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"What happened just tell me." Damian demanded, tipping me closer and closer to my boliding point,
"Nothing Damian," I sighed to myself and turned to face him, his eyes dancing in thick curiosity.
"Yeah, sure Sasha." He rolled his eyes, sarcasm laced his words succeeding to piss me off instantly.
"Look, Damian, there was no fight, no one got hurt. There's no need for you to be so curious. Just leave it. It's not apart if your pay job. Just normal high school drama." I snapped out. Causing myself to get weird looks from the other kids in the hall. Shit.
He opened his mouth to respond to my remark, but he was cut off by a loud screeching bell.
Students started making their way to morning classes, scattering and speed walking in the way of their different classrooms.
I watched them observing their movements, ignoring Damian as his eyes burned holes into the side of my head. I heard him mumble something under his breath, just quiet enough so that I couldn't understand his words.
"Fine don't tell me," I finally looked into his eyes I saw hurt in them and that confused me, "but we need to get you to class. Can't have you being late on your first day."
He grinned at the end, trying to shine some light on this situation.
I nodded stiffly in reply and began walking towards my English class, Damian by my side, a school map in his hands. Kids scrambled blocking my way to class, pushing and shoving me out of their pathway.
My eyes widened in shock, I was used to them running away from me, clearing a path straight to clas-
Someone rammed into my side sending me flying into the nearby lockers, my back slammed into a locker for the second time today. A stinging sensation spread through my back and I bit my lip, to control the anger that now followed through my veins.
Some students around me giggled and pointed at my figure, as I leaned against the lockers. The treated me as if I was bellow them, that I was just a joke.
And that's when I lost it.
I stiffened and pushed myself up, my eyes scanning the crowd for the culprit. They are so dead. I'm done playing weak little push over.
I saw a figure standing were the shove came from. Their back facing towards me, a Grey hoodie over their head blocking my view of their face. They were talking quickly and quietly to another hooded person, this one with a black hoodie covering their face.
After sussing out my targets, I realized that they were making no move, to acknowledge the fact- that they just sent me barreling into the lockers.
I huffed and glared at the kids who previously laughed at me. I caught one girl raise a perfectly shaped brown eyebrow in challenge. I took that challenge.
I made my way towards the hoodie kids, forgetting every rule Damian had given me for being good. I can't be good.
I reached out towards the two of them, going towards gray hoodie first ready to spin him around and end him. No one disrespects me, no-one laughs at me, no-one controls me.
"SASHA!" Damian caught my wrist just as I was about to make contact with the material of the gray hoodie. I turned to glare at him, I pulled my wrist out of his grasp and turned back to Grey. A frown stretched over my face and I huffed in disappointment.
Grey was gone. And so was the black hoodie.
"Fuck," I mumbled under my breath, well that ended up being pointless. I turned back to the kids- more specifically- the girl who had laughed at me. She rolled her green eyes and smiled at me.
Bipolar much.
"What were you thinking Sasha! Jesus, it was just one push, you need to learn how to control yourself."
I looked through the crowd for them. Ignoring Damian's words once again. I will find them. I had a weird feeling that I have some connection to the black hoodie. But I couldn't understand it, was it a good one or a bad one.
But I knew for a fact, that I had a horrible feeling about the grey hoodie.
Damian grabbed my arm pulling me out of my trance, I allowed him to pull me through the students towards class.
He easily walked through, his tall height scaring all the smaller students out of the way.
Who was gray hoodie?
Who was black hoodie?
Wait... Why do I care so much?
Eventually, Damian stopped outside of a classroom. We were alone in the hallways now, we had taken awhile to get to class because someone wanted to stop and help some freshmen who had dropped their books.
It's their fault that they are uncoordinated... Gosh, I'm such a hypocrite.
My point is...
So we still managed to be late, even through all the effort.
"Do you want to do the honors?" I asked Damian while eyeing the door, as if it was the pathway to wonderland.
"Ha.Ha." He rolled his eyes and looked at me, then noticed that I really didn't want to be first through.
All the bad attention would probably lead to even more drama. At least if Damian was first then all the female attention would be on him. Leaving half the attention on me... The walking unicorn. Damian stopped his foot like a four-year-old kid.
