"Babe, get up"
"No"
"You have school"
"I wanna stay with you in this bed forever" i frowned
"No, babe your my smart girl.. Now be smart" Xander smiled "those beautiful green puppy eyes arent working today go be my smart baby girl"
"I wanna cuddle all day" i pleaded as i laid on top of him.
"River" Xander warned as his hand rested on my butt
"But your better than school"
"You gotta get that diploma if you want that wedding, we both cant be school drop outs"
"Alexander, yours suppose to love me no matter what" i frowned
"No, im not settling i have high standards my girl gotta be smart" Xander smirked
"Babe!" i laughed as i smack his chest
"Get your butt up"
"Fine" i smirked as i got up and got ready
"I'm taking you to school alright"
"Okay" i smiled
"Are you picking me up?" i asked
"Im not sure baby, i need to go to the bank one more time"
"Jesus christ"
"What?"
"Im starting to think you might have more money than me.." i laughed as i looked back to him
"Why?"
"You keep checking the bank.."
"Just getting some stuff ready"
"Ready?"
"I made a few big purchases"
"Ohh like what??"
"Just wait.."
"Buttttt"
"Stop being a brat .. Im not telling you" Xander smiled as he got dressed
"Fine"
"Come on or your gonna be late..."
"Okay im going.... Waittt one more cudddle"
"Oh my god you brat" Xander laughed as he cuddled me with the blanket he gave me, my favorite one ever
"Are you sure you dont want me home"
"No babe. Im not even going to be home"
"I can follow you everywhere and be a clingy girlfriend"
"Go learn"
"Fine" i groaned as we got up"
**
"Thats the last cuddle babe your 10 minutes late let's go"
"Okay"
"Why are you so clingy today" Xander laughed
"Because i love you"
"Yeah yeah.."
"I do"
"I know, i love you too baby girl"
"Good"
"Now go show Riverside,South Side Serpents have brain too"
"Always"
"They give brai.."
"You finish that sentence and i will slap the shit out of you Alexander!"
"I mean i love you baby have a good day at school" Xander laughed
"Yeah yeah.. I love you too see you later babe" i smirked
"I love you River"
........
"So i was thinking maybe have a movie night tonight?" Kevin asked
"That sounds good to me kev" i smiled
"What movies, because your taste is not my taste bro" Reggie asked
"Bro? Do i look like a meat head?" Kevin asked making me laugh
"Christmas movies?" i asked
Text**
Unknown: show me the angel of death.
From river; what? Why? No
"Unknow ; Josie hurt you..kill her
From riv: ill never kill anyone..
Unknown: tick tock tick tock..
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"Shit"
"What happened?" Reggie asked
"Nothing I'll be back, i quickly got up as i ran to my locker,
Opening it up i found a letter
Blue.
Xander
Nick
Reggie
Whos next?
No one can have you ill kill them all.
Plant this tracking device on Reggies car...'
I quickly ignored it as i threw it in the trashcan beside the lockers
Im so fucken done following orders
I had walked back to class as Kevin and Reggie saved me a seat
V and b sitting a few rows away from me
I had began my work when the song began playing
"Okay who has the radio on" the teacher asked
We all looked around to our phones, mine was off
My heart was racing as the song played, i felt tears as the man in the window was taunting me with the stupid song
"Found the device" the teacher annouce as she turned it off throwing it to rhe trash
"Now back to work"She added
"I had continued my work as i saw Juggy walk in with Sheriff Keller
"How can we help you Keller?" the teacher asked
"I need Reggie Mantle and River Lodge" he said as Juggy kept looking down
"What why?" V quickly got up
Me and Reggie were getting our belongings as we gave eachother a confusing look
"When was the last time you talked to Alexander Mitchell-Jones?"
"This morning, he gave me a ride to school" i asked a bit confused
"Last night, he made me promise to take River back to the pembroke today after school" Reggie added
"Oh my god" V looked at Juggy as he began tearing up
"Juggy? what happened?" i asked as i began tearing up "what are you not telling me?"
"There was a..call" Keller began as he looked down to me
"He made a call to Jughead.. Jughead called me.. We got there and.." Mr Keller began
"What!" i yelled " Spill it" i began to cry
"He.. Hes in the hospital, an attempted suicide.."
