“We’re going to have a kick ass rager!” I yelled to annoy JC.
“Girl, sit your ass down. You think we’re dumb enough to let you drink alcohol? You better not be drinking at parties.” JC said while blowing up a balloon.
“I came out to have a good time and I’m honestly feeling so attacked right now. Calm down JC I was joking. Anyway… Can Shawn and I open our presents?” I ask while hanging streamers on the stairs.
“Calm down squirrel, all your presents and guest aren’t here yet.” Kian said hitting me on the back of my head.
“Isn’t everyone here…? Mikey…!” I narrowed my eyes at Mikey who was in his natural habit, the kitchen.
“Chillax Bubbles, I didn’t invited anyone from school especially Nika.”
“Better not be lying to me Boomer. I’ll call you out too.” I said taking a chip from his hand.
“Like you did to Nika in class today?”
“Shut up! Trying to get me in trouble on my birthday.”
“Love you.” I rolled my eyes.
“No, you tried to throw me under the bus dipshit.” I took one more chip from him before running up to my room and running into Aaron on the way. I pulled him into my room and we sit on my bed.
“Alone at last.” I sighed.
“I missed you.”
“I missed you too.”
“Do you know what part of you I missed the most?”
“No…”
“Your lips.” Aaron began leaning in. I closed my eyes, waiting for the contact.
We were having a pretty heated make out session. I hear a sound like knocking but I ignore it because it’s most likely everyone downstairs. I guess I was wrong.
“Hey Aaron, Con says we— I’m so sorry. I’ll… um… bye!” Mikey stammers before leaving. Aaron looks mad.
“Why are you mad?”
“He’s always in the way.”
“No he’s not.”
“He’s here every day, you see him more, you have nicknames for each other; you two act more like a couple than we do.”
“Aaron, don’t do this today.”
“Oh my God… you two are…”
“No we aren’t. We’re really close friends. Do you really think I would cheat on you?”
“If you two aren’t dating then you must be sleeping with each other behind my back.”
“I’m not that type of girl Aaron and you know that.”
“Really, because before we even started date you slept with Matt, Taylor, and Nash on multiple occasions.”
“You know the situation with that, so don’t even bring it up.”
“You could’ve said no. They didn’t force you at all.”
“Yeah and look what happened when I did say no.”
“All I’m saying is that I wouldn’t be surprised if there was something going on behind my back with you two. I mean look at your picture wall. There are more pictures of him and you with him on here than anything else.”
“Stop it!” Aaron had gone to my wall and started ripping the pictures with Mikey in them off.
“I bet you even have your home and or lock screen as a picture of him.” Aaron grabbed my phone and unlocked it, revealing a picture of Mikey.
“Aaron, stop it.” He threw my phone on the floor shattering it.
“I-I’m done.” Aaron was about to leave but I grabbed his arm.
“Can we actually talk? I know it looks bad but—” Before I could even finish Aaron backhanded me before slamming my door shut. A few minutes later I heard the front door slam. No later do I hear rushing footsteps. I get up to lock my door and go to my bathroom to check the damage. I’m not going to lie and say that this isn’t the first time Aaron blew up at me like that but it is the first time he actually hit me. I hear knocking on the door so I dry my eyes and use my hair to cover the red mark on my face. I open the door to see Mikey and Shawn standing there worried.
“Hey guys. I dropped my phone and it kinda shatter. I’m going to get a new one if either of you want to come with me.” I say with a fake smile.
“What happened in here…?” Shawn asked looking around.
“We heard yelling and then we saw Aaron storming out of here.” Mikey said walking in closer.
“Everything is fine.”
“But the picture on the wall and your phone.” Shawn said picking up one of the pictures.
“Material things that can get replaced. I’m going to get a new phone now and I’ll reprint the pictures later.” I grab my car keys and my wallet. I walked downstairs to see everyone being quiet. I waved bye and walked outside to my car.
“Jordan, give me your keys. I’ll drive you.” Mikey said from behind me. I tossed him the keys and walked over to the passenger side.
I didn’t feel like talking right now. Mikey understands that but knowing him, he’s going to weasel the truth out of me. We were on the way back from Verizon with frozen yogurt from Yougurtland. We parked in the driveway but Mikey refused to unlock the car.
“Okay, you haven’t spoken one word to me since we left. Tell me what’s wrong Jor; don’t give me that ‘nothing is wrong, I’m fine or tired’ bullshit either.” Mikey turned to me in the car. I hesitated for a minute but Mikey is stubborn, and so am I, we can fight about this for years.
“Aaron and I got in a big fight and he…” I couldn’t bring myself to say it.
“He what…? Jordan, don’t tell me he…? I’m going to kill the bastard!” Mikey got mad, which scared me the living shit out of me.
“Mikey don’t; It’s the first time he actually… hit me. Besides, he’s still my boyfriend.” I tried to unlock the door.
“Is that why you have hair covering half your face?” I ignored him and opened the door walking to the front door and saw everyone chilling in the living room. I handed Shawn his yogurt and motioned him outside.
