Chapter Twenty Two.
I was in bed and I had a major headache, my hand went to my stomach unintentionally. I was hoping the baby was okay, I know Ben wasn't in charge when he threw me so I wasn't angry. I looked around our room and saw Ben sleeping on a chair in the corner, I sighed loudly. I hadn't cheated and I could feel that he thought I did.
"Ben" I said, I got out of bed and tried to steady myself. I was only wearing one of his shirts. I closed my eyes and focused on walking. "Ben" I said louder and then shook him lightly, he woke up and his eyes focused on me. They weren't happy.
"Good, you're awake" he said detached.
"I didn't cheat, he kissed me. I didn't kiss him back, I was shocked and panicked so it toke me longer to push him away" I said, I was determined for him to believe me. It was the truth after all.
Ben nodded and got up, heading out of the room he didn't look back. I sighed and felt myself close to tears, but held them back. I got dressed and left the house; I took the long way to the hospital and found the doctor.
"Doc, I think I might be pregnant" I said to him, he gave me a huge smile.
"That's great news Luna; do you want to check on the baby? I can send you to the maternity department" he said, I nodded and he took me down to the maternity clinic. A woman had me sit on a bed and lift up my shirt.
"You seem far enough along for me to listen to the heartbeat, but you need a few more weeks before we can tell the sex of the baby" the lady said, she hooked up some wires and turned on a machine. I didn't hear it at first and then there was the beating, my child's heart was beating very fast. I smiled so wide and my hand instantly went to my stomach. "It sounds like a healthy heart beat, is this your first child Luna?"
"Yes, it'll be our first" I responded, she smiled and told me that it would be easy. She told me what I should avoid and that the pregnancy would be over before I knew it and I would have a child to hold. I thanked her and she gave me a few pamphlets and then I was heading out of the clinic. I wanted to go home and be happy with Ben but instead I decided I wanted to get off pack land. Walking I left pack territory and headed towards town, I went to the closest shops and I went straight to the baby stores. I saw a crib that I wanted; it was dark wood and looked elegant. I ran my hands on the crib and smiled, I wanted it really bad but I knew it was too soon to buy one.
I stopped by other stores and found myself in a dress store. I had kept my mind link off all day and now a ton of people were trying to break through. I let Gage into my head and asked him what was wrong.
"Christian has been sighted around town" Gage responded, my breathe quickened and I exited the dress store. If he found out I was pregnant he would kill me, or harm the baby somehow.
"I'll be fine; I can take care of myself" I said to Gage so he wouldn't worry, I sat down on a mall bench and thought of what I was going to do.
"Tell me where you are, the Alpha wants you home" Gage said calmly, I rolled my eyes. I was not crippled, I could handle myself.
"I'm taking a break from everything Gage, I'll be back in a few hours" I responded and closed out my mind link. I wasn't afraid of Christian; at least I didn't think I was afraid.
I sighed and got up; I went to the food court and bought myself some greasy Chinese food. Everyone continued to try and get in my head but I ignored them, I decided to do some real shopping and went from store to store. I finally finished and was heading out the store when a man stopped me.
"I was told to give you this" the man said, he smelled human. The man was holding a letter so I took it from and thanked him; I opened the letter and began to read it.
I've been watching you my love, I can't wait until your mate messes up and you are all mine.
It gave me an eerie feeling and I looked around. My love? Obviously it was Christian but when did Christian start calling me his love. I didn't have a good feeling about this at all, I could feel someone's eyes on me. I began to walk and headed back towards the pack.
"Gage, I need someone to assist me when I get to the border" I sent through mind link, I was almost to the border but I was being really paranoid.
"Why Amith, what's wrong? Did something happen?" Gage asked. I shook my head even though he couldn't see it.
"Nothing, just have a lot of bags" I lied and then cut off the mind link. I made it to the border and Ruckus was waiting for me, he grabbed most of my bags and gave me a forced smile.