"Oh my god River" Betty covered her mouth as Keller handed both me and Reggie a letter
I quickly opened mine as Juggy held my hand
Both betty and V holding on to me as i read it
To my first love
If your reading this, he got to me
The mental health and the hurting ive been feeling was far to strong to be dealt with and i took the coward way out
I loved you more than what you could have ever imagined, and it pained me to know i let em get to you, i promised you i would always protect you from the first conversation we ever had, we were 5 and i knew you were what a happy home should be, as i write this i cant stop crying and i cant stop the hurting i feel to know i was to scared to protect you that night, ,those woods were far to scary for little 10 year old Xander
i knew what really happened to you and i knew you know that i knew and you still protected me and for that i love you River Rayn Jones
i liked you when i met you but that night... The night you came back to me covered in mud, blood and urine you looked at me to make sure i was the one alright.. And in that moment I realized i loved you
Im sorry i just stood there and heard your cries as it happened, till this day i will never blame you for the men you let in your life, its not your fault its his.
I love you forever im sorry always.
I love reggie and i pray to god he takes care of you, please dont push him or anyone away baby.
I will always love you, you will always be my first and last love. Thank you for being my home when i needed one the most. But im way to broken to be fix
Everything that ever belonged to me is now yours, every last penny is yours, youll be getting a few dileveries from me baby im so sorry.
Ps, 23-9-14-4-15-23
13-1-14__9-19
2-1-3-11
I love you River Rayn J.Lodge,
Until we meet again baby
-Xander💔
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Reggies pov
His letter
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Reggie
I prayed for a friend like you, im glad you came into river's life because of her i found a friend as well,
Ive told you the secrets i promise i wouldnt tell, ive opened up and shut down right before your eyes and you still stood beside me and River
Ive told you the hurt ive felt
Ive told you about the broken home ive had and ive told you about the lost Love of mine
I can never hate you for taking away something that was never mine something i didnt deserve
The only thing i can do is love you for loving her with out judgement, loving her and all her hurt and flaws
I want to thank you for making her forget that night when we were 9 the love and happiness blurred out that tragic night so thank you
Sadly the truth will always make its way back.
thank you for healing River, she deserves all the happiness in the world and only you can provide that
These memories tearing me apart, the pills were the only numbing solution i had
Pills and drugs were my outlet to forget the pain in her voice crying out
I will never forgive myself for the cowardness
Promise me you'll take care of her better than i ever could
Promise me this week you will not leave her alone, do not let her out of your sight..
Dont let her push you away
She needs you now more than ever Reggie , dont let her do anything stupid
Fight the fight and show everyone you a privilege northsider loves is capable of loving that southside serpent, dont give up
The two cross lovers..
Win her back and take care of her, fight for her, its you and her against the world against Dolly
Ps dont ever let her read this.
_Xander
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"You said attempted so that means hes okay?" i asked as River looked hopeful
"He lost alot of blood" Keller added
"What does that mean? Can he get a blood transfusion" River asked
"We can't find any family of his, i need to know what he ment by that letter" Keller asked
"What?"
"What happened to you? What did he mean what 'he did'.." keller asked "sweetie did something happened to you?"
"What? No im not talking about this .. I can't i cant be here i need to see him" River began to cry
"Lets go" Juggy held her as he led her out
"Come on" i quickly looked down to betty and ronnie"
***cry with me and hear hold on by chord Overstreet****
Rivers pov
"Where is he?" i asked
"Where is he?" i began to cry as a nurse came to me
"Alexander Mitchell?" Jughead asked
"He's still in surgery, the cuts were deep"
"Oh my god" i began to cry as i sat on the floor
"Juggy why..why would he, he promised me"
"Mija" Hiram ran to me along with Mrs H and Ronnie
"Why why why" i cried harder into Hirams chest as he held me
"I dont know" Hiram answered
"Did they say anything?" Mrs H asked
I couldnt even breath let alone talk as i sobbed Reggie and Archie soon walked in with Betty
"No, just his cuts were deep" Juggy answered
"Why..but whyyyy! I didn't blame him" i began to cry "he's my best friend"
"I would never have blamed him" i sobbed as as Hiram held me
"Mija blamed him for what"
"I need him, i cant picture my life with out him, hes my best friend" i sobbed "i need my best friend"
"I need him, why? why? i just want to see him"
Ronnie and Betty were tearing up as well as they looked over to me
"It hurts, to know hes hurt"
"I know mija, i know your hurting"
"I can't, if he doesnt make it i dont know what I'll do" i began to cry "i cant loose him too"
"Dont say that Riv" Cheryl quickly ran to me as she hugged me
"I came as soon as i heard" Cheryl teared up as she hugged me tightly
"Why would he do this to himself?" i teared up as i hugged her
"You said it yourself, Xander sometimes wasnt himself babe"
"Wasnt i making him happy? Was i not good enough?"
