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Chapter 4
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The life out of me has been swept away by the tears that have fallen from my poor eyes,
My hurt and pain I wish will all go away which I know it never will, it'll always stay,
I think about you often, all the good times we could have been spending together but it ends all the same, I'll never be able to see you soon and that's how it'll remain.
I'm missing you harder than I thought I could and it seems as if this is all I do.
Cry and cry repeatedly because you were mine. And I didn't get to say my last good bye.
I don't want pity all I need is time.
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(Haven't done a flash black in a while lol)
Flash back~
Jae's P.O.V
I was at my locker fumbling with the books in my hands trying to make it to class as I heard a familiar voice behind me. An annoying voice at that. It was Ray, the one who had trying to get with me for the last two months. I rolled my eyes as I heard him come nearer.
"Well if it isn't the famous Jaelyn" he says. I could feel the smirk on his face as he bent down to my height and gave me a peck on the cheek. "Hey hun😘" he says.
I froze surprised he kissed me. I barely even knew the guy! "Can you not" I stated giving him a hard glare and resting my books on the shelf of the locker.
He put his arm around my shoulder and grabbed my books in the other.
"You can't resist me." He says laughing.
I couldn't help but laugh along with him because he was so charming. We got to class and he decided to sit in front of me. He gave me my books and I decided I wouldn't be so rude.
"Thank you" I said nicely.
"No problem."
Class had began and I could say that I was bored. But, I couldn't risk letting my GPA drop just because I didn't feel like doing the work. I lazily took notes and doodled on the side of my notebook.
The teacher sat down at his desk as he passed out the worksheet for the lab and explained the directions.
Ray then turned to me.
"You can stop acting like you're paying him any attention now."
"Shut up" I said.
How did he know I wasn't paying attention, I wondered. But then again I looked around and all I saw were people falling asleep or on their phones. I was probably the only one even looking at the board.
"You know it's true." He said chuckling.
"So do you wanna partner up or nah?" He says.
"I don't care." I stated. Even though I was actually waiting for him to ask. He was interesting and I liked to hear what he had to say. He was pretty funny to me.
He sat across my desk helping me. I had no idea he was actually smart. For a class clown I was surprised. He helped me with the project until the bell rang. Everyone else was passing out into the hall.
Ray then grabbed my books handing them to me as we walked out together.
"So uh... I think I was pretty good today. We actually had a conversation." He says.
"Where you goin with this lil boy" I said continuing to walk next to him.
"Oh no whereeeeee" he says with a chuckle.
"Just uh.. Me..you...dinner on Friday." He says smirking at me.
"I uh-"
"Okay great!" He says excitedly. Then he kissed me on my cheek again just a little longer.
"Ray I-"
"I'LL PICK YOU UP AT 8" he screams walking away from me.
He's pretty confident too.
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Amiya's P.O.V.
I walked in on my sister vigorously regurgitating into the toilet. Her hair was pulled back into a messy bun and she had on loose sweats. I scrunched my eyebrows together confused. She had been sick for almost a month and nobody knew what was wrong with her. I mean, she was grieving but that had almost nothing to do with her health aside from stress. I noticed she was losing weight too. I felt bad for her. Sitting along the soft grey rug of the bathroom I patted her back softly.
She groaned in pain clutching her stomach. I knew Jaelyn had always been a girl with high tolerance of pain so I was surprised to see her crying over a stomach ache. I assumed it was serious.
"Jae. What's wrong?" I said gently.
"I don't know" she mumbles with a hoarse voice.
I grabbed her fragile hand as she tried to get off of the floor. All I saw was a weak and thin body that stood in front of me. I thought to myself, would she be starving herself? Or even making herself throw up after every meal? Anything could be going on.
"You need to go to a doctor" I said looking directly in her eyes.
She continued to brush her teeth and rinse her mouth from the smell.
"Maybe.. I don't know" she states.
Her tone was nonchalant and the way she said things so uncaringly bothered me.
She's different. Since the whole car crash and how she lost Ray she's just tore down. I wish I could help her but I know she needs to heal on her own.
"I feel so much better." She says with a cold towel on her head.
"Was it the eggs that made you sick?" I asked curiously hiding what I really wanted to ask. Pretty obvious if you ask me.
"I think so."
"Jae..are you... Ya know...um-"
She lifted her head.
