I was walking to his table when I felt his big ass foot tripping me luckily dumbass Gabriel was right behind me and caught my arm. Then I see him smirk and laugh. Ugh that fucking asshole! I told Gabriel thanks and I gave her the food and left to get Gabriel's and Yessi's food. Then I went and took it to their table.
" thanks, hey when are you off " asked Yessi.
" at 11 why " I asked.
" you want to hang out with us " asked Yessi.
I looked at Gabriel and it looked like he wanted me to say yes then I looked back at Yessi " nah I have plans for tonight after work maybe next time " I said.
I was gonna walk away when Yessi spoke " really what are you going to do " she asked.
I shrugged " still don't know just gonna kick it with Flaco " I said.
" damn girl get it " said Yessi laughing.
I laughed " nah he's my homie nothing else " I said and left.
My shift was almost over just had 15 minutes left yet sadly they all were still here ugh. And I see Flaco come in with another girl.
He smiled at me " hey Gigglesz this is my sister Emily " said Flaco.
I smiled " hi Emily, so what brings you by " I asked Flaco.
He laughed " I wanted to see you already and plus Emily over here is hungry " said Flaco smiling.
Then you hear Adrian yelling who knows what he said but Flaco and Emily turned around. And she went running to him to hug him and Flaco looked at me.
" has he given you a hard time " asked Flaco.
" it doesn't matter " I said smiling to him.
He sighed " I'm sorry he's just childish " said Flaco.
" it's alright I can handle my own " I said.
Then all three came to Flaco.
" ey carnal she's giving you a hard time " asked Adrian to Flaco. I so rolled my eyes. " no why " said Flaco to Adrian. " nah just come on let's go somewhere else to eat I don't trust her with our food " said Adrian to Flaco. Flaco shakes his head " nah it's cool I came to pick her up anyways you can take Emily back home " said Flaco to Adrian. " what the fuck hell nah why you going to hang out with a bi--" said Adrian before Flaco cut him off " you better not finish that word now get the fuck out of here Adrian " said one pissed off Flaco. Then they all walked away and left.
" well that was something mhmm do you want food to take wherever we are going " I asked.
He smiled and laughed " yeah sure I'm taking you somewhere special to me " he said.
" alright then that's good so what do you want " I asked.
So we got tacos and shrimp cocktails some chips and salsa can't forget the agua de horchata. I got the bags ready and paid I clocked out and we left. I kept asking where we going but he said it was a surprise. Then we came near this abandoned park and I looked at him crazy.
" why we here " I asked.
" just get the bags and follow me " he said.
Before I did I texted my brother I was out with a friend and I'd be staying with them he texted back saying it was okay. I got the bags and I followed him. We went to the semi forest we walked a lot well it felt like a lot then we stopped and I couldn't believe what I was seeing.
" wow this is so beautiful " I said admiring the view.
" I know right I like to come here and escape reality sometimes it calms me and helps me think " Flaco said.
I smiled " yeah I'm sure it helps. I never knew this park had a hidden lake" I said.
He brought a blanket and we sat on top of it while we ate by the time we got done it was midnight.
" I brought weed want to smoke " asked Flaco.
I really wanted to but I wanted to enjoy the view and remember it. " no ill pass I just want to enjoy the view" I said.
He laughed " alright then that's fine. Do you want to go inside the water " asked Flaco.
" you just want to see me naked " I said laughing " but no I don't want to get sick " I said.
" I wouldn't mind but no I was just asking but alright it's fine " he said. We laid down and we started to see the stars.
" today has been good being with you " said Flaco.
" whatever it's was okay " I laughed " okay it was good " I said looking at him and he turned to look at me and I saw him lean down and he kissed me! He freaking kissed me! It was a small peck in the lips but still a kiss. I stood there frozen. Trying to understand what just happened. He laughed " im sorry I just had to" said Flaco. I laughed " mhm it's okay I don't know just don't do it again " i said. " I won't " he said. Then we talked some more. We talked about his past how he feels like his time is coming and he doesn't want to leave just yet. His demons were catching up to him for all the bad he did but he couldn't help it but be bad. It was around 2 when we went to his house he sneaked me in and we both went to sleep right away. I really wanted to like Flaco more then a friend but I couldn't. I just liked him as a friend nothing more nor less. He's a great guy and Dolly would be one lucky girl to have him.
It was March already.
Sunday , March 08,2009 to be exact.
" we told you to stay away but you didn't listen and this is the price you had to pay " the voices in my head said. I was sobbing screaming " no! God why?! Why me again! " I yelled as I dropped to the floor. " you bring nothing but bad luck we warned you! You should've ended your life long ago! " the voices in my head said. I couldn't stop crying my heart was breaking once again. I need it to stop and fast. I want to be numb. I don't want to feel. The tears kept coming nonstop. I stood up and looked at myself in my mirror. I saw all my flaws all my insecurities and how pathetic i looked.
I took a deep breath and wiped the tears away. I went to my closet and got out a black box. I opened it and I just stared at my razor. Before I got it out I texted G.
" I'm so sorry I didn't mean to just I can't take it anymore I'm so sorry. I love you Tony never forget that. And Goodbye G" - me to Antonio aka Tony aka G.
I put my phone away and I heard it go off but I ignored it. I got the razor out and I took off all my bracelets and I started to slowly cut myself going deeper. I saw the blood come out and it felt good. I made another cut going more deeper it relaxed my body. As I was about to cut my vein to finally end all my misery. When I was about to my bedroom door opened.
" what the fuck! Drop that! Now!" Yelled G.
I had tears in my eyes as I dropped it. I felt his arms around me pulling me in for a hug.
" shhhh it's going to be okay. Please stop don't do this to yourself" said G.
I just cried in his arms as he hugged me tight. After a while being like this I spoke up.
" why did they do that to him " I asked.
" I don't know mija he took the bullet for his carnal mija " said G.
" but why. Why were they even after him. Why couldn't he just let his brother take the bullet! Why did he leave me!" I asked yelling full on crying again.
" drama with the new norteños in town mija that's all I know. He loved his brothers he would've done it for any of them. He didn't mean to leave you he didn't know it was going to kill him babygirl. Don't hate him for dying." Said G.
" I don't hate him for dying. I hate him for leaving me alone. For promising he'd always be here for me. Just yesterday we were hanging out having a good time and now he's gone. Flaco is gone.. " I said crying even harder.
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