*Flashback to last night*
I limped towards my door, blood smearing onto the concrete surface. I shaked in pain as I reached to get my keys out and managed to open the door. It took me ages to gently put down my things and place myself gently on the couch. The pain was unreal, as if on my arms and legs, blades were running through them and on my stomach this pounding, pain. I didn't want to move, I prayed that it would all go away tomorrow and i'm able to do work tomorrow. I needed to get up and get the first-aid kit which was across the room, in a small cupboard beneath the TV. I sighed in annoyance and hesitated, but finally I managed to get up and droop over towards the cupboard. I sat on the floor with the opened box next to me. I took out ointment and a antiseptic liquid that burned like 1000 candles against my arms and my legs. After washing it I put some ointment on my cuts and left them. I felt my legs going numb, so with the little strength in my body I gathered some ice and other things I might need and placed them on the coffee table. I wouldn't bother changing ot of my bloody, shredded clothes it would need too much movement. As I collaped on the sofa I felt my legs going numb, so I didn't dare move them. I applied some ice onto my bruised stomach and left it there. I opened my front camera and I had a huge scar going across my right cheek, but it was thin. I put some ointment on it and i'll just cover it all up tomorrow. I layed down carefully, since every move sent a throbbing shock through my veins. I started crying and slowly drifted off to sleep.
*The next morning*
I woke up on the couch with a huge yawn, but as I stretched my arms out I immediately put them down since the pain flooded through my body again. I actually had a good sleep and managed to forget about last night, but it all came back. I tried moving my legs and luckily I could, they still hurt but not as much. I lifted up my top to look at my stomach and luckily the cuts and blackness had lessened. I looked at the cuts on my arm and legs and they had slightly gotten better. I opened up my front camera once again, the gash was still there but i'm sure a bit of makeup could cover it up. I tried to get off the couch and luckily I could, but I don't think I'll be walking. I could use my hands but I couldn't really stretch my arms. Since Kyung took the car i'd have to find another way. The pain had lessened but the scars were clearly visible and a hug from the boys could pissible kill me. I remembered their words to stay away from BTS, but i'm not going too. I work with them and I have all rights i'm not gonna let them control me...
I got up to freshen up and change out of tattered clothes. I took a shower, but the hot water stinged against my scars. "I really liked these" I said as I bundled up the clothes and trashed them. I wore a black and white full sleeved turtle neck, denim leggings and some black boots. I sat infront of my vanity and tried to apply my makeup to cover up as much as I could. I hated putting on so much makeup but I had no choice, I had to be careful so it wouldn't smudge or anything. I quickly grabbed my keys and bag and headed outside. I stood on the doorstep thinking about how I should get to work when a familiar sleek, black holden pulled up in front of me. The windows rolled down and a guy with sunglasses stared at me, he lowered his sunglasses revealing a familiar face. "Oh hey Kangmin!" I say smiling and running closer towards the window. "Hey noona need a ride?" I nod desperately and hop on. I put on my own sunglasses and he drove off.
"So Kangmin how've you been?" I say looking out the window. "Not too bad noona, I was just going to work as well"
"Oh really where do you work now?"
"This office, my dad wants me to have some experience before I take over his company"
"oh nice"
"So uh noona how is Kyung?"
"Ehh Kyung huh? She's currently away with her company she'll be back tonight though whyyy?" I smirk.
"I was just curious" he replies blushing.
Kangmin had been our neighbour for a while now and is about Kyung's age. Usually he'd get all jumpy or shy whenever she was around and maybe Kyung felt the same way? "You can drop me off here Kangmin" I say spotting the office, he parks and I get out "thanks see you around!" I wave gently and he flashes me a smile before driving off. I stared at the office and the horrors of last night flooded back to me. No choice I'd have to wear my biggest mask I thought to myself and managed to break out a smile. I lowered my head as soon as I felt a little tear roll down my cheek, but I held my head high, my plastic smile shining brightly and I walked in.
