onika. Your butt, its fucking huge." This was a surprise to me, because I've never heard him curse before.
"Yeah?" I smirked, knowing I had the cake. I laughed to myself from my thoughts.
"Yeah..." He grabbed my chin until I was close to his face and kissed me again. This time, while rubbing my bum. He started moaning. Sexiest fucking thing I've heard any boy do. He pulled away and smiled. He asked me something I didn't expect him to ask, at least not this soon.
"You're the girl of my dreams." he took a loose strand of hair and put it behind my ear. I looked down, and smiled while playing with my fingers. He lifted my face so I could look in his face, while he asked me.
"Onika, will you be my girlfriend?" It threw me off track, for a second. I just broke up with Jason, am I really ready for this. It took me awhile to answer, which made him really nervous. So, to answer his question, I kissed him. Okay, yeah I just broke up with his brother, but you cant help who you fall for. I want him and he wants me, and that's all that matters to be honest.
"Does that answer your question?" I held his face in place with my perfectly faux sharp nails, still straddling him. He couldn't stop smiling, he was so happy. Surprisingly, I was too.
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"Babe, stoppppp" I whined, while he kept tickling me. He was still at Stacy's with me. Stacy texted me and told me she went to stay with her parents for the weekend. Justin told his parents he was staying with me for the weekend. Everything worked out today, and for the best.
"Justin, STOP." He kept tickling me while I was laid across his lap trying to watch my fave show in the world: Empire. He was just the annoying boyfriend who wouldn't let me concentrate. Ugh, I can't believe I'm dating this goofball. But, I lo-like him. Yeah, I like him. All this time, I thought it was Jason who I liked, but I think I've liked Justin all this time without any knowledge to my feelings towards him.
"Babe, why do you like this show? It's so boring!"
I faked gasped, "Wash your mouth out with soap, Mister! This show is beyond the best show ever!"
"C'mon, you could record this and watch it later. Lets get to know each other better." I looked up to him and he had the cutest puppy dog face I've ever seen plastered upon his face. UGH, hes so darn cute.
"Fine!" I rolled my eyes, put it to record, and then turned to him, while still laying in his lap.
"Okay, you start." He had a smile on his face, probably because of my position on him or the fact that I agreed to this. He looked down at me and stroked my hair.
"Okay, um, what's your favorite color?"
"Purple. Yours is pink. He said, confidently. Wait, how-
"How did you know?"
"Its so obvious. Sometimes your hair is pink, the bags you carry to school is all pink, you wear a piece of clothing that's pink everyday whether its a scarf, or a headband." I looked at him with a shocked expression. "I told you I notice everything about you." He winked.
Oh God, his wink. It's so hot. His wink just turned me on. He is one hot nerd. All of a sudden, I hear the doorbell ring, indicating someone was at the door. I get up to answer this disturbance, only to be shocked, and receive my second dozen of flowers for the day. It was the person I have been dreading to see since we ended things.
"Jason?" How did he even know I was staying at my home girls house? knowing him, he probably went to every one of my friends house, to see which one i'm at. He knows me, and he knows I would never go to my parents house. I don't talk to them, and he knew when I said I "would have to rekindle my relationship" with them, I was just bluffing. He knows my pride is too strong.
"Hey Nic, uh, these are for you." He gave a little smile and handed me the bouquet of red roses. I took them and sniffed them like I did Justin's roses, but unlike Justin's when I smelled Jason's, I smelled no love.
"What are you doing here Jason?" I tossed the roses on the counter. I was basically letting him know roses aint gonna make me take your abusive, cheating ass back.
He wiped the smile off, and started to speak again. "W-well, I wanted to honestly come to talk to you." He looked confused. It's funny that he actually thought that would work this time. I looked at him like he's a piece of garbage....And he is!
"I'm listening." I said, while folding my arms. He looked so confused because I was acting so cold towards him. Nigga, you brought this on yourself. Ugh, I've been listening to too much lemonade by beyonce.
"Nic, I am so sorry. I don't even know how to express to you the pain I have been feeling since you left. I've been a mess. I barely been eating or sleeping." He took both of my hands, and looked deeply into my eyes. "Baby, I miss you so much. I know most of the time I don't show it, but that's because I'm ashamed and afraid. Ashamed because of how I treat the love of my life, and afraid, afraid to fucking loose you. I don't want to. I'm begging you, pls-"
"You know, I almost believe you." I cut his sentence short, and snatched my hands away. He looked shocked that I had actually did that, hurt even.
"Nic, I am-"
"Hey, is everything okay babe?" Jason and I both looked behind me to see who it was. It was obviously Justin. M new boyfriend. When he looked up and saw who was at the door, he looked shocked, mad, SHOCKED. He actually gave the same facial expression as me.
"BABE?!" Jason screamed, after he figured out what was going on between us after hearing the pet name Justin called me.
Oh god.......this can not end well...............
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