~Eleanor~
Theodore smiles and I growl. "Don't get any ideas, I'm staying for my wounds, not for you," I sneer and his smile falls.
"Theodore why don't you go get some food for Eleanor? I'm sure she's hungry," He stares at me for a moment before nodding his head and turning around, once the door closes Lillian turns towards me.
"You could be a bit nicer, it is his pack you are staying in," I roll my eyes and she sighs. "Look, I know your emotions are turned of. . at least most of them. . but try, okay? He has serious anger issues, even if he won't admit it, and things can get bad if they get out of control, so just don't be completely stubborn, okay?" I roll my eyes again but nod. I don't know how bad it gets for him, but I know it scares packs when their Alpha is really ticked off.
"Scottie? What's wrong with daddy?" I question my brother and he looks down at my five year old self's small form. "He's just upset Eleanor."
"Don't talk to be like that again Jake!" I hear my father growl loudly, yelling at our Delta who had simply asked where our Luna was. . speaking of which. .
"Scottie?" I question, looking up at my brother, "Hm?"
"Where's mommy?" I question and I see his breath hitch in his throat.
"She's. . out. . " He trails off. "Doing what?" He looks at me sadly. "We're not sure Eleanor, and we're not sure when mom is going to be back either, okay?" I nod my head and look down, even as a five year old, I knew something was wrong, and I knew our mother was not just out to the store, I didn't know exactly where she was, but I knew it wasn't good.
"Okay Scott. . " I Trail off and Scott's head quickly turns down to look at me, pain in his eyes.
"No no no, Eleanor, mom is going to be fine, I promise," He says, giving me a weak smile and hugging me close, turning so that I am facing the wall and he is looking out towards the open, where the sounds of my father's screams are heard, along with a few crashes, and the sounds of worried, fearful, and sad pack members talking about what we are to do about our Alpha, my dad, who seems to be very angry, very upset.
"Eleanor?" I hear Lillian question and snap out of my thoughts to look at her, seeing her worried filled eyes.
"Are you okay?" I nod my head and turn away, feeling a single tear make its trail down my cheek. It's okay to be sad, Eleanor. I hear Ashley say in my head, her voice filled with pain. No, it's not, all sadness gets you is a weakness and pain. I growl to her and she sighs before leaving.
"I want to go for a run," I say as I quickly stand up, pulling the wires off me, causing the beeping machine to turn into an endless loud noise as I ignore the pain in my ankle begging me to sit back down.
"Eleanor I'm not sure that is such a good idea. ."
"I'll heal faster in wolf form, is all the wolfs bane out of my system?" I question, I've only shifted that one time, that was the first in thirteen years.
"Um, I believe so, you shifted earlier that's for sure, but that might have been because of you determination, sometimes that can out rule wolfsbane and sliver all together.
"If it is can I go for a run??" I question. "Um. . So long you promise not to run, Theodore will kill me if I'm the one that lets you go." I like Lillian, I wouldn't want Nightly mad at her. Someone feeling a bit of emotion? I hear Ashley say hopefully and I growl. No, I just don't want her getting hurt. I growl and Ashley smirks. That happens to be emotion, Eleanor. I growl and block her out, hearing her hum quietly.
"I won't run off Lillian, bye!" I say excitedly before turning on my heel and going to the door, I close it behind me and quickly turn right, as I begin to step forwards quickly, I run into something hard, a wall? No, walls don't have arms that wrap around your waist as you fall backwards.
I slowly look up to make eye contact with Nightly, already knowing that my eyes would lock with his deep blue ones as the tingly feeling like lighting spreads through my body from where is arm is wrapped firmly around my waist. I ignore the sound of a plate crashing to the ground and push off of him.
He tightens his grip and panic floods through my body as I shove at him harder.
"Let go of me!" I yell at him as I struggle against his grip. My wolf sighs in content but all I do is let out a pained whine.
I feel someone grab me from behind, their arms wrapping tightly around my waist. "Well look who it is, the stupid little runt." I try to push forwards against their grip but they only tighten it. A small whine escapes my lips and they chuckle against my neck, causing my to shiver in disgust.
I go limp against Nightly's hold. "Please let me go," I say, my voice small with fear. Nightly looks down at me in shock, his arm springing away from me, causing me to fall, hitting the ground with a small thump that sends pain cursing through my body.
I begin to breath in and out slowly, trying to calm my heart rate down.
I have to forget about them, those memories.
I slowly stand up and push pass Nightly, and heading for the exit door.
Once I push the doors open and my bare feet hit the ground I begin sprinting, picking up speed, though I don't go extraordinarily fast, I go fast enough, once I near the tree line I jump, trying to shift but end up simply landing on the ground, pain jolting through my body.
Dang it.