***
*The Party*
Loud music. Youtubers. Viners. Family. Friends. Low lights. Colorful strobe lights. Snacks. Drinks. A pool. Cake. Ice cream. All this shit and I can’t help but worry about where Aaron is. The party started about an hour and I’ve danced with almost everyone. He hasn’t called or texted and he’s been gone for about 5 hours. I’m scared something happened to him. Mikey says screw him, and he’s the only one that knows, and fun at the party. Shawn and I really didn’t do anything for our birthday; well he did but I didn’t. After each dance I check my phone to see if I got a new notification from Aaron but I only see happy birthday tweets and texts. I’m not even freaking out that I got tweeted by my favorite singer ever, Ed Sheeran. That’s how bad it is. I feel like someone is going to take my phone away from me any moment. Right now I’m dancing with Sam, well more like us just barely moving our bodies and checking out phones. We’d take pictures. I got a text from Aaron asking me to come outside. I excused myself and tried to walk through the crowd of people and walked out the open front door. When I got I saw Aaron halfway on the lawn like he was afraid of the house. I ran to him and gave him a hug. He didn’t hug me back.
“I was worried. C’mon the party is still going strong, you didn’t miss much.” I tried to grab his hand to pull him in the house but he didn’t budge.
“We need to talk. I’m sorry for a lot of things. For always getting mad at you easily, for hitting you earlier, what I did, and what I’m about to do. Jordan, I think we should break up.” I didn’t register what he said at first, it took me a while. My smile dropped and so did my hand from his arm.
“Wh-what? But why? What did I do? Whatever I did Aaron I didn’t mean it.” I blabbered. I was about to start crying.
“Just listen. After our fight I went to the mall to think, which I did a lot of. I already had the idea of breaking up in my head. I ran into this girl, she was just so amazing. I knew that we were still together but I figured if you cheated on me than I can cheat on you. That girl is who I spent the day with.”
“I never cheated on you in my entire life. So you found someone better than me and leave me for her on my birthday.”
“Stop making everything about you.”
“I’m not making anything about me. Did you ever actually love me?”
“I did but then you started getting more popular and started talking to me less. You’d get depressed and I wouldn’t know what to do or how to help you. And I’m still uncomfortable walking around with you in public because of your… scares.” I couldn’t even respond. I just stood there with tears on my face and I eventually ran back in the house. I don’t care about the party any more. While running I bumped into two different people. I ran up to my room. I didn’t bother to lock the door. I just collapsed into the bed and began crying. I heard my room door open then open close.
“What’s wrong Jordan? Why were you outside?” I recognized Mikey’s voice.
“Aaron… broke up with me.” I said lifting up my head from my pillow. I felt arms wrap around my body lifting me up.
“On your birthday?” I heard Connor, who was holding me, whisper. I nodded and cleared my throat.
“But that’s not the really bad part. He cheated on me because he thought that I cheated on him and brought up things from last year.” I choked out. Mikey gave me a look telling me to tell the about earlier. I shook my head no.
“I’m telling them.” Mikey said after hesitating.
“Don’t.” I said looking him straight in the eyes.
“Tell us what?” Gilinsky asked confused. Mikey looked at both Jack and I before opening his mouth.
“Aaron hit her this morning.” I stayed quiet and buried my face in Connor’s chest. I hears whispering and the music getting louder and when I looked up I say Mikey and Gilinsky walking out of my room with Aaron’s suitcase. I got up and followed them downstairs with Connor following me. I see them go out the front door. I bumped into JC and Kian trying to get to the door. When I got outside I saw a third person with Gilinsky and Mikey. I walked closer to see who it is. I stopped dead in my tracks when I saw Aaron. Gilinsky grabbed Aaron by his collar. I felt Connor pull me back.
“What are you doing?” I asked trying to get out of Connor’s grip.
“Go inside Jordan.” Aaron said looking straight at me. I looked at Mikey instead.
“Don’t talk to her.” I heard Mikey tell him. Gilinsky shoved Aaron, Aaron got up and tackled Mikey, and Gilinsky pulled Aaron off Mikey holding his arms back.
“Stop! Connor stop them!” I yelled. Mikey was punching Aaron in the stomach.
Connor didn’t do anything at first, like he was thinking about it. I tried to pull away but he wouldn’t loosen his grip. JC, Kian, Trevor, Sam, and Ricky rushed outside and ran break up the fight. Connor left me standing there to help them. I started dropping to my knees but before I could hit the ground I felt someone wrap their arms around me and they dropped to their knees causing me to sit on their lap. I didn’t look; I couldn’t look to see who it was. I was too busy looking at the scene unfolding in front of me.
I felt myself being pulled up and taken away. We went through the front door and ended up going to the backyard, which is empty. We walk to the Jacuzzi and I turn around to see the person who took me out here is Taylor. I took off my shorts and shoes and got into the warm water, Taylor followed.
***
I was in my bathroom with a blade in my hand and blood dripping down my arms, thighs, and stomach. The party was over and everyone was getting ready for bed. I haven’t self-harmed in almost a year. I broke my clean streak just like that; over a boy. Not just any boy, Aaron Braden Carpenter. This is by far the worst birthday ever. I felt like shit and have a feeling what’s going to happen in the next few days. Either Aaron or I or both of us are going to end up announcing about our break up. Fans are going to one of two things; be sad that we broke up or be really sad. I’m not ready for that just yet. I’m going to end up in the situation that happened last year. So Happy 17th Birthday Jordan, your boyfriend cheated and broke up with you, your best friends got in a fight with him, and you cut after being clean for almost a year.