There are five stages of grief. Denial, anger, bargaining, depression and finally acceptance. Some people experience those five stages quicker than the others; some remain on a specific stage for longer than the rest. We all alive and as long as we live we’ll experience those stages.
It’s fate
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“It’s going to be alright baby…” Hoseok had not leaved Namjoon’s side for a moment. He held him in his chest when the paramedics came and collected the lifeless bodies, he combed his hair while they drove to the hospital and he spoke to the police officers when they came to ask them the details of the crime
Jin and Taehyung had left with Jimin and Jungkook. They couldn’t present themselves to the police and Jimin had fainted sometime after they called the police. Yoongi stayed behind to help explain the situation with Young.
He and Hoseok agreed to keep Hansun’s presence hidden for now. This was a matter of the pack not the police, Namjoon was too shocked to say anything other than incoherent mumbles and Young was still unconscious.
The paramedics came first and took the bodies causing Namjoon to cry harder as he watched his parents being taken away, the police saw Yoongi and Hoseok trying to calm the boy down and decided the questions could wait for a bit.
When they were at the hospital a nurse made Yoongi hold a hysteric Namjoon who was shouting he wanted his parents as she injected him with a liquid tranquilizer
“We usually don’t inject this type of tranquilizer” she said as Namjoon fell into a weird trance and if it was not for Yoongi holding him up we would have fallen on the floor “But he is too much into shock that the normal ones wouldn’t have worked anyway.” She said and nodded at the police officers who walked towards her
“Could we ask him some questions?” what seemed like the head detective asked
“I just sedated him. He’ll be out of it in a few hours” she said and the police officers turned to Hoseok who was combing Namjoon’s hair off his face and Yoongi who had just finished maneuvering Namjoon’s body in the chair
“We’ll answer” Yoongi said and sighed at the surprised men “We know you can’t wait till he gets out of it. Help us put him in a bed and we’ll tell you everything”
The buffest police man picked Namjoon up who had fallen into a chemical induced sleep and carried him to an empty room, laying him on the bed
“Poor boy… is he under a bad star or something?” Another police officer whispered his eyes looking Namjoon with pity “First the rape now this… Ooof how much bad luck can a kid have?”
“Excuse me what?” Hoseok butted in at the mention of rape “Rape?”
“Yeah… we have met the boy few years back. His parents wanted to keep the investigation as quiet as possible… He got raped on an annual picnic and his offenders got killed by a wolf” the police officer blinked as he saw the surprise at the kids’ eyes “What you didn’t know? Aren’t you guys friends?”
“He never said anything…” Hoseok trailed and shook his head to avoid tears. This was not the time to analyze that issue. Later.
“Anyway” the head police officer said and motioned everyone outside “What happened?”
“We were closing up the bookstore.” Hoseok started the story as they had agreed earlier “Namjoon’s owns it, it’s at XXX Street, we hung around there after our work and help him close up. When we were about to go into the car Namjoon got a phone call from Young” he said and slowed down as the officers wrote down what he said “He was crying and telling Namjoon that he was at a meadow he didn’t recognize. We picked up Yoongi on the way since we didn’t want to be alone going into the forest…extra measures”
“So you tracked him. Went into the forest and?” the police officer who was noting down asked
“We saw him running towards our direction. We stopped the car and got out, before we reached him he fainted”
“And how did you know where his parents were?”
“He was crying over the phone” said Yoongi “We had him on speaker and he was crying that they weren’t moving and that he tried to wake them up. We didn’t know where they were but he told us he was in a meadow so we run to the direction he came from and…” Yoongi took a sharp breath and his eyes teared up as he remembered the scene “We… we don’t know who did it… but we know it’s not Young… that boy loved Namjoon’s parents and he is not as strong as them…”
“We don’t believe it’s him” the buffest police man said with a sigh and looked at his two coworkers “The first autopsy happened and they found out that they were killed by claws. The slices on their necks are too messy to be from a knife. Plus he didn’t have blood anywhere else but his palms something that backs up what you said. If he killed them he’ll have blood everywhere” a sigh left the police man’s lips “What was their relation? You said he loved the Kims?”
“Yeah” Yoongi said composing himself “The two of them were high school friends. Since we started hanging out at the bookstore we ordered coffee and food from Belle’s. Young works there as a delivery boy so they met again and spoke from time to time” he explained and placed his hand on Hoseok’s back suddenly seeking some comfort
“And what’s your relation to Namjoon?” the police officer said as he noted down
“I’m his boyfriend and he is his friend” Hoseok said ignoring the stares. What did it matter if it was a homosexual relationship?
