monday, august 13th
song: ride or die by the knocks (ft. foster the people)
it was two weeks before the start of junior year and i wasn't even close to ready. my parents were going to my sisters college move in day today so it was just me and our two dogs. i said my goodbyes to my parents and they left with caroline to college. i sat on my couch with a huff. four days alone. i had no clue what to do so, i pulled my phone out and texted vivianna.
me- wanna hang out today?
vivi- sure be there in fifteen
me- sounds good
as i waited for vivi i looked on snapchat. i looked at ethan's story and saw him and amber together. i rolled my eyes. i looked at ambers story, which came next, and saw her and ethan together. she filmed her kissing him. i scoffed. i never really liked amber, like at all. she was the mean girl and didn't deserve ethan at all. me and gray would discuss this stuff all the time. he had a caring, sweet personality and she just, well she's a bitch. to be blunt. i turned my phone off and turned on the tv. i flipped between a couple different channels, unable to decide which one i liked, till i heard my doorbell. i went to go grab it when vivi burst through.
"sike i would never knock on your door!" she said laughing. i smiled and rolled my eyes.
"come in i guess." i said. she followed me to the kitchen as we grabbed random snacks. we stood at my island, eating, till she spoke.
"there's a party tonight at peters, wanna check it out?" she said.
"i don't know" i said shrugging, "party's aren't my thing." i said closing the chip bag.
"come on syd, live a little. it's junior year and you need to get out there. especially if you wanna get with wes." she wiggled her eyebrows at me.
i sighed and looked at v, "fine." i said.
"fuck yes! thank you syd!" she said jumping up and down. i smiled at her goofyness. "it's at eight so we have three hours to get ready." she said walking upstairs. i followed unsure of what tonight would bring.
after we got our outfits picked out we started to get ready. vivi fixed my hair and i finished my makeup. we got dressed and were all ready to go.
"ooh look how hot you are!" she said as i walked down the stairs. i wasn't too fancy, nor was she. i just had shorts and a crop top on.
"stop omg let's just go." i said laughing. she giggled and followed me out the door to the car. as i drive to the house, she messed with my radio.
"you have no good channels, where'd your aux go?" she asked me.
"here." i said grabbing the cord and handing it to her. "i can't find the house where the party is." i confessed. she grabbed my phone and pulled up maps.
"take a left and park along the street." i followed her directions and parked. i looked up at the house and saw the party and a bunch of drunk kids in the yard, puking. classy. i got out and walked with vivi to the house.
"it doesn't look so appealing." i said to viv causing her to laugh.
"you'll be fine after i get you a drink." she said pulling me into the house. we dodged all the sweaty body's and sexually active teens till we got to the kitchen. she poured me a cup of i don't know what and i took a sip. the liquid burned my throat and i coughed.
"what the hell?" i squinted my eyes as vivi laughed.
"just keep drinking." she said tipping my cup towards my mouth. i took another sip, this time it didn't burn as much.
we carried on throughout the house, dancing and making small talk with our friends, who we hadn't seen in a while. we had made our way to the living room and sat on the couch. i slumped into the comfy sofa and relaxed. i was about to fall asleep till i felt a presence in front of me and i looked up to see the twins and sawyer.
"hey y'all." i slurred. gray laughed and took the seat next to me.
"someone's drunk." he commented. i glared at him and then laid my head in his lap.
"thank you." i hummed drunkly. he laughed and patted my head. wes came up and handed everyone a drink. he looked at me and gray and i sat up quickly, not wanting him to think anything. he smiled.
"hey syd, drunk already?" he took a seat next to me. i smiled and leaned my head on his shoulder.
"i really don't know, viv gave it to me." i pointed to her. she threw her hands up laughing.
"it's not my fault you can't take alcohol!" we all laughed. everyone talked about the new year and other things too. we were talking about football when amber came up and stood, hands on her hips, in front of us.
"ethyyyy." she said dragging the y out. "let's go dance!" she whined. he let out a huff and stood up. they walked to dance floor hand in hand. he never really wanted to dance and you could see it in his face now. we all laughed and remarked on this situation. i felt a hand rub my back and looked up at wes. he was staring at me, smiling.
"wanna go outside?" he asked me. i nodded and followed him out the sliding doors. he led me to the back of the yard which overlooked a small valley in the neighborhood. i sat on the rock next to him. "beautiful." he said.
"i know. the stars are amazing tonight." i agreed. he laughed. i look at him confused.
"not the stars, you." he cooly said. i blushed really hard and the butterflies in my stomach grew. "sorry i just can't hold back my feelings anymore. it may be the alcohol." we both laughed a bit. it got quiet again and i looked at him. he was already staring. he grabbed my face and pulled me into a kiss. we stayed like that till i pulled away.
"what does this mean?" i asked after a bit of cuddling. i felt him shrug.
"whatever you want. but before it becomes official, i'd like to take you on an actual date." i smiled so hard my cheeks hurt.
"okay, when?" i asked.
"now?" he asked. i looked at him in confusion and finally agreed.
he smiled and took my hand, dragging me into the house. i texted viv that i was leaving with wes and we got in my car. i let him drive since i was more drunk. we sat in silence listening to the calm alternative as he drove. i rolled my window down and let my hand feel the wind. i felt wes grab my other hand and hold in my lap. i smiled and leaned my head on the car door.
"we're here." he said stopping the car. i unlaced our fingers and took my seat belt off. we got out and i saw the bright "open" sign in front of me. i looked up to the roof of the restaurant and saw the sign "chick-fil-a". my stomach rumbled at the sign. wes grabbed my hand again and walked me inside. we ordered and he payed, much to my protests, and we took our seat. we spoke about the party till our food arrived.
"thank you." i said as i finished my food.
"my pleasure." we giggled. "gah i've been wanting to do this since the seventh grade." he blurted out. i looked at him confused.
"what?" i asked.
"i've literally liked you since ethan and grayson introduced us. i couldn't ever get the courage to ask you out though." he said getting out of the booth. i followed as i processed the new information. "don't worry about it though, it's happening now." he said taking me in a hug. i smiled into his shoulder. "i'm gonna take you home." he said quietly. i nodded and we walked to my car. we drove in silence, hands holding onto each other, as i processed the past two hours. we arrived at my house and wes got out and helped me out of my seat.
"how are you going to get home?" i mumbled.
"the boys are leaving now, they'll come get me. don't worry about me, just go in and get some rest." he said. i nodded and turned to walk away when he grabbed my wrist lightly. he spun me around and into his arms. we looked at each other for awhile, admiring the others features, till he kissed me lightly but passionately. we stayed like this till we felt lights on us. we pulled away to see the boys in their car cheering us on. i blushed really hard and wes laughed pulling me in his arms to cover me from them. i looked at them and saw ethan in the passenger seat. glaring? i don't know but he wasn't too happy.
"i'll see you later okay?" wes said to me. i nodded and smiled at him.
"see you." he kissed my forehead and hugged me once more till he let me go. i walked to my front door and walked in, feeling the cold air hit me. i leaned against the door, biting my lip while i processed tonight. the butterflies were going insane in my stomach.