"Ah Mi-cha! We're currently having a meeting about BTS Epilogue concert in Taiwan, so come with me" Hyeong-shi says as she runs out and grabs my wrist and pulls me into the meeting room. I flinched since she grabbed very hard, but I had to bear it. We entered the room quietly and I took a seat beside Vina and Suga. Across sat Taehyung and he flashed me his unique smiles, I tried to smile back, but it was super hard with all the pain surging through me. I thought maybe he wouldn've noticed but as I turned away I saw his smile fall into a worried look. The manager went on and on about the preparations and tickets costs and all that boring stuff. I was ready to fall asleep, but putting pressure on my arms hurt so I had to sit there looking like broken zombie.
Finally it was all over and we were dismissed. I followed Vina to the dressing rooms, but I was grabbed and pulled away. They gripped onto my arm tightly, straight on a deep cut. I flinched at everystep and suddenly I was pushed against a wall. I tried really hard not too show my pain to whoever it may be. I looked up and I saw Jin looming over me. "Ah-ah Jin oppa is something wrong?" I say holding my wrist and massaging it gently, he had me trapped in his arms and once again I was probabaly in those situations. I don't think Jin realised I was in pain but he pinned both my wrists against the wall. I felt like screaming but I couldn't "oppa please it hurts" I say flinching making it seem minor. "Are you ok? You didn't really seem like yourself" he says coming closer "uh i'm fine everythings good" I say turning my face away, I felt him getting closer, his warm breath on my cheek and I flinched. I didn't want him to do anything he would smudge my makeup. I felt him tugging my turtle neck, trying to pull it down. I couldn't let him do that he'd see all my scars. I stopped him immediately and he gave me a look, I stared into his eyes before attack his lips swiftly. His eyes were opened in a wide shock, but he went with it since he was going to do it anyway. He let go of my wrists and I wrapped my arms around his neck and I felt his hand slowly snaking up my shirt. Hopefully he won't feel the scars, he did it gently only massaging my stomach, sometimes a sudden burst of pain would strike and I would grab his hand making him think I was just surprised. He slowly snaked up and started playing with my breasts. It felt nice but painful at the same time. After a while I pushed his hand away and I started playing with him. As we kissed I played with his hair and ran my fingers on his neck and down his back. Soon I ended the kiss with both of us panting heavily, since he couldn't really do much to me in my current state, I might as well make him happy. I gripped his shirt tight and attacked his neck with bites licks and sucks, he flinched at first but held me tighter. I swirled all around his neck careful not to leave deep marks, as I did I put my hand up his shirt and felt the outline of his smooth abs. I stopped playing with his necks and went back to a deep, passionate kiss. Soon it ended once again with both of us out of breath. "Your totally unfit oppa" I say panting and holding his shoulder for support "says you! I didn't know you were good. Experience?" He says smirking "uh I read?" I reply blushing. He held my hands and looked deep into my eyes "thanks Mi-cha glad to know your ok" and ends with a small peck on my lips and walks out.
I quickly run the bathroom leaning on the sink. It hurt so much. I held my stomach and pulled up my shirt to see the disgusting black scar and I felt the throbbing pain. I rested in the bathroom for a little while, letting my pain calm. As i sat in the bathroom I go on my phone and once again i'm spammed with all these hate comments. I felt the tears coming to my eyes as I am reminded of that frightful night. Usually I would be strong and manage to ignore them but I just couldn't. Every little comment hurt me more and made me weaker and weaker.
#StayInYourDamnLane
"She's such a whore"
"Why is she evem trying?"
"BTS don't need her"
"She should just die"
I fully burst and cried out my soul, but I didn't care. There was no one here so I might as well. They were getting what they wanted and I never intended on giving it to them. After a while I stood up and looked at myself. I was the most hideous, ragged being so I quickly washed up. When I looked up I saw that hideous scar so I quickly reapplied everything. After I was done I wore my plastic smile and headed out.
Sorry I haven't updated in so long >~< I'm currently on holidays and obviously i've been having some family time, but i'll try updating more sooner :))
This chapter literally took all day because of my procrastination oml XDD
Thx for understanding ilyyy all