The heart of an 'ex' lover!

By Melvenah

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I hope that one day when you eventually see this, you find in it all that you will ever be needing! the truth... More

author's words!
....sorry!
sorry to you too
to you!
To the one who loved me!
remember!
The planter!
risk!
his words!
ex!
wolvx!
fun!
for the dead!
please!
when
the truth!
space!
stranger things!
I dare you!

my Y!!!

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By Melvenah

Show me a love I can work with and I'll share with you, a story that broke me.

Show me a love that lasts and I'll show you a heart that has been hurt.

Show me a love that isn't shallow and I'll show you a body that has been abused!

Show me a love that is patient, one that remains and I'll show you a heart that has lost!

For love to be, you need a broken hearted person (you) and a lover (me)....you told me I could fix you, that I was exactly what you needed, that was what you always said, so why did you leave?

I know I will find love,
My own love,
A genuine love with no shades or filters,
And when he comes I hope he reads these words,these very ones I want to share but very afraid to say!

We all crave love,
We yearn to love and be loved,(never stop loving me)
We all seek attention,
We want to be appreciated,
We all want something to believe in,
We hope for the best!
But if we all live to love and rise to fall,
My hope was that you weren't loving to leave me but then you left me!

"We know that I'm hard to please and uneasy to love but I beg that you never leave because I don't want to never want to know any form of heart break ever again!"..... I can't believe how much I fell for those words,I fell with no prior knowledge of how easy they always came to you and every time you said them my heart gave in to your lies, little did I know you've always had the intentions to leave first!

You miss Me!
Hell no boy.......you don't get to do that, not after I've gotten over you.....you are with her and you're calling now that you learnt I'm in a new relationship to know how much grip and hold you still have on me......lol .....baby amma act dumb till you get tired of trying.....
I gave you my all but I realised I wasn't the girl you'll take home!

You want to be friends now
You miss my sense of humor
You want me bad
You miss me "because I'm the only one that gets you so well"
You still check with your friends that are my friends to keep up with me
You are tired of running from me
You want us to just be friends
Oh now there is no one like me on earth!

Lol.....but you left!
That one on its own is a sin that can't be forgiven!
Now you want to friends....what punishment should I give you for all the times you acted like I was invisible to you!
You plead guilty and beg for forgiveness now but what I want to know is why?

Why exactly are you sorry?
Was it
For leaving me?
For running from me?
For leaving me to hurt,
Letting me cry myself to sleep the nights after you left?
For occupying my mind and drilling into my thoughts?
I don't get, was it for all the times I spent trying to look good for you or appear proper in front of your friends?

Or is the sorry for now,
for you now trying to interrupt with my growth and peace?

You plead for forgiveness now, but honey that can't be gifted,it has to be earned, I have to see for myself that you really are sorry!
With all the healing going on in my life please leave me be because hon I've gotten over all the feelings I had for you!

You want to be friends ,
Fine!
But this time it won't come that easy.....you have to prove your worth because for a while now you've been dead to me!

Your killer Smouldering pose had me then, bending my will to please all your needs!
I was a slave to your words and because I was stuck in love with you,
You sucked the glory from my grace,
You fed off of my holiness,
You lived off my love,
And even after you left,
You still held me to work,
All because you fed my naive mind to thinking that your love for me was real love.

I was once a lover of the sun
And when you came I was determined to love you till my heart ached and my soul caught fire for you, I was willing to go all day and night for you but you played yourself, so please with all unraveling respect baby,
Leave me to be in peace,
Let me grow perfectly with the love that has found me,
I didn't go through all that struggle just to let some fake love knock me out on plain sights Again!

I'll love this love graciously and genuinely,
I'll love my baebie kindly,
I'll treat this one right,
I will treat him like a king, like my own king👑!
Because he is mine,
And
I'll remain lust in love for him,
I'll treat him fine baby because he deserves all that goodness😏😏😏 and more!

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