v. the failure
i did not talk to my grandmother
as much as i much as i should have
saw the effort as futile
the more one sided
our conversations over the phone became
in which i understood her every word of igbo,
and yet my ill-fitting hand-me-down of a colonised tongue
could not offer her the same
is one-sided empathy, just silent selfishness?
found i was more frustrated
she could not understand english
than i could only speak it
now i can't remember
the last time i spoke with her
weather it was long before i left for university
or after
all i know is that it was foolish for me
to take for granted
she would always be there
naive, even