"I didn't cheat on him" I said harshly and walked ahead of him. "Just take those to the house, I have to be somewhere else."
I knew everyone must have thought that I had cheated on Ben but I hadn't, I sighed and walked in the direction of the rogues. I got to the house quickly and let myself in; I walked in on everyone watching a movie. As soon as I entered Chuck cleared out, I sent him a deadly glare and then sat were he had been sitting.
"So I went to the doctor today and it sounds healthy" I said, the group turned to me and Kyla smiled.
"What sounded healthy?" Graham asked me. I realized Kyla hadn't told them that I was pregnant and though I felt bad for not telling Ben first, these were my rogues and they needed to know.
"The baby that happens to be growing in my uterus" I responded, Jacob looked flabbergasted. Kyla and Tatum were smiling as big as they could. Graham looked shocked and then he launched himself at me and put his head to my stomach.
"I can hear the heart beat!" he said loudly and stayed there. "I'm your uncle Graham, when you get out of there you're going to be so loved" Graham whispered. I smiled and felt close to tears, I don't even remember why I had fears of being pregnant. I had a family who would back me up a hundred percent of the way.
"What did Ben say?" Jacob asked, I looked at my hands guiltily.
"I haven't told him" I whispered, everyone froze and looked at me. "Ben won't talk or listen or really even look at me, he thinks I cheated."
"So you haven't told him?" Tatum asked, I shook my head and sighed.
"You guys know I didn't cheat right?" I said to them, they all froze for a second but nodded.
"We chewed out Chuck's ass for what he did to you, but we know you didn't cheat" Graham said, I hugged him tightly and smiled.
"Ben will understand, just show him your memory of it" Tatum said to me, I nodded. It was a great idea, if I showed him my recollection of it he would have to believe me.
I stayed over there for a while but then I realized how late it was. "Will one of you guys walk me home?" I asked the group. Maybe I shouldn't be worried about Zoey and Kira anymore, but I felt like someone was always trying to kill me in this pack. They all gave me puzzled looks but Jacob went to get his shoes. I smiled and said goodbye to everyone and then we headed towards Ben's house.
"You know you are more than welcome to stay with us" Jacob said, I gave him a grateful smile.
"No thanks, I need to fix this riff between me and Ben before it becomes a canyon" I replied, he walked me right outside my house and then hugged me. Holding my stomach for a second he gave me a big smile.
"I can't wait until this little one is born, I can already tell I'll love it" Jacob said.
"Hopefully by then it'll have a cousin to play with" I said with a wink, Jacob laughed.
"So I take it Kyla told you" Jacob said, I nodded my head and pulled him into a big hug.
"You guys will get there, and you are going to be an amazing dad" I told him honestly, pulling back I smiled at him and then said goodnight, I walked inside and straight up the stairs. Ben was asleep in bed. I sighed and noticed my bags by the closest; I looked at the open curtains and closed them. Christian was out there, watching me.
I went downstairs and made hot cocoa with hazelnut, it soothed me and I finished two mugs before I did all the dishes. I didn't know how to get Ben to listen to me but hopefully he would. I didn't want him to think I had been unfaithful; I hadn't and never would be. I was happy with just him and only him.
"Mate will understand" my wolf whispered. I hoped she was right.
I climbed the stairs and went to our bedroom. Changing into the shirt he wore today so I could get his scent I got in bed and laid far away from him. I couldn't help but to feel cold without his arms around me. Things will get better, they had to right? I mean if they didn't this would be our life and I might as well not have a mate.
Ben's arm snatched out and pulled me against his body, he held me there and I sighed finally feeling the warmth. His hand went over my belly and I felt him drawing circles.
"We'll talk in the morning" he whispered to me. "I love you."
"I love you too" I replied back, he wanted to talk about it. Ben must have known I didn't cheat. Ben kissed my neck and then I fell into a deep sleep.