Okay so I am now back at college so I will not be able to post as often so parts wont be as regular but the parts will hopefully be a lot longer. I will be posting on a Friday and possibly some Tuesdays depending on how much work I have to do. For those that didn't go to the Summer Tour seriously check out the video on the side she was one of the support acts and is amazing. I will be taking requests for the next fanfic until the 15th of Sept so keep voting but as it stands at the moment my next fanfic will be invisible . And vote and comment please I love getting your feedback anyway enjoy xx<3
'I'm going to go for a little walk need some fresh air' Emma said getting up out of Aston's grip shoving her hair back in a scruffy bun and putting on some trackies, top and a hoody. 'You want me to join you?' Ast asked looking up at Emma. 'No offence Ast but I think I just need some time on my own to think everything over that has happened the past few days' Emma said putting her trainers up grabbing her bag and a pair of sunglasses because no doubt there would be paps following her every move like they have been ever since Aston flew back from LA to be with her. They hadn't told the press or anyone about the miscarriage yet well they hadn;t even talked about it they both knew at the back of their minds that they would have to tell the public at some point but for the time being they just had to get their heads around it for themselves and try to move on from it.
Emma POV
After two days of just sitting on the sofa or in bed doing nothing apart from thinking and crying with Aston I felt that I needed to get out of the house or I think I may go crazy. 'I'm going to go for a little walk need some fresh air' I told Aston removing myself from Aston's grip and getting up and off the bed scraping my hair back and putting on my 'scruffs' as I liked to call them. Aston asked me if I wanted him I declined I think I just needed to be on my own to collect my thoughts really about everything that has happened. I grabbed my bag and sunglasses not wanting to be papped crying if that happened as we hadn't told anyone apart from the gang and our Parents. I walked out the house promising Aston that I would be back by 2am as it was now 10pm I didn't know where I was planning on going. I got out the house and got a million flashes in my face barging past them I started to walk down our road. After walking about 15 minutes I couldn't take the press following me so I saw a pub down the road deciding to go into there hoping that they would leave and I could continue my walk. I reached the pub and walked into it deciding to order a drink to use up some time so I sat at the bar ordering a double vodka and coke downing it in one ordering another one. After 5 more I was beginning to get a bit tipsy but the pain that I was feeling was slowly going so I told the bartender to keep them coming. Shortly after 1am they rang the bell indicating that it was the last hours so I decided to finish my last drink and start to head home. I have no idea how many drinks I have had but it is safe to say I am well and truly pissed and I could defiantly not walk in a straight line. I walked up the same path that I took earlier trying to act sober for when I got into the house although I was hoping that Aston was in bed asleep so I could just get in and sleep before the alcohol stops to block the pain.
'F*ck' I muttered to myself as I had forgotten my keys nice one Emma and there is no spare outside hidden. I was really beginning to feel the effects of the alcohol now as I pressed the doorbell seeing our bedroom light being turned I lent against the side of our door entrance for support whilst I waited for Aston to come and open up
Aston POV
Emma went out earlier for some air to be honest I was really worried it had got to about 10 and she still wasn't back yet but I was beat so I gave up and went to bed. I woke up to our doorbell ringing looking over to the clock seeing it was 1.38am I begrudgingly got up and went down to the door looking through the peep hole and seeing it was Emma I opened it straight away. 'Hey babe' Emma slurred as I opened the door oh great she's drunk she stumbled in tripping over her own feet as she walked in the house luckily I caught her as she started giggling she was always like this when she was drunk. I slung her over my shoulder carefully so that she was in a fire mans lift taking her shoes off and carrying her to our bed putting her on the bed as she passed out. I sighed to myself I was getting more angry with myself now seeing in what I state she was in I shouldn't have let her go out on her own when she was so upset. I pulled the duvet over her quickly jogging downstairs getting a glass of water and painkillers setting them on the side ready for Emma in the morning knowing what a hangover she would have as she never was good at handling her drink before getting back into bed falling into a restless nights sleep.
Normal
'Honestly Marv I don't know what to do' Aston sighed down the phone to Marvin it was the fifth night in the row where Emma no doubt would believing Aston alone and the past four nights she had come back so out of it she could hardly remember her own name. He had just finished reading the papers and yet again there were a number of articles written about both of them. Some claiming that JLS were breaking up since they had now all come back to the UK instead of staying in LA others claiming that Emma and Aston were on the rocks. 'How about we all turn up in a minute and confront her about it?' Marvin suggested 'Yeah sure' Aston replied not sounding convinced 'Hey its worth a shot' 'Yeah I suppose' Aston sighed yet again slumping down in his chair. He understood that Emma was hurt and upset by everything that has happened but so was he, there were other ways of dealing with it than getting drunk. Every time he had tried to talk to her and open up about it she would break down in tears or refuse to talk. 15 minutes later all the gang were round with movies and junk food deciding that they would try and break Emma in easily to the talk. 'Emma come down here a minute babe' Aston called up the stairs as she came down 'Hey guys what you all doing here?' Emma asked shocked 'Well we though that you might need some cheering up so we came round' Chloe said getting up and giving her a hug 'Gee this is really thoughtful but I was going to go out tonight' Emma replied giving Aston daggers knowing that he had something to do with this. At this point Erin got up and went over Emma and said 'look we know you've been drinking every night since you got released' 'So I am having a drink whats the big deal' shrugging Erin off and storming back up the stairs. Aston got up to go and follow her but was stopped by the girls who said 'Look Ast I know you are worried about her but please let us go' Siobhan said 'I don't know' he replied sounding unsure. 'Aston remember when you find out about Lily when we first met you? And we let you sort her out well now its our turn' Chloe said giving him a small smile before walking with the rest of the girls upstairs to Emma
The girls went up the stairs and went into Aston and Emma's bedroom where Emma was curled up in a ball on their bed. The girls sighed as Erin went over to her saying 'Hey we didn't mean to upset you' 'I know' Emma mumbled back 'Its just so hard every time I look at him I just imagine a little boy or little girl' the tears slowly running down her already tear stained cheeks. 'Babe come here' Siobhan said as they embraced in a group hug 'Thanks girls' Emma said honestly. 'You really need to talk to Aston about this drinking it away isn't going to help it only blocks the pain out temporarily and its unfair on Lily if you do this when she's here' Chloe said still hugging her Emma just sighed trying to stop the tears from falling before nodding her head. The girls swiftly then left leaving to get the boys out so that Emma and Aston could talk.