"Of course not! Does that even make sense?"
"I was just assuming because... You've got some kick ass symptoms..."
"Well your assumptions are wrong" she says looking down and then up at me.
"Why are you still looking at me?" She literally screamed.
"I don't need this. Just trying to help" I mumbled lastly.
I didn't want to deal with her attitude so I silently walked out closing her door.
While I made my way back to the kitchen to eat my mother called me.
"YES" I screeched wondering what she wanted.
"Can you get Jae for me." I saw college applications and letters. That's all she cared about. It was annoying and repetitive. I wondered if that's how she's gonna treat me next year.
"Ma she's sick.. I don't thin-"
"I didn't ask... Go get Jae" she says staring at me.
I sighed heavy.
"Whatever the fuck you want." I mumbled .
"Jae" I said walking up the stairs.
There she was in the bathroom searching through the cabinet for a pain reliever.
"Mom wants you" I whispered.
She walked down the steps slowly and I followed behind. This would be a drag.
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Jaelyn's P.O.V.
I walked down the stairs clutching stomach again. I really wasn't in the mood to talk but when was I ever? I made it down to the kitchen and there my mother was sorting out papers and bills. She sipped her tea and glanced at me as I took a seat in front of her.
"How do you feel?" She says feeling my forehead.
"You seem like you have some type of virus and a fever." She states. Even though I knew this wasn't want she wanted me for, I continued to listen to her trying to act as if she cared.
"I don't know" I muttered.
"Well! I know something that'll make you feel better! You've been accepted to 3 schools already!" She says with joy.
I had been so distracted I almost forgot about the applications I already sent out a couple of months ago. I didn't pay it much mind either but I knew I had to go to college. Being the 3rd to graduate in the family was kind of a big deal. Well, to my mother.
"Oh really?" I said surprised.
Even though my heart wasn't really content with going to college. I mean, it was coming way to fast and I wasn't prepared. As I scanned through the letters I just froze. I really wanted to be honest with my mother , but I didn't want to disappoint her. That's one thing I always promised I wouldn't do.
"Wowwww spelman huh?" I said trying to seem happy.
"I think that's gonna be the best for you" she says grinning.
"Oh yeah?" I said.
"Next month they're gonna have a tour of the campus and I was thinking we could go!" She says.
"Sounds good" I said forcing a smile on my face.
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As much as I hated going back to school for another week I knew I had to. When I would sit in class and at least try to listen I would just zone out with all the thoughts on my mind. Almost like my brain had reached its highest point and I would go off like a ticking bomb. It wasn't even 3rd period yet and I felt like I was gonna have to go home.
"Hey" Jacob says.
I turned to him. I haven't even seen him since he left my house.
"Is your phone working?" He asked.
"Yeah why?"
"You haven't been answering." He drifts.
"Oh sorry.."
I then noticed how much I hadn't been doing much of anything. I looked at my phone and I had 87 missed calls and 104 messages that I haven't read. I wasn't ignoring anyone on purpose it's just that I haven't been myself. I really wasn't in the mood to talk to anybody.
"For lunch where should we go?" He asked.
"Not really hungry:(" I stated quietly.
"How about we just ditch then because you don't look so good."
"I'm fine" I said.
"Buuuuut I wanna do it anyway.. You coming?" He asked before picking up his books to leave as the bell rang.
"Sure." I said in a basic tone.
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"So you really just want McDonalds?" Jacob asked pulling up into the crowded drive thru.
"Yessssss. I've been wanting a milkshake for ages."
He shakes his head and starts to laugh.
"What's so funny?" I said.
I couldn't help but smirk because I knew he was laughing at me.
"You're pretty small to be wanting all this greasy food."
"Were you on a diet last week or something?" He asked seriously.
I was a little hurt by his comment and for some reason I was in that place again. Being nonchalant and blunt to everyone around me. For once I was laughing again and then another person brings up my weight loss.
I figured Jacob was just asking and he meant no harm so I let it go.
"Nah..." I said.
It was finally our turn to order so he pulled up closer. Ten minutes later we got our food and sat in the car.
I literally devoured the meal in like two seconds and Jacob started looking at me crazy.
"I was hungry!" I exclaimed while laughing.
"I see but damn." He says chuckling hard.
"Just leave me be okay."
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Short chapter I guess😐🌸🌞
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