i sighed
we were sitting on the stairs
leading up to a long day
the snow was falling
quietly now
so i could hear his breathing
"i think i love you," i whispered
i looked over at him
he pulled a pack of cancer out of his pocket
"tell me when you know"
my heart stumbled
not realizing he had heard me
for he was often lost in his thoughts
i kept my mouth shut
quietly now, as he hummed Hoobastank
i did know
my heart was sinking
as the smoke swirled around us
that was his only cologne
i was about to say something
but the song that was always stuck in his head
blasted through his phone
anne
such a dull name for a dull person
looking at me, not so apologetic
he stood up and answered her call
i could hear the crunch of his shoes on the snow, he was retreating now
i looked up at the moon
and scoffed as it was looking at me
we both knew he hadn't given me a goodbye
"it's just you and me tonight"
i kept my head high
watching the stars twinkle
because i knew
if i looked back
it would be all my fears mixed into one
i'd see him walking away
never coming back