*cry of a baby*
I quickly rubbed my eyes and hurried to the bedroom. Poor Nathan must be having a nightmare
*sings a lullaby*
"Goodnight baby Nathan" I whispered kissing the baby goodnight, I took a deep breath and tried to relax my muscles. Its already late, how come Ethan is not here yet?
He couldn't be that busy right? Its already 1:45 am.. Yet.. His still not here. I looked at the table where I prepared our dinner I was about to blow out the candles when I heard the door knob twist.
*bang*
Drunk.. Completely drunk.
"Honey, where have you been? Its already morning" I calmly said while removing his jacket since it was cold outside and the winter gets colder at this hours.
"It's nwane of your businez woman, get ahway from meb" He answered and stood up
*sigh*
Keep it together Nathalie.. Just this once and I'll never do it again in the future
"Hey Ethan what are you doing? You should get some rest, I know your tired" I asked while staring at him who was rummaging his files, it took a moment of silence before he began to speak a word
"I want to divorce you" he seriously said with no emotions written on his face nor his tone of voice.
Divorce? But... Its our 2nd anniversary Ethan.. Wait no, its already morning. Yesterday was our anniversary yet he never came.
Does he even love me?
Who am I kidding he is trying to divorce me..
"Ethan your drunk, go to bed" I said avoiding the topic, I don't want to divorce him.. I don't want Nathan to have no father, I don't want to be a mother without a husband..
I tried to go near him but he stood up and stared at me
"I don't care about you Nathalie so please stop telling me what to do! Your a complete whore that's why we have a b-" He yelled
*baby cries*
"Ethan!" I yelled back at him in anger and rushed to the baby. I patted the baby back to sleep and gladly Nathan slept easier, I then walk outed of the bedroom to see Ethan wearing back his jacket.
"Ethan.." I called him out in a tone where he can hear me yet not too loud to wake up the baby.
"Get a life Nathalie, I'm going out with Cassy" he said and slammed the door.
Going out? At this time???! Is he crazy?? Call me stupid but I love my husband, there's no way I'm letting him go around the streets in that situation! And there's no way I'm letting him meet another girl! I am his legal wife!
I followed and ran to catch up to him, gladly I did... I hugged him from behind so he won't ever go..
"Ethan, please don't be unreasonable.. Your drunk, I can't let you g-"
*slap*
....
"Fuck off Woman!" He yelled
Alright that's it I'm not an idiot.
"What is wrong with you?!" I yelled back at him
"What is wrong with me? I don't f***ing know! So please stay away from me you whore!"
*slap*
I slapped him without even thinking, his expression were much scarier than before. I mean what woman wants to be called a whore?! I ran away to our house leaving him. I don't care what happens to him, I don't want to get hurt..
He'll come back when the sun rises, it's Nathan's birthday... He shouldn't forget it.
I stopped running as soon as I reached our house, I went inside leaving the doors unlock. He will come back.. I know it..
I went inside the shower to clear off what just happened today.. It was such a mess. A divorce? Ethan... How could you do this to me
Then so I realized my tears were joining the waters from the shower run through my skin.
Ethan...
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I suddenly woke up to see Nathan still sleeping, it's already 6:00 am. I wonder if Ethan is around the corner of the house, maybe sleeping on the ground.
*sigh*
Last night was a nightmare. I looked back at Nathan when I remembered Ethan told me about divorcing with me. What will happen to Nathan then?
I kissed Nathan's forehead and went to the kitchen, sooner or later he will wake up so I have to make his milk. I also need to cook breakfast who knows maybe Ethan will come with an empty stomach.
I'm stupid. Utterly stupid.
*after breakfast and after feeding Nathan*
I dialed Phoebe's number, my best friend from highschool until now. I'm glad we still are, though we don't usually communicate that much since I am a mother already and I have lots of work to do. I'm already 22 and I'm used to this schedule for like 2 years, yes I'm used to but then.. Ethan being like this ever since last week is making me worried.
