Hello Bubbles! How are you all doing? Great? Bad? Well I am not doing good either. Too much study burden and all. Anyways here is a much waited update for you all.
I hope you enjoy it.
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Taylor's POV
"Sorry if I am dying to kiss you right now." Jake whispered and started leaning in and my breath hitched.
I closed my eyes momentarily and was ready for the kiss but it was like something snapped in me, when I closed my eyes I started imagining Harry and I just couldn't do that to Jake. I opened my eyes and could feel his breath against my lips, I slowly took a step back as I clutched Jake's arm in my hand. "I..I can't. I am..I am sorry." I stuttered out and left the dance floor as fast as possible, wanting to get away from Jake not wanting to see the hurt look on his face. I went to the bar and motioned for the bartender to prepare a drink. It took only few seconds for him to place the torturous liquid in front of me. Torturous because it would either numb your pain or would make you feel twice as much as pain. It was risk that basically everyone was willing to take.
I played with Jake's feelings, I shouldn't have indulge myself in him while knowing that he has feelings for me while knowing what I wouldn't be able to return his feelings. Oh my gosh! I was such a fool. I wanted to cry as I took a gulp of the drink in my hand. I felt someone taking a seat besides me and I knew exactly who he was by his silence.
"I am sorry." I whispered. My voice slightly hoarse from all the alcohol I was consuming. "I just..I don't know what take over me..I am sorry for hurting you like that." I trailed off as I glanced over at Jake who gave me one of his side smile that kinda calmed my nerves. "I am fine-" Jake started and I could tell he was lying, he must have read the look on my face as he corrected himself. "I mean I will be fine. You didn't hurt me..that much." Jake chuckled as he rubbed the side of his neck. "Sorry I am not good with words in this kind of situations." Jake said and I gave him a sad smile. "I know. I just want you to know that I am extremely sorry for..For doing what I did. I didn't wanted to give you miss signals. I.." I trailed off and Jake nodded attentively taking in whatever I was saying.
"I know. It's fine Taylor. Really. You just love someone else and I think I have an idea who." Jake said as he looked around before looking back at me as to prove a point. "W..Who?" I asked as I watched him take sips of drink. "Mr.Styles has been boring holes in the side of my head with all his glares." Jake said as he tilted his head to the side as to indicate me. I looked in the direction and saw Harry glancing at her every here and there. "I am sorry about that too." I sighed as I finished my drink feeling my head getting lighter.
"It's fine. I just hope things get better between you two because it sucks to see a beautiful girl like you cry." Jake said as he wiped his finger on my cheek capturing a tear there which I didn't even knew was falling down. "That's just sweat." I told Jake with a slight laugh as I picked up his drink taking a sip. "I didn't knew people sweat from eyes." Jake said amused at my state. "Duh. My eyes are tired from blinking so many times." I replied as I swing around on my barstool. "Well..I think I will leave now since there is no point in staying..uh stay here and I will get Selena. Okay?" Jake asked while I just hummed in response to busy staring at my reflection on the glass table. Why do my hair look golden? I thought they were blonde. That's..now Harry wouldn't love me as much as before. He once said he loved my blonde hair..now I don't even have that. Well I don't have Harry either so..
"Do it! Do it! Do it!" I heard the crowd shouting around in a group and I got curious about what was going on. I basically stumbled over to the crowd a grin forming on my face when I noticed what they were doing. Body shots! I never done them in my life but now the idea of it sounds very interesting. The crowd was cheering up when a guy, a rather good looking one volunteered. He had jet Black hair with green eyes but not as beautiful as Harry's. He was good looking tho. I looked around seeing that there was still no girl who was ready to join. I shrugged my shoulders and raised my hand up, the crowd breaking into cheers as I laughed. They pushed me forward toward the table and the guy grabbed my hand. "Hello there Gorgeous." He said as he pulled me closer and I laughed, he seemed nice but he was being too touchy. "Sorry my name is Taylor." I giggled out as I looked around at the cheering crowd. "Sorry my fault, Taylor." He laughed as two people approached us. "So what do..do I do..to do body shots?" I slightly slurred out while I figured in my mind if my grammar was right.
"Nothing really. You just need to.." The touchy guy looked at me up and down as if I was..an ice cream! I wondered did he loved ice creams as much as I did? Or was he hungry? "You just gotta lay down.." He finished and I turned to him. "But I am not sleepy." The guy rolled his eyes and I glared at him. He slightly pushed me toward the table and I sat on it. "We will start with standard body shots." The guy started as he pushed me down to lay down. A giggled escaped my lips as the my back hit the cold bar. The guy placed some salt on the place where my neck and collar bone meet before holding out a lemon wedge in front of me. I opened my mouth letting him place the wedge in my mouth. The crowd cheered on as the guy took his tequila shot. I wanted cheer too but the lemon wedge in my mouth stopped me from doing so. The guy quickly straddled my waist on the table placing his knees on either side of me and I resist the urge to laugh. I didn't knew what I found funny in that situation. Maybe it was because of the fact that way he was licking away the salt was ticklish.