"Fine," He glared at me and mumbled quickly under his breath, "I'm-a-ficken-20-year-old-man-walking-into-a-classroom-full-of-teenagers, what am I doing with me life?"
I know that I have asked myself the same question many times in my life, but what is wrong with this guy?!?
He pushed the door open and strolled in, easily gaining every set of eyes, all 27 stared in awe at the 'new student' as he walked over and whispered into the ear of the delighted female English teacher.
After Damian introduced us, he went and took a seat in the back of the class every head followed obediently as he strolled to the back row of seats and chucked his bag on the floor. He finally made eye contact with me and nodded his head in a sly movement, clearly motioning for me to make a move to sit down like he had done.
Some students caught on to his movement, and their heads turned from Damian...towards me. All attention suddenly landed on me, I stood at the door making eye contact with the clock at the back of the room.
A sickening silence fell open everyone in the room. I swear if even ONE of them laugh- "Omg what the fuck is that?!?!" My gaze snapped towards a jock who leaned a little too far back in his chair, well if he was making fun of me- maybe he should have gotten a better look at himself. He smirked arrogantly at me, as I eyed him up for all the wrong reasons.
His fiery red hair stood up in all different directions on the top of his circular head, his brown eyes resembled the kind of shit you dodge when walking through the park. The only thing that I found interesting about him, was the fact that he hasn't fallen backward in his chair yet, and by the way, he was balancing- it took serious coordination. Something I lacked.
I ignored his remark and nodded to the teacher in greeting and she smiled at me in fake kindness, "Ok so! You two are our new students? How about you," She pointed her long manicured nails at me, then to the seat right in front of her desk, NO! Please no.
"Sit right here..." Argh fuck! Why me? Not Damian she was clearly making lovie-dovie eyes at him earlier.
As soon as my butt touched the seat, the lesson proceeded as per usual, other than the constant looks of distaste I was getting.
I could hear Damian's constant giggles from the back of the classroom- at my clear despair of this situation.
I zoned out after that and began doodling on the desk, my mind absentmindedly moving my wrist and fingers to create patterns on the wooden table, sure I'm not as good Nathan is, but I know that in not horrible.
I deliberately applied a little more pressure making the lead crumble onto the desk, successfully making the line thicker than the rest.
"Pssssttt"
Who is talking to me?
"Yo chicka?"
Chicka? Who the fuck calls someone chicka in the 21st century.
"Hello? are you mute?"
I raised my eyebrows but it was covered from the parts of my ponytails that fell around my face, creating my own personal wall. Blocking me from everyone else and from the view of whoever was trying to get my attention. And from the voice, I recognized that it was the redhead jock.
"I'm talking to you, you better fucking answe-"
" Kevin leave the poor girl alone, she probably doesn't want to associate herself with the dumbest of the dumbest people."
My head snapped up to a girl with red curly hair and glistening blue eyes, freckles covered her, nose and cheekbones. She was a unique kind of beautiful. She sent a small smile to me and then her eyes flickered back to Kevin (the jock) who she glared at. I hadn't realized that she was seated next to me until now. Opps.
Kevin lowered his gaze to his desk and obediently shut up.
After freckles finished telling off Kevin she looked back at me and a warm smile. I turned back to face my desk and ignored her.
She was nice and that's why she shouldn't talk or associate with a person like me.
I felt the seat next to me being pulled out closer towards mine, I sighed under my breath when I felt her presence closer to me.
"Hey?" She whispered to me and placed a hand on my shoulder causing me to flinch. Again with people touching me, "Are you ok? I'm sorry my brother is a jackass sometimes." She giggled trying to lighten the mood. I turned and looked at her again, now seeing the obvious resemblance between the two.
"So unicorn, you're new correct?" She tried starting up a conversation again, I went back to drawing and nodded my head bluntly in response to her question.
"Coolie!" She yelled grabbing, even more, attention, from the other students. And the teacher.
Miss turned and glared at freckles, "Cassy! I have told you off at least 3 times each lesson, when will you learn!" The teacher snapped and my eyes widened, but the other kids failed to notice the anger in her voice. Maybe she was really strict and hated freckles. Either way, they seemed used to her outbursts.
"I'm sorry miss." Freckles mumbled under her breath in fake respect. As soon and miss turned back around freckles head snapped back to me and she grinned cheekily.
"So do you want to sit with me and my friends at lunch?"
