Inside,
I say things,
To myself.
"He's perfect, and I'm nothing."
But,
Then you told me to shut up,
Asked me why,
And,
I gave up.
I realized,
That I'm only causing you pain.
I'm dying inside,
But,
I'm healing.
My heart shatters,
constantly.
With all of these thoughts,
My mind,
It tries to tell me,
You're not real.
But,
You're real,
I know this.
You said,
You knew all my different sides.
Did you know,
About one certain side?
The one side I try to never show anyone.
It's the side,
Where I quit,
The side where I won't talk,
No texting,
No calling,
No crying,
No emotions,
Have you seen this side yet?
It's my numb side.
Hiding the one thing that scares me the most.
I know,
You'll find a way to help me. . .
But,
How do you help someone,
Who doesn't want help?
I however,
I just want it leave.
I'm happy around you and our friend.
But,
My mind,
Tells me things.
I don't want to be around,
While it's doing these things.
I just want them to go away.
But,
They won't leave.
Tears,
They fall and don't quit.
My heart,
Shatters,
Even more.