"I think you should do it bro, you guys are literally made for each other"
I wake up disoriented, my head still on Conor's lap where I'd drifted off to sleep a few hours ago now. A yawn escape my mouth as I turn to my side, snuggling my face into Conor's stomach. I hadn't planned to fall asleep, but Conor had simply forced me to it as I didn't get enough sleep last night due to Leonelle being ill and keeping us both up most of the night.
"Oh, you're awake"
Conor looked down at me, worry filling his face as he bit his nails. I rub my eyes, the sleep still haunting my tired mind.
"Mm, just about though, how long have I slept for?"
His fingers find my messy hair and I relax from his touch.
"Just over three hours now"
I stretch out my stiff back and sit back up beside him on the outdoor sofa, the sun blinding me as I look out over the pool area in front of us.
"Oh snap, sorry. You've literally been stuck here for that long, you know you could've woken me up if you wanted to"
He kiss my temple softly and pull me close to him, the warmth of his bare skin rubbing off on mine.
"Yeah but it was nice to just sit and think for some time, you know contemplating life in general"
I smile, knowing that he appreciated his alone time where he could just think, not having to talk to anyone. It sometimes baffled me that he chose to do what he does, being in the headlights had never really been his thing, he didn't always enjoy all the attention he got and could actually be a bit shy at times even though he tried not to show it in front of his fans. Just as he doesn't like talking about his depression in public, it was something he'd kept for himself for many years until he'd finally told me about it. It didn't come easy though and I'd had to practically bribe him to tell me what was wrong.
"Morning, or should we say afternoon"
Alex and Mikey come over, some random drinks in their hands as they sit down on the remaining sunbeds just next to the sofa that me and Conor are sharing.
"Haha, very funny boys, just wait until you get a kid yourselves"
The two boys exchange a look before lying down, knowing that it wasn't worth arguing with me and Conor about being tired, it was something we constantly suffered with.
"Don't irritate a pregnant woman guys, she could literally explode any second"
Conor laugh at his own joke before he realise what he's just done, Jack, Alex, Mikey and Oli turning their heads towards us, everyone shocked apart from Jack who are just grinning widely, trying to keep the sip of his drink in his mouth.
"Did we just hear that"
Oli place his phone down beside him, his mouth slightly open in shock.
"This have to be true guys or I don't know what to do"
Mikey shake his head slowly, running his hand through his hair.
"My best friend's having a second kid, this is fucking amazing!"
Alex's scream draws the attention of Merissa, Josh and Caspar who are all in the pool talking quietly to each other.
"Excuse me guys, let me explain"
I take a deep breath, everyone looking at me as I shift over in my seat.
"This wasn't the way I'd planned to tell you but yes, me and this handsome guy here are like you heard pregnant with a little one since a few weeks now"
Alex is the first one to react, running over to give me and Conor a warm hug, his wet hair tickling my skin.
"I can't bloody believe it, still I'm happy for you two"
Oli smile, agreeing with Mikey's comment.
"Sorry to interrupt but I just felt like we missed something very important"
Joe and Emily joins from inside, curious over what is happening.
"Jess's pregnant and Conor just managed to give it away"
Josh pat Conor's shoulder before giving me a wet hug, whispering a quick message in my ear.
"I knew it"
Emily grin and I just shake my head.
"Apearantly everyone knew apart from me then"
Conor's arm snake around my waist as he kiss the top of my head. It was his secret way of saying sorry for giving it away and I just sqeeze his hand, reassuring him that it's fine and that he doesn't have to worry about it.
"Why are you not even surprised man, you've just been sat there during it all?"
Alex sink down next to Jack who just smile cheekily towards me and Conor.
"They told me a few days ago, as I'm Conor's brother and stuff"
Jack shrug his shoulders whilst Conor just nod, indicating that's the case.
.............
"Cheers guys"
The sounds of glasses clinking fill the room as everyone cheers. It had been Jack's idea to get everyone drunk tonight, as if they hadn't drunk enough this holiday already.
I sip on my coke, following Merissa's gaze towards Caspar and Conor, our two boyfriends doing some weird dance together.
"I can't understand I fell for such a weirdo, like look at him"
Smiling do I look at Caspar trying to dance like Conor, not doing that well actually. Conor had the skills that everyone wished for, I used to get amazed by the way he was able to move his body when there was music on, now it just makes me smile, knowing he had fun.
"Same, look at Conor, he's going to smash something any minute, just wait"
Merissa laugh as Caspar drags her up on the floor, leaving me alone on the sofa. It didn't bothered me though, I was more than happy with staying out of the party for tonight.
"You alright baby?"
Conor sink down next to me, the smell of beer escaping his mouth as he peck my lips. He wasn't drunk yet, just a bit tipsy.