Oh, fuck.
I coughed on my own spit and she patted my back gently. She wants me to sit with her. She doesn't even know my name. In this school sitting with someone's group, is like sacred and so rare. If you are to sit with a group, you are instantly known as a permanent member.
I'm not sitting with them.
No way, she seems like the kind of happy go lucky person. Meaning her friends are probably as well.
Once again I decided to ignore her after my choking fit ended that is. I turned my attention back to my drawing which seemed so much more interesting now, than ever before. She gave up with a sigh and started listening to the teacher. My shoulders relaxed and I brought the pencil back to my lines and zoned out the world once again.
**
Grumbleeeee- I held onto my stomach and winced as the kids around me in maths, looked at my stomach weirdly.
Come on, the bell better rings soon.
I'm so fucking hungry.
I turned in my seat to look at Damian who sat behind me and he looked at me in understanding.
He was just as hungry.
'RINNGGGGGG' almost everyone in the class sighed in relief that it was the end of that class and began gathering their books.
I jumped from my seat causing a loud screech to echo through the classroom.
But I didn't care, I turned to Damian and he grabbed me wrist pulling me out of the classroom immediately.
We pushed and shoved other kids out of the way, to get to the canteen before all the good food goes.
"Watch out freaks!"
"OMFG my foot ouch, you fat cow I can't believe you stepped on my toes!"
"Stop running in the corridors!"
Those were some of the many protests we gained through our vicious attempts to shove people out of the way.
(A/N: song Monsters ~ By Ruelle)
Suddenly Damian stopped running and stood on his tippy toes, causing me to slam into his back, "What the fuck!" I yelled and rubbed my head, how many times must I hit my head because of him.
He stopped moving completely and tightened his grip on my wrist. Shoving me protectively behind him.
"What happened?" I whined and tried to see why he stopped, my stomach grumbled again. The sound of my stomach growling was silenced as another way louder sound came from in front of me and Damian. The sound of yelling.
I shoved Damian out of my way and started trying to push through the students, who were blocking my view. What's going on?
"Sasha stop!" Damian grabbed my wrist again and pulled me back towards him.
"Who's fighting?" I asked him, he could see over all the smaller kids who were crowding the fight.
I could not.
"It's just some randoms." He sighed and looked at me again a grin appearing on his face.
Something was off.
"Ok let's get some lunch then!" I yelled at his face, I need to find out who's fighting. The yelling was getting louder and the chants from the students were beginning. This scene was all too familiar to me.
He smiled and began walking ahead, expecting me to follow him to the lunch room. Instead, I spun around and ran towards the fight. The chants got louder and a feeling arrived in my stomach.
The adrenaline.
I shoved the final kids out of the way and now I finally saw what all this commotion was about.
Ruby stood over another girl, blood on her knuckles. She was viciously hitting the girl repeatedly. No hesitation, people encouraged her but, it seemed as if she was in the Zone. Nothing could stop her from achieving her goal- to hurt the girl.
No.
This isn't Rudy.
Not the girl who was always lovable and kind. This girl reminded me of myself- a killer.
I can't let her hurt other people because of the pain that I brought upon her by taking away a Ryder.
I couldn't control myself.
My body had a mind of its own.
And it went straight towards Ruby pulling her off the girl. Everyone in the room stopped moving and the chants stopped. Ruby's eyes narrowed on me and she shoved my hand off her arm.
"What the fuck are you doing! I gave you a warning this morning!" She yelled and shoved me into the crowd who pushed me back to her. All carving a fight- it was sickening.
"Stop Ruby," My voice an unfamiliar whisper, I felt pain inside, this isn't who she is.
"Please," I mumbled out just above a broken whisper. She shoved me again. At least she stopped hurting the girl.
"Who the fuck are you! You have no right to talk to me like that you nerd. Move the fuck out of my way you dumb bitch before what happened to her," she gestured towards the girl on the floor behind me- her hair creating a wall around her, her shoulders shook violently and she sobbed uncontrollably, Ruby pointed back to me, "Happens to you." The girl sobbed again and I turned to her. She was so innocent like, she probably didn't do anything and Ruby was doing this to her.
I managed to completely turn my eyes from the girl back to Ruby.
"This isn't you Ruby," I said my voice becoming stronger by the second, I felt the need to protect the girl. Even against someone who used to mean so much to me.