I stay still and picture my white and tan wolf, I feel my bones begin to break and shift into different places and feel only slight pain. Once all pain leaves my body I open my eyes from having closed them in pain, and am much lower to the ground. My wolf is not large, in fact, it is only a little bit bigger than a pup's. I look around, my eyesight sharp and keen, I watch the leaves sway in the wind and listen to them rusting against each other.
I close my eyes and lift my head, enjoying the breeze running through my fur. I let out a sigh before I look forwards and begin moving again towards the treeline. I pick up my pace a bit so I am going slightly faster than walking.
As I runt, I get exhausted much quicker, when i was younger there were multiple times that I would collapse or even pass out from exhaustion, Scott always got angry with me when I did that, saying that I should have stopped. . but I just loved to push myself.
My body is filled with exhaustion but I continue running, pushing myself to go longer, to be able to run with my family would be amazing. I begin to slow down and push myself to keep going, I have to keep going.
Suddenly my body falls to the ground, sliding a bit before coming to a stop, I let out a pained whine and Scott stops in his tracks turning around to look at my limp body.
Shoot. His voice enters my head. Scottie shifts into human form and I close my eyes, not wanting to see anything that I haven't before. "It's okay Eleanor, I'm clothed," He says a moment later and I slowly open my eyes to look at his scowling face. "Why didn't you stop!?" He snarls at me and I cower back. Turn around. I send through the link and he sighs before turning. I shift back and quickly pull on a long shirt that comes to my knees.
"Okay," I say quietly and he quickly turns around. "Stop doing that Eleanor! You're going to hurt yourself!" He snarls at me and I whimper, but this time his features don't soften like they normally do. "I'm tired of you doing this! One day you're going yo collapse from exhaustion and not wake up Eleanor! You need to stop freaking pushing yourself beyond your limits!" He growls as he runs a hand through his hair.
"You don't know what it's like Scott! Look I know you'll be Alpha when we get older but dad said I might end up being Beta! Do you know how humiliating it will be to not be able to run with the pack for more that five minutes!? Or to not even be able to keep up!? You're not the Daughter of an Alpha! You're not a runt! Okay!?" I scream at him, my heart rate picking up pace, causing my breathing to come out rigid.
"Stop yelling!"
"I will when you do!" I snarl at him and he sighs.
"Eleanor, you're six, you shouldn't be worrying about these types of things."
"Scott you of all people should know that wolves with Alpha blood mature ten times faster than ones without!" I growl, it was true, wolves with Alpha blood have to be more mature, we learn things sooner and see things sooner, we learn how to fight sooner and see dead wolves and more sooner than others. Even at age six I know more than others my age.
He sighs, "come on Eleanor, lets go back to the pack house, shift back and I'll carry you," I nod as a tear cascades down my cheek and shift, crawling backwards out of the shirt I was wearing and tying it around my ankle with my teeth and foot.
Scott picks me up and begins walking us back to the pack house.
I sigh as I continue my journey forward, my paws hit the tall grass of the forest and I look up at the trees swaying in the wind. I love forests, the breeze flowing through the leaves and the smell of the trees and grass and dirt. It's what I loved when I was little and what I loved now.
~Theodore~
I watch my little mate in shock as she pushes pass me and heads towards the exit. She sounded so pained, what has my little mate been through, what has she experienced?
And who the heck let her leave her room??
I walk into the room my little mate was in and see Lillian sitting on the bed, looking down at her hands that are clasped together.
"Did you let Eleanor leave!?" I question her as I walk in, closing the door behind me.
"Yes Theodore," She says in a soft voice that holds pain.
"Lillian? What's wrong?"
"She's. . been through a lot Theodore," She sighs.
"When. . when a wolf cuts off emotion, they don't feel anything at all except anger and related things. . Eleanor, however, she still feels fear, Theodore," She looks up to make eye contact with me.
"I went through a few books while she was in here unconscious. . There are only two other registered cases in the werewolf world, and they all went through years of abuse and-"
"And Eleanor went through years of it," I state, not sure where Lillian is going with this.
"Thirteen years, to be more specific, but the other cases. . they had both gone through abuse, torture, starvation, dehydration, depression, and more," She states and the breath catches in my throat.
"Lillian. . Did they get them back?" I question and she looks down again.
"They got one of them back. . the other one is still emotionless to this day. . But Theodore. . The case was emotionless for seven years." She states and I freeze. I can't lose my mate for seven years, I can barely handle losing her for a few days.
I know it's been a bit!
Sorry!
But I hope you guys enjoyed!
So my throat is killing me today.
Sunday May 13th by the way, seven O'clock basically.
And tomorrow I have to get an awards thingy for A B Honor roll and Imma feel like crap.
I don't have to talk or anything but still, I feel sick and it sucks.
Anyways sorry for the long A/N.
I have pretty much four days of school left!
I hate semester tests though.
When do you guys get out?
Anyways!
Bye my luvs!
Word Count
2142! (At least it's pretty long since it took me a while!)
Don't judge someone so quickly, you don't know what they have been through.
~Unknown