"Mm, I enjoy just watch you guys having fun"
I lean my head against his side a whiff of sweat hitting me as he lift up his arm over my shoulders.
"I think it's enough for me this evening, it would be nice not to wake up hungover tomorrow"
He squeeze my upper arm as he yawn, a drop of spit landing on his lap.
"I think so too bubbs, I think so too"
I giggle as I say it making him frown at me and I just nod towards the speckle of spit on his thigh.
"Oh god I'm gross, sorry babe"
He wipe his mouth, blushing after he's realised what just happened.
"It's okay, I understand"
Kissing his forehead do I pull him with me up onto the dance floor, my arms around his neck and our eyes locked on each other. He did always become a much happier person after a couple of beers and even though it was quite sad the fact that he rarely could enjoy himself properly without alcohol was it nice to see him smile and have fun with the others.
"Smile for snapchat guys!"
Jack pull his phone up and start recording, just about catching mine and Conor's kiss on camera.
"Let's go outside"
Conor grab my hand and pull me out to the balcony on the front of the house, the view being pretty amazing.
"I wanted you all for myself"
He sit down on a chair, his blue-green jacket shining in the light from the party inside. I pull out my phone and begin to play around with the filters on snapchat, showing Conor some of the funniest ones.
"This one is hilarious, look at me"
Conor burst out laughing as I show him the picture giving me the perfect opertunety to get the perfect photo of my boyfriend.
@Jessica-Cirden my boyfriend in his natural habitat #LoveOfMyLife
The likes and comments start coming in and I smile as I change my background, knowing it was going to be a favourite for some time now.
.............
Conor's P.O.V
The party had ended a few hours ago and everyone was getting ready for bed, me and Jess being the only ones up, tidying.
I was in the kitchen when it happened, a loud bang and then Jess's scream.
Dropping everything do I run out to her, lying on the floor in the living room, blood and pieces of glass shattered all around her body.
"What the actual hell just happend, Jack!"
I crouch down, my heart beating fast in my chest as I try to find the source of the blood.
"Breathe baby, you'll be okay"
Quickly do I pull my T-shirt off, pressing it against the wound on her wrist where the blood is now pulsating out, leaving a large stain on the white carpet.
"For fuck sake, Jack!"
The bleeding won't stop and I start to slowly freak out. Luckily Jack come to my rescue, stopping in the middle of the stairs as he realise what have actually happened.
"Bro what the fuck, we need to get her to hospital now or she'll be losing too much blood"
Jess grunt a silent apologise as Jack grab her hand.
"We'll have to drive her there or we won't make it, Conor this is serious"
I pick Jess up bridal style, her legs hanging loosely as if she's already gone. The tears burn in my eyes as I watch her in my arms, blood dripping down in a trail after us. I knew you could die from losing too much blood, it wasn't uncommon but I'd never thought I'd ever experience it myself, not with my girlfriend anyway.
"Keep putting pressure on it, it'll help"
Jack slam the door to the backseat shut, leaving me in charge of being the medical one.
"Jack I'm scared, what if I do something wrong and she doesn't make it?"
He look back at me in rearview mirror, the worry obvious in his light blue eyes.
"Just make sure that she's breathing and keep pressing against the wound, it's not much else we can do in this moment Conor"
I wet my lips and readjust her head in my lap. The blood is already starting to stain the light suede interior of the car as well as my white T-shirt, making it seem like I've been involved in the accident too.
Jack is driving way over the speedlimit and all I hope for is that it won't be a police stopping us for it, we don't have that time, I know it won't be long until she's lost too much blood and she'll fall down dead in my arms.
During it all tears is streaming down Jess's cheeks, blending with the clear red blood that's left on her face from my hands, she's still conscious as we drive into the hospital car park, leaving me with a bit of hope.
"She's hurt, quick please help!"
I run in with Jess in my arms making a huge scene of it all. The waiting room goes quiet as everyone turn their heads to look at us.
"For fuck sake, she's dying, just do something!"
Jack run in front of us trying to get someone's attention as we jog through the reception.
"In here!"
An older nurse guide us into a small clammy hospital room and then it all start kicking off. Doctors and nurses flooding the room, pushing me and Jack into the wall behind us as they begin to work.
"Name and details on the injured, someone!"
I push myself over to the door.
"Jessica, Jessica Cirden, I'm her boyfriend"
Out of breath does the nurse force me to sit down on a chair just outside the room, trying to calm me down a bit.
"Does she have any allergies, any past medical issues we need to know about, sir we'll need your help"
Slowly does my vision become blurry, parts of black creeping in from the sides. I blink, trying to make it go away but it just grows.
"She's.... She's pregnant"
It's the only thing I manage to get out before everything goes black, the last thing I hear is Jack's worried voice, blended with the muffled noises from machines and doctors.