"You don't even know me!" She spat out, then laughed out darkly as if remembering a bad memory.
"Just move fucker you're just creating more drama for your sad little life. Only one person could talk to me like that, an-nd he's gone-e now." Her voice broke at the end.
I sighed my stomach drop and I finally realized what I had to do, in order to protect and get the attention off the poor girl.
"Ruby." I pleaded.
She pushed me into the lockers again.
Third times a charm right?
"Stop saying my name like that! Like you actually know anything about me! Like you actually know me!" She screamed out and pushed me into the lockers every few seconds. I can't do this anymore.
"Like I actually know you?" My usual sinister laugh broke the silence in the hall. Ruby's eyes widened and confusion crossed her eyes before it was replaced with her cold soulless glare.
"I knew everything about you! You were my best friend," I turned us over and pushed her up against the lockers roughly, my killer side taking over. She winced and stiffened against my grip on the collar of her shirt.
"You are this person, because of me! Ryder is gone Ruby! He's been gone for two years, just because you lost the person you love most doesn't mean you have to lose yourself!" I yelled in her face.
Hypocrite.
"I knew everything about you Ruby! I know how you loved playing at the local park in the afternoon because the sun gave off a 'majestic' glow! I know how much you treasure the smallest things! Like that time in fourth grade when Ryder gave you a rock out of your backyard because he said it was the same color as your eyes, you fricken kept it and never let anyone touch it!"
Before I could stop myself, I had given away the one thing I was supposed to keep hidden in this town.
My identity.
Ruby's eyes glazed over and she fell limp against my grip on her. I stepped back and looked at her. Waiting for her to say something. Anything.
"Sasha?" She whispered in shock, one tear fell- then another and another.
I stepped towards her, not being able to take the sight of her being hurt. My angry perishing leaving regret behind.
Just before I could touch her, she snapped out her trance and pushed me back. Hard enough to make me stumble and lose balance. I fell onto someone in the crowd, the person pushed me back towards Ruby. Again.
She wiped away the tears and stormed towards me. She didn't touch me but got close enough so that I could see into her eyes. They showed me one single thing and it was all I needed to know that she would never forgive me hatred.
"You're so fucking stupid," She snapped out, I stayed silent.
"You came back," She whispered in shock then suddenly chucked her head back laughed and as if in a crazy nightmare.
She brought her gaze back to mine, seriousness and hatred taking over once again.
"I promise you Sasha night, that I will never forgive you for what you have done." Gasps filled the hallway at the mention of my whole name.
"I know that there is no hard proof that you made me loose Ryder." She paused, "But I know that whatever happened to him was your fault. I see the regret in your eyes, you will never forgive yourself. And that's what you deserve. Right Sasha? You don't deserve to be happy, you deserve to live every day of your life knowing that Ryder is dead because of you." She stared into my eyes. My Chest burned.
This is why I have such high walls up around me, they protected me. But in times like now. I felt them crumble down.
I lost control of my emotions. I let myself hurt. I deserved to hurt. Ruby was right. I frowned, the realization that everything she said was true came over me, Ruby watched as it slowly stretched into my face.
With a satisfied smirk, Ruby walked over to her two barbie friends, I looked down at my shoes in thick shame, she's right about everything.
Just when I thought is was over, she paused as if remembering something.
"Sasha?"
I looked slowly looked up at her, "I promise you, that every time you find happiness. I will be there to crush it. To take away anyone, that could possibly make you forget the sins you have committed. I will always be there watching over you, making sure you never find yourself again."
I nodded and she walked away with her posse behind her. My heart throbbed but I didn't let the other kids in the hall see. Now that my identity was out, I no longer had to be this fake person.
Yes, I had to be well behaved, but I didn't have to dress like this. There is no long a point.
The hallways cleared and I found myself alone with the girl Ruby was bullying earlier. The girl had frozen and pushed herself up against the lockers.
In fear?
I ignored her and went to get my bag from the floor, were I had chucked it down earlier, just before I could grab the handle- the girl said something. One simple name that made every nerve in my body go haywire, my heart immediately stopped beating, my stomach sunk. No how?
"Black-widow."
I turned to face the girl as she finally stood from the floor, and pushed her hair out of her face.
"Sophie."
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