“Did you know if the Kims had a feud with anyone?”
Yes. A vicious werewolf pack that had just made a pretty sick attempt to start a vendetta who had let the pack breath for a few years. By the way do you know any righteous person with a fucked up life that would like to turn into a werewolf and help us protect ourselves, because there’s gonna be a werewolf war pretty soon. Also, nice jacket where did you get it?
Well… they couldn’t really answer like that could they? Both boys shrugged their shoulders and waved the officers goodbye after a few more questions. After they left the same nurse came to check on Namjoon
“He has to sign some papers when he wakes up… poor boy” she said and with a motherly touch she moved his hair out his forehead “There’s a canteen on the first floor… I think you should go grab some tea” she said and the boys smiled at her kindly on her way out.
When Namjoon woke up, merely four hours later, he found Hoseok curled up on his bed and Yoongi sleeping in a chair close to the door. Hoseok had his arms wrapped around Namjoon’s bicep and with a soft smile Namjoon saw the boy had placed his hand between his lean thighs a place where Namjoon liked to worship during their private moments. Now, he found comfort in touching the boy on that spot he loved.
Yoongi stirred in his sleep and woke up with a low groan as if sensing Namjoon waking up “Hey…” Yoongi whispered as he stood up and walked towards the hospital bed. His clothes where crumbled and his hair out of place, his eyes were two slits puffy from the silent tears he shed
“Hey” Namjoon replied with his voice raspy and low. He was tired. He couldn’t find the will to do anything at the moment… not even cry
“How are you feeling?” Yoongi asked softly
“Tired…” Namjoon whispered his eyes looking at his mate “Where are the others…Young?” he asked
“Young is sleeping… his parents don’t pick up so the nurse asked us to contact someone he knows. Jin and Taehyung are on their way…” he said and sighed “Jimin fainted when we called the police so he is probably home with Jungkook.”
Namjoon nodded and squeezed Hoseok’s thigh not disturbing the boy’s sleep
“We spoke to the police… we didn’t mention Hansun and they think it was the two of you in the bookstore. We told them you picked me up along the way for good measure” Yoongi said and Namjoon nodded. He remembered how naked Jin and Taehyung were, it would be difficult to explain that “The nurse said you need to sign some papers…” Yoongi trailed awkwardly
“It’s probably the death certificate…” Namjoon said and Yoongi nodded “What did the police say about…” he trailed and Yoongi nodded understanding
“They’ll need your permit to do a thorough autopsy. They’ll be here in the morning to discuss with you. They think it’s an animal and not Young”
“He couldn’t do it… we all know who did” Namjoon breathed and his eyes glint with anger
“We can’t do anything now” Yoongi said calmly but seriously “I want to tear that man apart with my claws just like you do. But we need to be smart. Right now the police are on us even if we are innocent. You and the whole pack is in shock and we have our own rituals to perform” Yoongi said and watched the boy close his eyes and Hoseok whimper and slowly wake up as Namjoon tightened his grip on his thigh
“Joonie…It’ll be alright” Hoseok whispered and leaned up peppering the others jaw and neck with soft kisses that seemed to calm the other down “We are here for you… you are not alone” he kept whispering and sat up ignoring Yoongi who was more than happy to leave calming Namjoon to his mate
“It’s going to be alright baby…”
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“And here is the autopsy permit” the head police officer from before walked slowly towards Namjoon as the nurse took the death certificates and discharge papers from in front of him.
Yoongi and Hoseok didn’t leave his side and now Jin and Taehyung had come to visit him before going to stay by Young’s side again. They wanted to be there when Namjoon got discharged.