He finished licking up the salt and started leaning in toward my face to take the lemon wedge when suddenly out of no where he was pushed on the floor and the crowd started booing loudly and then just like that the voice of my knight in shining was heard. "Get the fuck away from my girl!" But since when he started cursing. Harry pulled me up and I tried pushing him away. I was having fun. Harry shot me a glare that made my struggle stop immediately. "Hey what the hell man?!" The touchy guy bellowed his face going slightly red like a unripe tomato and I resist the urge to laugh. I took out the lemon once I remembered it was still in my mouth.
Harry gave the guy a glare as he dragged me away from the bar table toward a secluded area. "What the hell do you think you were doing?" Harry asked me once we were alone as he let go off my wrist which I rubbed slightly. His grip was a little tight for my liking. Harry crossed his arm waiting for me to answer. "Body shots?" I questioned slightly confused as to why he was suddenly being my babysitter.
"I know what was it. I-" Harry stopped and squinted his eyes at me looking as if he was trying to figure something but I didn't cared as I was too busy scraping my nail. "How many drink did you have...?" He asked.
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Harry's POV
I was talking quietly taking sips of my drinks while glancing at Taylor every here and there or maybe glaring at that pest but it wasn't important. What important was how Taylor was drowning her drinks. I turned to talk to a girl who approached and straightforwardly told her that I wasn't interested on which she got mad and left blubbering. Not that I cared. I turned back around and sighed when the pest and Taylor both left the bar.
I sighed and leaned back on my seat. I never expected that Taylor would actually bring the pest here. Was she really making out with him? It was quite obvious with the sarcasm dripping from her voice, sarcasm reminded me how hot she was looking as she spoke to me. Her cherry lips moving for a moment I didn't even knew what she was saying until I heard Louis laugh. I leaned back on my chair thinking about all the ways I could show Taylor I do love her and deserved her love.
After what seemed like few minutes my thoughts got interrupted by the person who I hated the most at the moment. "Mr.Styles..I have to go and I can't seem to find Selena I think she left. Can you take care of Taylor? I think she have a little too much of drinks." He said and I nodded stiffly at the thought of Taylor getting drunk. "Where is she?" I asked trying not to get too worried. "I told her to stay at the bar. She must be there. Goodluck." Jake said like he knew something but I shrugged that thought away and went to search for her. Hoping she didn't got herself into any kind of trouble.
I went to the bar and looked around but Taylor wasn't around. A sigh escaped my lips knowing how stupid of Jake was to let Taylor be alone while she was drunk. "Excuse me..Have you seen a blonde girl? Wearing a black dress, red lipstick.." I listed off a smile breaking on my lips just by thinking about how gorgeous she looked. "Uh..I can't really tell Sir. There are too many girls wearing black dress, blonde hair." He said as he wiped the glass in his hand. I sighed in distress and looked around hoping to find her. The bartender must have sense my distress as he spoke again. "Actually Sir..If you are talking about the same girl who was sitting here with a guy. She went toward the crowd." He pointed toward the crowd with a small smile. "Thank you so so so much. Here." I placed a two hundred bucks on the bar top. "No Sir it's-" He started but I cut him off, "For your great service." I said before leaving quickly toward the crowd hearing him shout a faint thank you to me. Anything to see that Taylor was okay.
I approached the crowd and pushed pass the loud sweaty Men and Women. That's why I preferred staying in the VIP lounge I didn't understand why my friends would come down here. I pushed past everyone and what I saw nearly gave me a heart attack. Taylor was laying down on the table with a guy straddling her as they took body shots. I felt anger and jealousy pumping in veins. I put myself to action and grabbed the guy by his shirt throwing him off Taylor and onto the floor. "Get the hell away from my girl!" I shouted at him as he fell down. The crowd started booing not that I cared about them. I looked over at Taylor who looked confused with the lemon wedge still between her teeth. I could tell she didn't even knew what was going on. I pulled her up by her arm and she started struggling trying to get free, I stopped her effort with a glare. I knew I didn't control her life but right now we could be in huge trouble. "What the hell man?!" The guy shouted but I ignored him giving him the one last glare I started walking away knowing if I stayed in there I would punch him in his stupid face. It was obvious he was taking advantage of her.
I dragged her away into a secluded area and crossed my arms. "What the hell do you think you were doing?" I asked slightly angered but mostly jealous and relieved. Relieved that I got there on time and that she didn't got herself into something worse. "Body shots?" Taylor slurred out confused and I sighed, "I know what was it. I-" I stopped knowing that there was no point in arguing with her as she was drunk and would probably forget everything tomorrow. "How many drinks did you have..?" I asked the question which would give me some idea of her state. "I..I had one when I got here.." Taylor said as she gripped her finger with other hand and I raised an eyebrow at her, "And?" I asked trying not to let her cuteness effect me in that moment. "And when I..I was with Jake..before dance.." Taylor said as she held up three fingers looking at them as if they were the drinks. It was quite amusing actually. "And! Oh after our dance I had...I had three! It was so tasty!" Taylor hold up five fingers and I shook my head. Great.
