- Kai
"We're is she going?"
I asked myself as I saw Park Chaeyoung walking on the streets.
What's making me more confused...
She's not wearing any coat or jacket.
She's wearing longsleeves but it's winter...
she should be wearing thick clothes, warmers and scarf.
She's just walking along the sidewalk.
Passing through the trees and alone at the street.
No one's there just her and me, here behind the tree.
I've been stalking her since I got here, I'm still looking for Chanyeol who's still missing.
I don't want to believe he's dead.
His body wasn't found yet, so, I don't want to declare that he is dead already.
There's the possibility that he's here in Korea, lookimg for Chaeyoung or probably...
Just looking before Chaeyoung.
I actually dom't mean to blame Chaeyoung for Chanyeol's missing issue...for everything that happened.
I know why Chaeyoung rejected him, she thought of him as a brother already since we are all together since childhood. We are all friends back for so many years.
I understand why Chaeyoung can't love him the way Chanyeol loves her.
What I'm mad for is that...
She never lend him a chance.
She will just refuse and then will walk away after those efforts Chanyeol will exert to confess to her.
I am all by Chanyeol's side those times and days...
For some sides, he's just keeping himself and won't bother Chaeyoung...
But then he can't stand not telling it.
He will still continue trying to court her after days.
Chanyeol must have been tired after the efforts he exerted for her...
But he never gave up until Chaeyoung told him that she's going back to Korea amd walked away.
She didn't even bid a proper good bye.
That same night, when I am consoling Chanyeol...
While he's crying everything out, he told me a single promise...
The promise that he will find Chaeyoung and will make her his future with her.
That's it...
That's the last hope I'm holding unto, that he will find Chaeyoung one day and will go to the future with her. That's why I'n keeping on defending that he's alive, because of that promise.
Yet...
I felt devastated for Chanyeol as I knew that Jimin from the famous BTS KPo group is Chaeyoung's boyfriend already. I felt so bad that time I am fighting with Chaeyoung at the café. I am mad, frustrtaed that's why I yelled at her several times that night.
I felt guilty after...
But...rememberinh that Chanyeol went broken down after she rejected him and left him...
The guilt inside me faded.
I'm one of Chaeyoubg's close friends...
And I can tell she's nice, kind, considerate, sweet, charming and all. That's Chanyeol fell for her. Even some guys, many guys on our school fell for her back when we are at Australia.
She's quiet and timid yet she still have that natural charm on her that she can't keep inside. It's naturally coming out suddenly.
Everyone will uwu as she will show that natural cuteness overload she's containing inside.
That's one of the reason why Chanyeol fell for her...
But she never did the same for Chanyeol...
She never did.
Now...
Everything is messed up.
Everything is fuckingly messed up.
Chanyeol is missinhg for years already...
I don't kmow where to find him.
I don't have the slightest clue where that martyr is.
I sighed...
While watching Chaeyoung walk away...away...away slowly.
She's alone.
Something must have happen inaide their dorm.
She looks like she's sobbing, crying.
She's wiping her face.
"If you could just let Chanyeol be your man...
You wouldn't feel this things now.
If the histroy from the past didn't happened that way...
Then the story line here in the present wouldn't be this way."
- Rosé
I am now walking alone at the street away to the dorm.
The cold haven't been cold as I felt the coldest weather inside my heart.
The cold inside e is colder than this wonter weather.
It's much worst than the fridge.
"Am I cursed?"
I halted from my tracks as the snow began to fall...
Why does the sky need to pour down snows now?
Now that I feel like this?
Inlooked up the sky...
The cloudy sky...
Yet the mood is visible.
I looked at the moodm
Let out a gasp and saw the smooe coming from my mouth.
It is too cold that my breath is turning out as a smoke.
I looked at the smoke my nose and mouth are letting out.
I shrugged my shoulders and hugged myself.
I am wearing nothing but pants, shoes and a longsleeves top. But these things are not yet fine, for this cold weather, I need some warmer clothes, some thick clothes.
But...
My heart much needed a warmer person.
I need someone to warm my inside...
Not my physical body.
"Chanyeol...
Lisa...
Jungkook...
Jimin...
Kai...
Jennie eonnie...
Jisoo eonnie...
And the rest of the Bangtan...
I'm a burden to them.
Maybe not directly but...I'm causing trouble with their lives.
I'm a mess.
I'm a curse, ain't I?"
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A: ANNOUNCMENT!
After this book for JIROSE, we will be havinga sequel book which is for LISKOOK.
Just announcing.
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