“What are you looking for?” Namjoon asked softly as he took the paper from the officer
“We believe it was an animal attack but the position of the bodies couldn’t be done by an animal. We want your permit to stall any funeral preparations and exam the bodies for any drug use or wounds” the police officer said and it was evident he was awkward being in a hospital room with four muscular guys and a less muscular but still intimidating guy and a nurse who looked like she could beat him at any moment for disturbing her patient
“My parents didn’t take any drugs, it’s illegal in Korean and they were members of a campaign against drugs in the past. They were pro medical marijuana but only in extreme cases like cancer and stuff” Namjoon said as he sighed the paper his voice seemed robotic and you could hear the scratches in his vocal cords from all the screaming he did last night “Yesterday morning my dad, Jhogwhan, took a painkiller. We had guests the other night and all of us drunk a lot. You’ll possibly find this in his body” he concluded and gave the paper back to the officer
“We are not talking about that sort if drug usage” The police officer rushed to explain “I knew your parents. We were together in high school and even hanged out after college for a bit… I know how they scoffed on drugs”
“Isn’t there criteria on who takes on a case?” Taehyung asked “If you knew them personally doesn’t that mean you should be excluded?” the police officer smiled kindly at Taehyung and shook his head
“In a town as small as this there’s not many cops qualified to solve such crimes so the only criteria are to be sane and smart” he said and turned back to Namjoon “We want to see if your parents were drugged by someone. We found drugs in Young’s system but the boy is too poor to buy any and the examination showed that it was injected from places junkies do not prefer. We believe whoever targeted Young targeted your parents”
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After the police left Jin took on explaining the situation with Young
“So he is awake.” He said and took the water from Taehyung “He is on his check up right now and will leave the hospital this evening”
“Where are his parents? The nurse said they couldn’t find them” Yoongi asked and saw Taehyung shake his head
“We called them from Young’s phone. They didn’t seem to care much and said that they were out of town” Jin explained rubbing his hand on his mates back “We spoke with Young about it and he said his parents hate him because he came out as bisexual to them and is currently going through his breakup with his boyfriend. Basically, they disowned him and he doesn’t want to go back home. Surprisingly, they cut their trip sort to come and give him his clothes and personal stuff since they think he is my boyfriend” Taehyung scoffed and shook his head at that
“Apart from that it turns out he was bitten” Taehyung said and looked at Namjoon “We already explained the whole werewolf thing and we need you to go through the Acceptance”
Namjoon blinked and tilted his head to the side. Hoseok chuckled and just patted his hand “Don’t worry it’s nothing too complicated. You are the Alpha now so you have to accept Young at your pack. It’ll be your first act as the Leader” he explained softly and rubbed his hand as Namjoon sighed
“There’s no ritual at becoming the Leader. You just need to perform an act and then the packs crest will appear on your bicep, it’s to distinguish the Successor from the Leader” Jin explained “It looks-” he started but Namjoon cut him
“I know what it looks like I’ve seen it at my parents’ forearms” he said and sat up “When is he discharged?”
“He is gonna sign the papers after the final check up” Taehyung said and everyone nodded “Probably in an hour”
An hour later and the five boys were occupying Young’s hospital room who was signing his discharge papers. He looked awful
A large bite mark was visible on his left side of his neck and every visible part of his body was covered in bruises. It was a miracle he was still alive. One would think he would succumb to his wounds at some point
Once the nurse left Hoseok closed the door and Namjoon walked close to the boy
“How are you feeling?” Namjoon asked softly sitting on the edge of the boy’s bed. Said boy just sighed and shook his head tears threatening to fall as he stared at the large suitcase by the bed
“Bad…” he replied and Taehyung put his hand on Young’s shoulder for comfort “I’m sorry about your parents… I wish I knew what happened…I just woke up there” he said with a weak voice
“There is no need for tears Young” Namjoon said turning to look at the boy fully “Jin and Taehyung told you about…” he said and tapped his own neck where Young’s bite was at. His action earned a nod from the other.
The past hour Jin had explained how the Appreciation worked and all of them helped Namjoon understand it by going through the steps one by one. The ritual was simple; he had to ask a simple question to Young and he had to answer. The difficulty in this ritual was that Namjoon had to call his wolf forth and kill him at a certain level of activeness to infuse his words with dominance like his parents had down during the Successors ritual. In two words, he had to ask, in what Jin had mentioned as, his Alpha Voice.
Namjoon closed his eyes and tried to bring himself to that level just like he had practiced for the last hour
“Jung Jin Young” he said once he opened his eyes. His voice had gone deeper, more baritone causing the werewolves to shiver and somewhat cower in submission “Will you, willingly, join the Golden Bane pack?”
“Yes Alpha” the title fell off the others lips unconsciously driven by the power in the others voice
“Do you promise that you will protect the Golden Bane pack with your life, if needed, do the best you can to sustain it and promise to never betray the values and laws of the pack?” he asked again his eyes piercing the other
“I do, Alpha”
“Then welcome to the Golden Bane pack”
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When they returned to the house they got attacked by a sobbing Jimin. He had waited for them at the marble staircase outside the house and had rushed to hug Namjoon sobbing and apologizing he couldn’t be with them at the hospital
If Hoseok didn’t know how kind and in love with his mates Jimin was he would have gauged his eyes out for how he touched his man. But he knew Jimin and how loyal he was to the pack and his friends, the poor boy must have been so guilty he couldn’t be with the rest of them
To their surprise Namjoon had picked up Jimin and carried him all the way to Jungkook where he put the still crying omega in his arms “Jimin” he had said smiling kindly “Please stop crying and take care of your body. I can smell a new scent on you.” He said simply and smiled proudly at the two pack members and then at Yoongi who run all the way to the three of them his mouth gaping like a fish
“Everyone gather up” Namjoon said and all the boys came into a circle around him “As you know an Alpha’s senses are higher than the rest of the pack. Jin also taught me that a Leader can sense the changes in his pack. Right now I sense that in a few months the pack will be growing by two” he finished pointing at Jimin’s stomach
Yoongi and Jungkook took a step backwards dazed at the news. “How do you know?” Jungkook screeched and Jimin covered his nose “Sense changes?”
