in which nayeesha rants about her period.
so . . .
warning: if you are uncomfortable when it comes to the menstrual cycle i suggest you
leave now cause this chapter is all about that
so
i don't wanna be extra
i just wanna say
it's 3:58
and i'm not okay
i wanna mcdie can't you see
my period will be the death of me !
WOWOWOW I JUST MADE BARS OOO
F I R E WHEHRJR ( wtf that was trash )
okay but yeah it's way to early to be up ,,
but every time i get my period this happens
okay so we all hopefully know i'm a girl.
if not well, im a lady
and so i get my period every month like a normal girl right ???? wrong. something
is fucking wrong with me and i'm unhealthy
and can't do anything right so my body doesn't respond like others sjsdkdkjd
meaning my period doesn't
come every month.
( and if you have the same condition,
i'm not targeting you or anything ,
i love you all but i just hate myself )
so yesterday was like
OKAY IM GONNA WAKE UP AND IM GONNA BE FRESH IM GONNA START THE DAY GOOD, you know,, absolute bullshit.
then i go to the bathroom ,, and i was like no
i literally refused to believe that there was blood cause there was no blood on my underwear ,, it was just like thERe yk
so i went about my day until i put my clothes on for school and i was like no i need to be a big gorl and put a pad on cause wether i'm 4 or 3638 ,, tampons scare me and they always will.
tODay ( meaning friday, january 25th, 2019
at 4:04 in the morning ) i woke up in the middle of a peaceful yet eventful and interesting dream. you know why? BECAUSE I INVOLUNTARILY MOVED IRL & HAD A FUCKING BLOOD CLOT DNJSJDJDJ AND WOKE UP AND WAS FORCED TO GOT TO THE BATHROOM.
THIS. IS. ABUSE. 😤😤😤😤😤
i'm so hungry
and tired
and i wanna go back to sleep
but i can't and i wanna die
if you know me you know
that i never sleep so this
isn't really new, but
lately my bags have been
not okay so this is really
gonna effect me fucc
people are awake and updating books
so i'm gonna be an insomniac whore
and read them for now k bye
— nayeesha ☕︎