Whitney
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It's been a week since Amarquis and I have last seen each other. I'm glad for the break because I'm beyond upset but more embarrassed than anything.
I basically poured out my heart and blew my cover of letting him know that I have feelings for him still but for what? Just to be shot down.
🙄😑
Knocking me out of my thoughts, I got up and answered the door.
"Y'all hoes just randomly pop up at my house" I shook my head letting Joy and Tete in.
"Hell yeah. We were trying to see what's up with you and Karl's." Joy sat down
"Yeah speaking of her, where is she?" Tete asked before sitting down herself.
"Amarquis has her again." I sighed.
Tete and Joy looked at each other then back at me.
"So are you sad because she's with him.." Joy started
"Or are you sad because of what happened the other day?" Tete finished her statement
Before I spoke, I took a minute to think about my answer. "Both."
"And why is that?"
"Because I really do miss my family..together. I really do feel like I had it right in my hand and I took it for granted. I could have been Mrs. Brownlee already but I'm the side piece of a married man." I began to cry.
"Aww come here sweetie, everything is going to be fine." Joy grabbed me into a hug followed by Tete
"Thanks." I sniffed. "It's just I don't know how I spiraled this far out of control. What's wrong with me?"
"Girl nothing is wrong with you. You're just another woman that's broken mentally and physically. Just like the rest of us"
"I mean it's crazy how these niggas come in our lives and take our happiness and give us this lonely and bitterness for the rest of our lives. I honestly feel like every nigga is the same." Tete said.
"That's how I used to think. Amarquis has totally changed. He's not the same person and he made the change for me and my daughter and I messed it up." I said as tears rolled down my face.
"You'll get through it." Joy gave me another hug.
I smiled and we sat in a peaceful silence for a bit.
"Well I gotta go work, I love you and I'll see you later baby." Tete said as she got up
"Love y'all too" I got up and let them out.
After letting them out, I went upstairs and tried to lay down but I heard the door open.
Knowing it was only one person that it could be, I laid down quickly, turned my back to the door, and pretended to be sleep.
I heard the door open and Jaylon put something on the table. After setting whatever it was up, he kissed me softly and left out of the room
I got up and seen a beautiful bouquet of flowers and a card that said I Love You on the outside.
Rolling my eyes deeply I got up and grabbed the flowers and stormed down the stairs. Jaylon was about to walk out the door
"I just hope you don't think this is going to work?" I set the flowers on the table.
"Baby I didn't mean to wake you. Did you read the card?"
"No I didn't read your weak ass card and I don't want any damn flowers."
"Weak? Look whatever, just let me know when you read the card." Jaylon walked closer to the door
Did he really think he was about to get away with this? Oh no. Oh hell no. I grabbed his arm and turned him around.
"I don't want to read that card!" I pushed him trying to start a fight because he was too calm and I will not be the only one upset 🙄 petty I know but whatever 😑
Lol y'all this is really true. I can not and will not be mad by myself. I will slick hit below the belt if I feel like you're not mad. 😂😂😂 petty queen 👸
"What do you want me to do!" Jaylon raised his voice slightly
"I want you to fucking act right and stop stringing me along in this madness!" I punched him hard in the chest
"Whitney I swear on everything if you hit me again.."
I drew back but Jaylon grabbed me and threw me over his shoulder and walked up the steps.
I screamed and kicked at the top of my lungs, "Whitney shut the fuck up!"
"Don't talk to me like that!" I hit him again and before I knew it, he put me on the bed
"Here!" Jaylon tried to give me the card
I hit his hand making him drop the card
"You trying my patience. Read this shit and I'm not gone tell you again." Jaylon picked up the card and held it out again.
"No!"
"See this is exactly why I'm ending this shit! I can't deal with your fucking attitude!" Jaylon raised his voice
"What?" My eyes bucked open
"Whitney yes I am so wrong for holding on to my family and you at the same time. I'm sorry for doing that to you and more than that I'm man enough to apologize for taking away your choice in the matter of it all. When I came back down here, Imani and I were in a bad place and we were actually getting divorced at the time but this past week spending time with my kids and us all being a family again, I just can't do this. I don't want to hurt them and never did I or have I intended on hurting you." Jaylon's voice cracked
He took a minute to gather his thoughts and he cleared his throat
"Damn why is this shit so hard to do?" Jaylon hit his head
"Wait, you're breaking up with me?" My throat started to burn
Jaylon wiped a tear falling, "Yes."
"Wait Jaylon no, don't leave me. I'm so sorry. I'll do better about my attitude but just don't leave me." I got up and rushed to him. I wrapped my arms around him and Jaylon hesitated at first sniffling but finally relaxed and hugged me back.
We stayed in each other's arms for what felt like forever crying together until he broke the silence.
"I didn't want to do it like this but you deserve so much more than what I can give you. I love you more than anything and because I love you, I'm letting you go." Jaylon kissed my forehead and let me go.
"Jaylon please.." I sobbed
"I love you Whitney." Jaylon wiped his damp face and walked out of the bedroom and something told me that it was for good.
At this point, I was just shocked and speechless. I couldn't even be mad at him for being honest about what he wanted and what he wanted wasn't me.
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Hey y'all!! Omg. Life is hard 🙄 it took me FOREVER to find time to actually think about where I wanted to go with this because ideas keep coming.
I got a few days off so I will try to update again for you guys but no promises.
I love you all and thanks for the constant votes on my precious book and this one. I'm very much grateful.
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