"Okay let's get you another drink." I said and her face lit up at the prospect of another drink and I rolled my eyes. "Let's go." I took her hand in mine approached the bar. "A glass of water." I told the bartender who nodded and quickly went to fetch it for us while Taylor looked at her reflection on the glass table laughing softly. I turned to her amused at her laugh which was legit music to my ears. "Why are you laughing?" I asked and she turned to me. "I am just happy." She mumbled and I smiled softly, "Why..?" I asked and she looked at me before replying, "My hair turned golden earlier and..and I was worried Harry won't love me..as much as he did before because of that. Now it's back to blonde." Taylor said and I smiled slightly thinking how she get even more adorable every time I think she can't get anymore. "Well I am sure Harry would have loved you the same if you had golden hair instead of blonde." I told her as I pushed the glass of water toward her after the battened placed it on the table.
"Hmm..I don't know. Maybe he likes brunette more." Taylor said as ran her finger over the glass as if she was thinking really hard about it. I frowned slightly why would she say something like that. "Why do you say that..?" I asked even though I had a dreadful feeling. "His ex was a brunette and he chea-" Taylor stopped herself then sighed bringing the glass up to her lips taking a sip. I wish I could undo my mistakes. Fucking Lily. I hated her for ruining what I had with Taylor. "This tastes like water." Taylor said scrunching up her nose slightly as if she was trying to differ if it really was water. Adorable. "It's water..to help you get a little sober." I replied and she rolled her eyes drinking from the glass again. Guess the water was working.
"So I won't end up fucking my ex too. Thanks for being considerate." Taylor said sassily and I bit my tongue to hold back myself. Guess the water was really working. "I am sorry for that. I didn't.." I stopped knowing there wasn't any point. "If sorry could fix everything. There wouldn't be a need of cops." Taylor said as she got up after finishing the glass of water. "Where do you think you are going?" I asked not wanting her to get in anymore trouble as she was still drunk enough and this time it was sassy drunk. "Away from you!" Taylor called back as she walked away and I quickly followed her. "Look Selena left with Niall. I am your ride home so let's not do this." I said as I walked after her trying to catch up while pushing past the crowd. "Or you will leave me alone and I will have to get a cab? It will be perfect for me." Taylor said as she walked faster.
I groaned, suddenly missing adorable Taylor from before. I grabbed her arm and pulled her toward the washroom hallway which was fairly quiet in comparison to the clubbing area. Taylor pulled her arm away from me harshly and I looked at her slight surprised. "Get the fuck away from me, Harry!" Taylor yelled at me and I was a little taken aback. I wasn't expecting this outcome. "Why are you getting so-"
"Bitchy? Yeah I was born that way."
"I was going to say mad at me." I cleared and she laughed a humourless laugh. "Why am I getting mad at you? What's there to not get mad at Harry?" Taylor asked as she flipped her hair to the side and I must say she looked so hot while doing it and I had to focus on our conversation and not how her lips moved. "You fucking ruined everything! Our relationship! My trust in you! Every fucking thing! And the worst part is.." Taylor's voice started cracking and I stepped forward to comfort her but she stopped me by raising her hand. "I can't even bring myself to hate you..I love you too much to do that. Yes I do hate what you did, unintentionally or intentionally doesn't matter but I can't bring myself to hate you and that makes me hate myself!" Taylor yelled now tears were rolling down her cheeks and I took a shaky breath it felt like someone ripped my chest open and was clenching my heart tightly. The pain I was feeling was exactly like that.
"Taylor..I am so so so sorry for what I did..I hate myself for doing that. I can't even live with myself..Every night when I lay alone or even close my eyes..your crying face comes in mind and I can't..live with that. Please forgive me. I wish I could undo what I did Taylor. I really wish." I said to her as I plead through my eyes. I sniffed softly trying to hold back my own tears seeing her cry was breaking me up. "That's the thing Harry..you can't undo." Taylor whispered and I stepped closer to her. "But I can make you forget about it. I can try..I want to make it up. Please forgive me Taylor. I can't live without you..you are my everything. I never told you this but you do mean everything to me. You always had. Please...Please give me another chance." I said and Taylor looked at me through her teary eyes as I grabbed her hands in mine. "I beg you..forgive me." I said as I placed my forehead against her while looking into her ocean blue eyes.
"I already have..forgave you." Taylor said and I felt like crying. I was waiting for this moment for so long and I couldn't even stop myself from what I did next. "Then forgive me for this too.." I said and Taylor looked confused for a moment but I didn't think twice as I smashed my lips onto her cherry red lips.
Forgive me.
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A/N- Hello you all! Hope you all enjoyed the chapter. It's after mid night and I am writing for you all. Lol. Guys FLF really is coming to an end. Wow. Anyways can't talk longer even tho I have so many things to tell. My eyes are closing from all the sleep.
What do you think about Jake's sad ending? Will he come back? Is he as nice as he seems? Haylor finally reunite. Finally. What do you will tay kiss back? She did forgave Harry but she didn't said anything about giving another chance lol..anyways what do you think think of the chapter in general?
QOTD-- fun fact about yourself. AOTD-- I don't like butterflies. I hate them. I am scared of them. I can't stand them.
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Shazz.