"Dont think like that"
"How else am i suppose to think?" i cried as Cherly held me
"Cheryl i need him right now, i need him he's my best friend"
I had seen a doctor and nurse walking out a room as they looked defeated
"Im so sorry, there was nothing we can do"
"No no no" i replied as i looked at Jughead "no please tell me this is a sick nightmare"
"I'm so sorry"
"No he cant leave me, he promised me"
"He, thinned out his blood with alot of pills before cutting his wrist open" the nurse added
"No, i need to see him"
"We cant.. Do." the nurse began
"Move, i need to see him" i began crying
"I said move" i yelled as i pushed passed them
"River dont"Jughead warned
"I need to see him Jughead, we're family"
"Not alone" Cheryl added as she held my hand
"Only for a few minutes" the nurse reassured me as she opened the door for me
The room was dark and cold as me and Cheryl walked in
"Are you sure?" Cheryl asked
"Yeah" i replied as she moved the curtain open
Xanders naked pale body laying on the bed a hospital blanket over his mid section
"Please wake up" i whispered as i held his hand
"Please please wake up please Alex wake up"
"River, he cant hear you.." Cheryl teared up
"No, he promised me he'd never leave me.. He promised me" i sobbed as i began shaking his body
"PLEASE COME BACK TO ME, I SWEAR ILL LOVE YOU ALL MY LIFE, YOU ARE MY LIFE PLEASE" i yelled
"HE PROMISED ME CHERYL, PLEASE WAKE HIM UP"
"PLEASE I STILL NEED YOU JUST WAKE UP YOU'RE MY BEST FRIEND"
"Rivs"
"No, hes gonna wake up"
"River" Cheryl held on to me
"No he is going to wake up" i sobbed as i hugged his body "i cant loose him too, he need to wake up"
"Please dont leave me please wake up i love you, i still need you Alex"
"River hes.."
"I dont blame you, i never blamed you we were 9" i cried as i hugged him tighter "wake up please wake up!"
"I love you, why couldn't you hold on youre my best friend"
"WAKE UP !"
"PLEASE ALEX WAKE UP"
"ALEX I NEED YOU PLEASE WAKE UP PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME I LOVE YOU" i yelled as i sobbed
"My chest hurts" i began to sob "my chest hurts, why does it hurt?"
"Rivs" Cheryl frowned as i lost it, dropping my self to the ground Hiram quickly ran in
"IT HURTS"
"I know mija"
"WHY DOES IT HURT?"
"MY CHEST HURTS, IT HURTS"
"I WANT HIM BACK"
"IT HURTS"
"i know mija i know your hurting" Hiram cried as he held me
"IT HURTS SO BAD'
"IT HURTS"
"WHY DOES IT HURT"
"River.. I dont think you should be in here" Reggie was tearing up as they all walked in
"Im not leaving him"
"River hes gone" Mrs H replied
"Hes going to wake up! He promise he would never leave me" i cried as i looked at the group
"Hes not going to wake up"
"Im not leaving him, hes coming back!"
"Please Rivs, lets go home" Ronnie added
"I am home' i frowned as i held Alex's hand "hes going to wake up, its fine"
"River please" Ronnie added as she teared up
"Im so sorry Mija" Hiram warned before he picked me up and over his shoulder
"NO NO PUT ME DOWN I WANT TO STAY WITH ME, I JUST WANT TO BE WITH HIM"
"NO, I WANT TO GO HOME, LET ME BE HERE WITH HIM"
"HES GOING TO WAKE UP PLEASE WAKE UP"
"You cant stay here ,Mija" Mrs H frowned
"STOP STOP I DONT WANT TO LEAVE HIM PLEASE"
"PLEASE HES GOING TO WAKE UP, HE PROMISED ME ..HE FUCKEN PROMISED ME" i began to kick Hiram
"I LOVE HIM, WAS THAT NOT GOOD ENOUGH, WAS I NOT GOOD ENOUGH YOUR MY BEST FRIEND I CANT LOOSE THE BOTH OF YOU, ITS NOT FAIR"
"HE FUCKEN PROMISED ME, HE SAID FOREVER!" i sobbed as Hiram finally reached the car Mrs H opening the door for us
"Rivs, it wasnt you" Ronnie cried as the sat me in the back, Reggie beside me
"But he promised me he'll never leave me again" i just kept crying as i laid my head on Ronnie
"Why does everyone i love just die or leave me"
"Dont say that.." Reggie added as we drove back home
"I just want to be home, i want to go home"
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Honestly this chapter made me ugly cry..
Did anyone else cry?
Or am i just super sensative right now?
Im so sorry for all the Xander and River Shippers
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