“Ok I lied about that” Namjoon admitted “I can just smell the beginning of a formation of two more scents on Jimin I don’t know how to explain it” he said and shrugged “I doubt he is wearing cologne and it’s not Yoongi or Jungkook’s scent it’s something different so my diagnosis is that there’s babies on the way. I think two since I smell two- OH MY GOD YOONGI DON’T YOU DARE FAINT ON ME!”
Yoongi had taken a step to the side leaning on Namjoon and losing his consciousness upon the news. Hoseok squealed and jumped on Jimin hugging him by the neck. Taehyung and Jin stood at the side blinking at the scene and Young… Young had questions
When they got into the house they lead Young to one of the spare rooms and let him set his things up. Namjoon walked to the basement and walked towards a set of shelves that seemed to hold folders and bills. He saw one that had the year written in the back and pulled it off placing his discharge papers and his parents’ death certificates in it.
He craved for a shower and for the first time in the day he was hungry. He walked into the kitchen that was surprisingly empty but he guessed it was logical. Jin and Taehyung were never here, they came just to grab food and go. Jimin was being pampered by Yoongi and Jungkook and Young was setting up. Namjoon guessed Hoseok was already in the shower and decided to make a snack for both of them.
Checking the cupboards he found some packets of microwave popcorn and cookies. He didn’t feel like being healthy so he put the popcorn in the microwave and opened the cookies munching on them as he waited for them to be ready.
He wondered why he wasn’t crying. His parents died…was something wrong with him? He couldn’t find it in himself to cry. He simply couldn’t. His thinking interrupted the ring of the microwave signaling the popcorn was done. He took it out and added salt; he also grabbed a large bottle of water and headed off to his bedroom popcorn, cookies and water at hand
“Oh you brought food?” Hoseok asked as Namjoon got into the room he was still wrapped in his bathrobe and was drying his hair with a grey towel “Yoongi said he’ll go grab food to celebrate the news.” He said and took the popcorn from the boy.
“He is gonna be a push over of a dad.” Namjoon commented and shoved some of the popcorn in his mouth
“Yeah” Hoseok said and shoved some popcorn in his mouth “You don’t…you don’t smell anything on me?” he asked shyly and Namjoon shook his head
“It’s still mostly luck” Namjoon said as he shifted to place his back on the headboard giving the answer to Hoseok indirectly “We do have unprotected sex but it’s still luck when you’ll get pregnant. There's nothing rushing us”
Hoseok nodded and shifted to seat next to Namjoon. With a hum he took the popcorn bowl from Namjoon and wink
“Go shower Alpha” he said putting an end to their conversation
“Are you bribing me to shower with sex?” he asked and Hoseok winked again
“You stink my sexy Alpha”
Namjoon shook his head at his impossible mate and stood up the bed to have a quick shower. Before he got into the bathroom he turned back as if forgetting something and sat on the bed surprising the boy
“Give me something to think of while in the shower” he said seriously and Hoseok hummed thinking for a second. A glint passed throw his eyes pushed his legs wide open letting the bathrobe fall around him revealing his still wet and well groomed body to the Alpha
“I’ll be fingering myself so you can just slam in me” he whisper and laughed as he saw Namjoon running into the bathroom shutting the door and opening the water not even a second after.
Hoseok took his time to put the snacks on the night table next to the bed before plopping on his back in the middle of the bed. He knew his body was fragile but he liked it when it hurt so he wasn’t so eager on stretching himself.
Sucking on two fingers to lube them with saliva he wondered if Namjoon would like to perform some kinks but that could wait till the times were a bit calmer. Right now his mate wanted a distraction and love and Hoseok was more than eager to provide both. Popping his fingers out his mouth he rubbed his rim with the pads of his fingers stimulating himself with that simple teasing.
