-the following morning-
i woke up in one of the worst moods ever. Not just because me and Zion are not speaking, because i woke up with my pillow soaking wet from either me crying so much or drewling all over it... anyway i have to face Zion today. Not excited at all.
i eventually drag myself out of bed and grab my clothes im wearing for the day. ive chose to wear my clack high waisted jeans and a grey adidas top with my white shell toes. i go downstairs and find my mum sleeping on the sofa. i go get my blanket and place it over her as i know she needs to get a rest from these sleepless nights shes been having. i make myself a quick coffee and drink it.
i look in the mirror and dont even bother to put makeup on. i straighten my hair and leave it down.
"looks like im ready to have a fun day at school... wooo" i say to myself sarcasticly in the mirror.
i tip toe down the stairs trying not to wake my mum up and i go out the door and lock it behind me. i get into my car and i drive off. The song 'Young Dumb And Broke' plays and i just relate to this song so much.
i get into the gates and find a car space.
great the only space in the car park and the band seems to be standing next to it. i park up and i see Zion. this makes me miss him so much. he looks at me and i try and give him a little smile. he turns around and starts talking to Edwin. hes never done that before.
i see Loren and she comes up to me and i just start to cry and cry. i tell her everything that happened last night.
ZIONS POV
i see Maddisons car pull into the space next to us and i look over as she looks over. i turn around quickly before she can smile at me. she gets out her car and we make eye contact again this time she tries to give me a little sile but i just turn around and act like im talking to the boys. i feel so bad but i just cant let her get hurt.
"you took our advise about not talking to her?" Nick asks.
"ye, it hurts like fuck man" i say looking at my foot as i kick a stone.
"we are here for you bro. just looks around theres loads of fit birds round here" Austin says as he smiles at a girl and she just gives him dirty looks.
"maybe but there not Maddy" i sigh
Edwin pats me on the back and it goes quiet.
"i think we should walk to our class" Brandon says to break the silence.
i walk in and see Maddy with her head on the desk. she looks up and rolls her eyes and puts her head back down onto the desk.
i sigh.
i go to my seat and sit down. this is awkward.
Brandon looks at me and at Maddy and at me again. he shakes his head.
the class dragged out. and i didnt speak or look at Maddy once and she did the same with me. we left eachother alone. i really miss her. sitting next to her doesnt help.
-bell rings-
i need to talk to her.
i see her and i run up to her "Maddy"
oh god this is like the first time i asked her to get coffee with me.
she stopped, turned around, rolled her eyes and carried on walking "what do you want now? thought we wasnt allowed to speak." she says as she sighs.
"i cant do this. i miss you!"
i stop her and make her look at me and we are just stood in the middle of a lonely corrior just me and her.
"you should of thought about that last night Zion! i was in pieces all night over you!" she looks away.
i lift her chn back up so she can make eye contact with me. "please just forgive me, i made a massive mistake!" i say.
"im s..sorry, i cant" a tear rolls down her face and she wipes it away and walks away from me.
im stood here alone in the lonely corridor, just me...alone.
MADDISONS POV
i wipe away the tears that Zion created. i walk into the toilets and luckly no one was in there.
i look at myself and think why?
why am i with Geo?
he stops me from being friends with who ever i want
he doesnt like what i wear
i always have to be with him
he hurts me
he hits me
leaves scars on me...
im done with everything!
i get my sharpener out my bag and i throw it to the floor still balling my eyes out. i stamd on it to try and crack it so i can get the blade out.
it finally cracks
i get the blase and i take my jacket off
i get the blade and hold it up to my skin.
Loren walks in. "OMG MADDY WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" she shouts.
i drop to the floor crying. only just realising what im doing, im trying to hurt myself becaus im already hurt so much she grabs the blade and throws it in the toilet and flushes it.
"omg whats happened Maddy? this is never the way to solve things. whatever it is! im here for you and so is other people just speak to us!!"
i just grab Loren and i hug her still crying and crying and crying.
i let go of her and stop crying.
i can finally get words out my mouth. "im so so so sorry Loren, im sorry you had to see it and im sorry that im trying to harm myself"
"if anything im glad i walked in when i did! i dont wnna see it but at least i stopped you! your my bestfriend why dont you just talk to me" she says to me while holding my hands.
"i feel like ive ony got you Loren."
"you dont need anyone else...come on im great" she tries joking to make me laugh. it works i laugh a bit.
"im glad your my bestfriend Loren" i say and pull her in for another hug.
i walk out the toilets and Zion was waiting outside.
"whats happening?" i ask as Loren and Zion are staring at me.
"Zion wantedme to tell you that hes really sorry. he told me you walked into here crying and he told me he wants you to know that he is very sorry and that he misses you" Loren says to me and she drags Zion closer to me.
"its true Maddy"
Loren walks away.
"well if you change your mind so easily why did you say it, you knew it would of been hard for us both" i said while looking into his eyes.
"yes, i did know it would be hard but i didnt think it would be this difficult. i look at you and i can just see my future with you. not anyone else. I dont care about Juwayway or what ever his name is"
I laugh a bit and he starts to smile
"I just care about you! he wont hurt you because I wont let him. to be honest Maddy I think I'm in love with you." he says while grabbing my hands.
I get closer to him and get on my tip toes and start to kiss him. our lips connected and it was the best feeling. I feel some kind of strong way with Zion that I don't and never have felt with anyone else.
what does this mean?
thank you for reading!! this chapter is pretty deep but it worked out okay at the end!!