-CARLA'S POV-
I woke up with a killer headache, running nose, sore throat and stomache. I remember falling asleep next to Liam on the couch.. how did heck did I end up in my bed? I shrugged it off and went to take a nice hot shower. I changed into my black undergarments, a blueegreen tank top, a pair of sweats, and Harry's Jack Wills hoodie before sitting on the couch. Luckily it was my day off.
to Liam: Hey big brother.. i'm sick.. you know what to do .. :)xx
From Liam: Chicken noodle soup and movies all day ? xx.
To Liam: You know me so well :')xx
From Liam: LOL. alright. be there soon xx.
I sighed and turned on the tv.. I was home alone since Anna went to work... she's a model at Hollister and frankly I think she's perfect for the job. Beautiful long blonde hair with light brown highlights, bluegreen eyes, and a very sexy figure. [ not being creepy by the way ] she has a lot of guys after her but she doesn't want to date anymore since Aaron broke her... speaking of Aaron I need to find him and make him pay... meaning risking his chances of ever having kids.. if you know what I mean. ahaha. I know i'm awkward but hey.. noone hurts my friends, I was snapped out of my thoughts when someone knocked on the door.
CHICKEN NOODLE SOUP AND MOVIES! I squealed whilst opening the door. But my smile faded when I saw the person in front of me.
Harry .
Erm.. Liam and the lad has something to do... I didn't go so he told me to watch you.. is that okay? He asked.
I bit my lower lip to stop myself from smiling... sure whatever.. I replied whilst walking aside so he has some room to walk in.
We sat down on the couch and he handed me my soup. Our hands touched and once again electircitiy sent through my body... if i'm going to move on.. this is definatly not the proper way to. We sat there in silence watching disney channel
Maya: no baby don't say that...
Zach: i'm not your baby anymore...
Maya : i'm sorry...
zach : I can't believe I just got dumped.
errm... Harry started.
This should be intresting...
so.. how's it going? He asked.
I didn't want to reply.. because honestly.. I don't how it's going...
fine.. I mumbled.
We sat there for about 30 minutes watching Austin and Ally..
Ally: we only let employees touch these because we don't want them to break .
-entire shelf falls-
Ally: Here you go...
Dez plays DUNDUNDUN....
Dez: I was waiting all day for something bad to happen to I could do that.
Austin: Something bad happened when you put on that shirt! -strums guitar-
Dez: Zinger!
Harry and I bursted out laughing.... oh how I love this show.
thanks... I started.
He looked at me... thanks for what?
for defending me during that interview... I said sheepishly.
A huge smile stretched across his face exposing those irresistable dimples. No problem... I was just telling the truth. He replied.
I nodded and we went back to the movie.
Dez: okay everybody stop picking on my shirt!
Trish: i'm talking about your shoes!
Dez: oh.. -walks out with clown shoes-
ahahaa. they're so funny.
Can we start over? Harry asked out of nowhere.
I didn't know how to reply.. I was shocked...
what do you mean start over? I questioned.
You know... like none of this ever happened.... He trailed off.
I raised an eyebrow... Harry.....
No.. he cut me off.. .can I explain ?
I nodded and he at next to me on the couch.
I'm not going to put you through anymore pain... I realized I was wrong.. I should've believed you.... I know how badly I hurted you and I regret it. I only dated Rebecca because I tried to forget about you, but it occured to me that I wasn't going to... I realized how much I loved you and how much I need you in my life. Can I please have one more chance? He asked.
Harry...... I..I can't. I told myself you were right for me.. but I was just lying all along. Relationships are about trust.. and you didn't have that towards me... but I trusted you 100% even though you have billions of girls throwing themselves at you... I stayed.. because I love you... but just because of a few pictures you decided to break up.. how am I suppose to deal with that? I see pictures of you kissing girls on the cheek and hugging them. I know those are friendly hug and kisses.. but when Jay kissed my cheek you assumed I was cheating... I know you're sorry.. but I just need more time.... I replied.
That's what Annabelle said.. he whispered...
I broke eye contact with him and opened my soup. I thought it would cool down by now but boy was I wrong.
OWW. ! I shrieked.
what happened?! He asked.
I burned my tongue... isn't it obvious?
He chuckled... I know how to fix that.
I raised my eyebrow at him.... how? anything.. I would do anything to get rid of this pain....
He lifted my chin and gentally pressed his lips against mine. I didn't kiss back.. I was shocked... I know I shouldn't be doing this... i'm suppose to be moving on... not kissing him.. but my heart decided to ignore my brain and I kissed him back. Our lips moved in sync, his hand snaked around my waist and my arms around his neck. I felt sparks.. fireworks... my heart started racing and my entire body became numb..I missed his lips. it's like Harry has some sort of spell on me... whenever I looked at him I fall in love with him over again... people say that's true love... but I don't know if that really is.
H-Harry... I said breathlessly while I pushed him off.
He looked disapointted and confused.
Harry.. we can't do this.. we're suppose to be moving on.....
No.. Carla.. I need you.... please don't end it.. He begged.
I ran my fingers through my hair and buried my face with my hands....
Harry removed my hands and leaned closer so that our lips were inches away... I could feel his breath tickling my skin.
Please? I asked. I broke eye contact with him and tried to pull away, but his grip became tighter. His hands went a big further up my arm and he touched my scar. I froze when his eyes widen. I tried to pull away again but he lifted the sleeve and starred at my scar.
Carla.... what ... ..he started.
NO.. I just fell... I replied..
CARLA ! DON'T LIE! WHY DID YOU DO THAT!? He yelled whilst standing up and running his hands through his curls.