He then pushed one finger inside him moaning as he managed to push it knuckle deep. He purposely moaned louder than usual hoping his mate would listen and come out the bathroom faster.
Right when he pushed his second finger in Namjoon came out the bathroom dripping water and lust. His dick was already fully erect making Hoseok smile at the sight. As Namjoon climbed on the bed Hoseok took his fingers out greeting the other with the sight of his slightly stretched hole.
Once Namjoon found his place between the boy’s legs he leaned down taking the boys lips in a heated kiss that signaled how much he wanted the other; need, love and desperation were the main things Hoseok got from the kiss and the boy returned the others kiss with as much love as he could push in it
Namjoon was fully aware that the boy needed more stretching but he didn’t have the patience to do or care. His hands found their way on Hoseok’s thighs quickly, groping the soft flesh he laid on top of his mate with his hips working on rubbing their lengths together
“You’re not stretched well” Namjoon noted as they broke the kiss to breath
“I kinda like pain” Hoseok admitted as his lips adorned the others chin and neck with kisses “So just fuck me raw Alpha” he whispered in a low from lust voice making his partner groan loudly
“Oh I will little Omega” Namjoon didn’t need any other invitation. With no further hesitation he took his own member in his hand bringing it in line with his mate’s hole. He noticed Hoseok was dripping the liquid he so much enjoyed the other day; as he pressed his tip on the boy’s rim he made a mental note to taste the boy again one day
Slowly he pushed himself past the resistance of Hoseok’s tight muscles. It still amazed Namjoon how tight the boy was even if they had some sort of intercourse every day. But that thought did not stay long in his head.
Hoseok had already gotten used to the others length so he decided to take matter s into his own hands, or hips. Digging his heels into the mattress he pushed his hips onto Namjoon’s length urging the other to start thrusting
Namjoon looked at his attempt grinning “You’re so lewd baby” he whispered. For a few minutes he didn’t move he just let the other please both of them. With a groan Hoseok slipped himself off Namjoon and turned his back on him rising on his hands and knees. His pink entrance was already stretched and Namjoon could see some redness and skin breaking around his rim
Before he could raise any awareness to it Hoseok had grabbed his dick and pushed it back into him without talking or saying anything. A moan escaped both of their as Hoseok started impaling himself on Namjoon
“Fuck” Namjoon groaned as his eyes locked on his dick being swallowed by Hoseok’s ass “You look like a needy slut right now” he whispered. He didn’t understand where the need to swear at Hoseok came from but his lover seemed to like it giving him one more reason to continue
“You want to be fucked so bad you couldn’t even wait for me to start thrusting” he grabbed Hoseok’s asscheeks his nails digging into the boy’s skin as he used his hold to pin the other on his hips
Hoseok moaned loudly, feeling his head buzzing, he pressed his face onto the mattress panting and moaning “I… I love Alpha’s dick in me” he admitted as a slap on his right asscheek put him into rolling his hips allowing his Alpha to touch his inner walls
“Then show me Omega” Namjoon whisper using his new found Alpha voice over the other “Come untouched” he whispered again and grinned as he saw Hoseok’s little hair rise and his muscles tensing with each syllable he uttered
“Yes Alpha” Hoseok said weakly gasping when Namjoon pushed his hips on the bed gluing the boy on it.
“Good Omega” Namjoon rose his hips upwards taking his length completely out of Hoseok before slamming back in.
The hour past and Hoseok had come undone under the other. He wouldn’t be surprised if the others heard them but right now as he was on top of a sweaty Namjoon, bouncing with drool and cum dripping from his lips he couldn’t care. He even wanted to come inside and have them see how his Alpha had his cum untouched three times in an hour and was preparing his for the fourth
Hoseok was exhausted but kept going regardless. He could feel the urgency in Namjoon’s hold, he could see the need to forget and indulge in something pleasurable and known in his eyes. So he kept going.
Cumming for the fourth time Hoseok collapsed on Namjoon’s chest. As he kissed his Alpha’s lips lovingly he could still feel Namjoon thrusting upwards in him chasing his own release. Hoseok poured all the love and affection he felt for the other in that one kiss and as Namjoon cummed inside him he knew the boy felt it
Namjoon’s hips stopped moving and his arms wrapped around the other’s waist keeping him on his chest with a sense of urgency. As Hoseok cupped Namjoon’s cheek’s softly he found them wet and tears touched his fingertips.
He didn’t say anything. He already knew what was wrong. He just kept kissing his partner sweetly and lovingly reminding him of his presence and how loved he was.
For once in a while, Namjoon felt like he was home