(Yes Mrs. Montefalco?)
"Oh hey Phoebe can you come and help me set a birthday party for Nathan?"
(Oh My God! I almost forgot it's his birthday! Oh by the way Nath)
"Hnm?"
(Veronica and Clyde wants to help too!)
"Oh sure, thanks Phoebe"
(Your welcome Nath! oh by the way, open your door)
"Hnm? Okay?"
I hung up the phone and went to the living room to open the door
"Good morning!" Phoebe greeted along with Clyde and Veronica
"You guys.." I whined and hugged them
I'm glad.. I'm so glad to have friends who are there to help me.
_______
After the birthday party it was time for them to go home, Veronica is in the bedroom taking Nathan to sleep while I was still here.. Waiting for that stupid Ethan to come.
Oh brother! This is stupid ~.~ I better check on my child if he's already sleeping my friends have done so much for me this day I bet their tired considering the time since its 8:39 pm already.
"Veronica" I whispered and she smiled at me signaling that baby is already asleep. She went outside of the bedroom so I can talk properly with her
"Thanks for the help Veronica, you need to go ahead and rest otherwise your husband will be worried" I teased her
"Clyde is not yet my husband Nathalie, by the way where is Ethan?" She asked. I was afraid she'd ask that
*sigh*
"His still working, well then I'd better walk you to the gate" I said and we started walking. This silence I know that she wants to ask so many questions but then I know that she knows I don't want to answer any of them.
When we reached the gates we bid our goodbyes and then she left. I watched her until her car was out of my sight.
Huh?
Wait a minute.. Is that?
Ethan and....
No way that's ...
I stared at them from the gates of our house and it's confirmed he really is with Cassy.
Is she the reason why you want to divorce with me Ethan? Is it because you still love your childhood crush?! Your leaving me and your son for that woman? For that woman who never even cared for you but now that you have a job and she needs money. Wow she really knows how to snake up a mans heart.
Not happening.
I went towards them and stopped when Cassy suddenly kissed Ethan and unsurprisingly Ethan responded. Uhmm what am I supposed to be doing here?
Oh yeah I have to get rid of this bitch
*slap*
Both their faces were shocked as I slapped Cassy in the face, what the fudge they noticed me just now?! Preposterous!
"Nathalie!" Ethan growled and slapped me, my face was faced towards the left direction and I saw Cassy ran away. Tsk gold digger.
"Do you even know what is today?
"Its Wednesday, are you seriously stupid? You even dared to slap Cassy!" He yelled while collaring me..
I can't.. I can't breathe..
"Why are you doing this to me Ethan?! I am your Wife why do you do this to me?!" I cried
It really hurts, how could he cheat on his FREAKING WIFE! How could he not think of what will happen to our son... How could he hurt me like this..
"Why? Because I don't love you Nathalie, your unlovable. I love Cassy she's beautiful and she's my childhood love!"
Are you even serious Ethan???
*kick*
"B*itch!" He exclaimed
"Its your son's 2nd birthday, Ethan! I wish I never had a husband so unreasonable like you!" I said while tears were bursting, I don't want to see him. I hate him.. I ran away but to where? I don't know all I know is I'm running away from that monster..
Dead end.
I sat on the cold ground and cried with all my hearts content. It hurts so much..
Why do I have to be like this? What did I do to deserve this? All I did was make the people around me happy, but why.. I wish you weren't my husband, I wish I haven't fallen for a hypocrite monster like you! I wish I never met you!
Your selfish..
"Ethan... If only I could go back in time, I'll never be like this." I complained
"AAAAAHHHHH!!" I screamed my anger out and throw a pile of snow at the wall.
Nathan..
Oh God Nathan!
I hurriedly went back to the house and ran to his bedroom, gladly his still sleeping..
"Nathan what will we ever do now?" I whispered and slept beside him
I'm tired.. I'm tired of living like this....