BECAUSE OF YOU ! I screamed... and instantly regretted it because I saw tears rolling down his cheek and the hurt in his eyes...
I'm sorry.... was all he said before running out of my suite.
I sat back down and buried my face in the pillow... what have I done?
-HARRY'S POV-
OWW! She shrieked.
What happened ? I asked.
I burned my tongue..isn't it obvious? She replied.
I smirked a little... I know how to fix it.
How? I do ANYTHING! to get rid of this pain.
Here's your chance Styles.. don't blow it...
I lifted her chin and connected our lips.. instants sparks... I felt my heart skipping beats and my knees were growing weak.. it's amazing what one girl can do to you.. but didn't kiss back until a few seconds later. Our lips moved in sync... my arms made their way to her waist and she snaked her's around my neck. I was running out of breath but I didn't care... I missed her lips.. I need them. But unfortunately she pulled away.
H-Harry.. she said breathlessly..
Harry.. we can't do this.. we're suppose to be moving on..... she said.
No.. Carla.. I need you.... please don't end it..I begged. I felt my heart racing again.. no.. we just kissed. I can't be loosing her.
She ran her fingers through her hair and buried her face in her hands, but I removed them and leaned closer to her.
please... ? she asked whilst breaking eye contact with me. But my grip on her because tighter then my hands went a big higher in her arm and I felt something. I froze. It felt like a scar...she tried to move again but I pulled up the sleeve... revealing a deep scar.
Carla what...... I started.
I fell... she said.
I didn't what came over me... but I snapped at her.
CARLA ! DON'T LIE! WHY DID YOU DO THAT!? I yelled whilist getting up and running my hands through my curls.
BECAUSE OF YOU ! She yelled.
I was stunned... she was self harming because of me... now I have a terrible image in my head to keep me up at night... I did this to her... this is all my fault..
I'm sorry..... was all I could say before running out of her suite.
I can't believe I did that to her.... now I understand what Lou meant when he said I didn't know how bad I hurted her... I feel like my world has just collapsed imagining her self-harming because of me.. I feel terrible.. I need to talk to someone....
Harry what happened?! Why are you crying? Liam asked with concern in his voice.
I-....but before I could finished Louis pulled me into his room and sat me down on his bed.
I sobbed into his shoulder while he rubbed my back.
It's okay Haz... you can tell me anything...
it's all my fault.... I muttered.
-LOUIS' POV-
It's all my fault.. he muttered.
I knew what he meant...
you found the scar didn't you? I whispered.
He nodded and sobbed louder.
I should be mad at him for hurting her like that.. but I can see how hurt he was ... I didn't know how long he cried.. but he eventually fell asleep. I tucked him into bed and ruffled his hair before walking out of the room to find Niall and Zayn pacing around the room.
Guys.. what happened? I croaked.
Liam went to check on Carla... but it's been 30 minutes and he told us not to leave until he gets back.. we're starting to get worried.
I groaned and ran to Carla's suite. When I got there Carla was sobbing into Liam's chest and Liam had tears rolling down his cheek. I walked inside and touched Carla's shoulder. She looked up and leaped into my arms whilst sobbing. I rubbed her back..
shh.. it's okay. don't cry... I whispered.
Liam had his head in his hands and I could tell he was crying...
I picked Carla up and led her to her room.
Love .. you're sick.. get some rest okay? I told her.
She nodded, I brushed some tears away and she closed her eyes. I sat there for about 5 minutes just to make sure she's asleep, pecked her forehead and walked back to the living room.
Liam.. you okay? I asked.
He looked up.. his eyes were red.. and his face was puffy. I sat down next to him and patted his back... Liam ?
She..... she cut herself... He croaked.
I nodded and rubbed his back.... shh.. it's okay, she's alive, don't worry she'll be fine.
NO.. SHE IS SELF-HARMING BECAUSE ONE OF MY BEST MATE HURT HER! YOU KNOW HOW THAT FEELS LOUIS!? He yelled.
I felt tears rolling down my cheek.. yes... Liam.. I know how that feels .. because she's like a sister to me too... please calm down..
His eyes soften and his knees fell to the ground. His head in his hands.
Liam..... I whispered.
He didn't reply... he just got up and walked out of the suite. I wanted to follow him.. but something told me he needed space.
Dude what happened?! Liam walked out there like a zombie.... Zayn said.
Yeah Lou.. what's going on? Niall finished.
you guys stay here and watch Carla.... I need some air.. I said before storming out of the suite and into the street.
-ZAYN'S POV-
you guys stay here and watch Carla.... I need some air.. Louis said before storming out of the suite. Niall and I shrugged and sat down.
I feel left out... Niall said.
I chuckled.. yeah.same here buddy.
What is bothering them? He asked.
I shurgged... I don't know...
What is wrong with them? They're making us feel like outsiders considering that they hide everything from us and we have no clue on what's going on. We sat there for about 2 hours then a sleepy Carla dragged herself out of her room and into the bathroom without even looking at us. We heard the shower go off and at that very moment Louis walked back inside and sat down next to us.
Hey.. he croaked.
It sounded like he's been crying.
You alright mate? Niall asked.
He nodded and turned his attention to his phone.
Carla came out with Harry's Jack Wills hoodie, a pair of tights and a towel over her head.
When did you guys get here? She croaked.. it also sounded like she's been crying.
We've been here for the past few hours! I explained.
She nodded and sat down on the carpet fildding with her fingers.
How you feeling? Louis asked whilst getting up and sitting down next to her.
Fine... She replied.
Niall and I got up and gave her a hug... you can tell us anything Carls.
She just nodded and hugged us back.