Aston POV
Chloe, Erin and Siobhan had been up with Emma for about 15 minutes now the boys were talking to me about how I felt about everything. I told them exactly how I felt, gutted, upset and angry with myself they kept telling me that it wasn;t anything to do with me being in LA but I still couldn't let that theory go. The girls came down 5 minutes later telling me that they were going to go as they had managed to persuade Emma to open up to me. I saw them all off before going upstairs to see Emma but as I opened the door I saw Emma curled up fast asleep so I stripped down to my boxers getting into bed trying not to wake her as I pulled the duvet over us. She stirred as mumbled sleepily 'we need to talk' as she snuggled into my chest a stroked her head and kissed her hair as I said 'Just go to sleep baby we can talk in the morning' which she did straight away.
I woke up with Emma kissing my chest slowly 'mmm morning' I said smiling to her 'Morning' she said as she kissed me. 'Can we talk?' she asked I nodded my head glad that she was ready to talk. 'I am so sorry for what I have been doing to you Ast I've been so selfish' she sighed as she started to cry I swiftly rubbed her tears away from the side of her eyes with my thumb tutting to myself. 'You haven't been selfish baby you were and still are grieving its understandable' I said stroking her hair to calm her down 'But you are too I should have been with you' she said. The next few hours we just led in bed talking about everything that has gone on and how we were going to start to move on from this obviously the baby would never be forgotten but we did need to start to move on. We then got up and just chilled out on the sofa for the rest of the morning in our onesies.
Normal
'You sure that you want to do this babe?' Aston asked as he loaded up the website to go to post a new blog. It was now mid afternoon and they were both curled up on the sofa just having some lunch Aston had gone out and got Nandos as neither of them had been eating properly the past few days and this would be their first proper meal in almost a week. 'Yeah its unfair on you if not you are getting so much hate at the moment from what I have been doing plus I would rather they find out from us then some story in the press' Emma said cuddling up to Aston so she could see what he was going to type. 'Okay if your sure' he replied kissing the side of her head as he started typing....
*New Blog from Aston
Hey JLSters,
I am sorry I haven't been tweeting, instagramming, facebooking or anything like that the past two weeks it has been a very hard time for myself and Emma. As you have probably all seen from the papers and online I came home early from LA where we were recording the new album as Emma was rushed to hospital. We are not going to discuss why she was rushed to hospital as that will remain private and I hope that you respect our privacy. Anyway just before we went off to LA we found out that she was pregnant which we were very happy about however unfortunately whilst Emma was in hospital she suffered a miscarriage. We are completely heartbroken by this and we are still trying to get over this. We hope that you respect our privacy at this hard time
Love you all
Axx *
'That okay?' Aston asked as Emma read it 'Yeah' she smiled at him weakly 'Hey come on we can post this and go out for the lunch and collect Lily from Liam's after if you feel up to it?' Aston said rubbing Emma's arm with his thumb 'Okay just somewhere normal and I will text Liam I have missed her so much' Emma said smiling at the thought of seeing her daughter again.
Emma POV
I just put Lily to bed and was now snuggled up in bed with Aston I have been having a lot better days and now that the rest of the world knows it has taken some of the pressure off and Aston is a lot more relaxed. Not going to lie it still hurt like hell to think that I should be pregnant with a bump but I am beginning to move on its unfair on Lily if not. As I got into bed Aston was on the I Pad on twitter I cuddled into his chest he was on the interactions seeing the messages that the fans have sent the boys I read some of them they were soo sweet saying that they were sorry for us. Aston then decided to tweet *Thank you all you lovely JLSters for your support at the hard time back to work tomorrow though #reunited Ax * Then I realised as he logged out that I hadn't tweeted in two weeks now 'can I borrow the I Pad Ast?' I asked deciding that it was now time to tweet I needed to break the silence at some point and the longer I leave it the worse its going to be 'Yeah sure babe' he replied passing me it as I logged into twitter tweeting * I'm back :D Thanks for the support especially the best boyfriend ever @JLSofficial Love You Ast x* logging off before my mentions get spammed snuggling up to Ast with his arms wrapped tightly round my body going to sleep for the first time in a while not pissed or crying myself to sleep I felt as if things were finally beginning to get better.