Jane
It was Saturday and there's nothing a lot to do so I've decided to leave the dorm just a few hours and have a fresh air.But before i go i tell them where I'll be going.
I was in the park right now sitting in the bench while looking at the blue sky above,it's so peaceful.Until there's a can of drink popped above it i look to the person who's holding it and i was again stode frozen and feel everything was in a slow-mo.
I take the drink and she sat beside me,"i guess it's a coincidence huh?" she asks,and i just nod while my attention are at the can drink.I heard her opend the drink and i heard her drinking it after that she talks again "How are you?" she asks
I was dead silent,i don't know what to answer.Para bang umuurong yung dila ko until i have a courage to answer "Doing great,you?"
"Living my dreams" she then answered but why is she not happy?i shrugged it of maybe i was just mistaken
"ohh,I'm happy for you,you're a big time now ahaha" i answered
"Yeah i guess"she answered shortly
"Why?are you not happy?" i just noticed she's not then a long silence filled use both
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"No" she asnwered
"Why?"I'm confuse,she's living her dreams with her age,she have everything she wants,i knew because i was once her bestfriend
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"I still don't have everything i want" she truthfully answered
I'm confused,is it okay if i ask her i mean we're still bestfriends right?like we used to be?
"I don't have you"
I was shocked,i-i don't get it,"Eh?",I'm so confused,why?why me?i really don't get it
"w-what about me?" i ask confused,really really confused
"Please come back to me" and there tears fall down to her fluffy eyes,down to her chicks,i stood there frozen.What am i seeing right now?it pains me seeing her like this.It's okay for me if I'm the one who's hurt but not her.It really hurts me
Nabitawan ko yung inumin and move to her closely,i put my bare hands to her chicks and wiped all the tears that keep falling to her fluffy eyes."P-please don't cry" i said while stopping myself not to cry,i can't see her like this it really pains a lot here in my heart
"Then come back to me,jebal,jebal" she begged and i was just looking at her
"Mianhe i walk away,mianhe for saying that stay away from me,sorry if i didn't accept your lo-" i shushed her before she finish her sentence
"Shhhh,you don't have to apologize,I'm not mad" i said while looking at her eyes
"please comeback to me again jane?two years,its been two years now but the pain i leave you still right there,i knew,because i feel the same way"
"Jane,i didn't mean all that words,i was afraid because i don't know what to say that time,i was so happy because you're feeling the same way as i was.But i was afraid,what if we move to the next relationship?what if I'd lose my bestfriend?I'm afraid jane,and i don't know what to do" then her tears start to fall again
"I was going to talk to you and apologize for the other day but my family decided to bring me with them in Japan.That day i knew i wasn't be able to tell you what i want to say" she stops but still she's crying.She put her two barehands in my face while caress it
"Listen i knew it was too late now,i knew you're already in a relationship,i knew that,and i wasn't planning to take you away from her,I'm not planning to compete with her,you know why?She's your first love,and first love never dies.I knew that your feelings for me are just an affection.But please hear me out"
"Please comeback to me,i miss my friend,i miss my bestfriend,i miss you,jebal"
Hearing those words made my tears fell down,hindi ko na kayang pigilan pa,hindi ko na kayang makita siyang ganito,hindi ko na kaya pa.Mabilis ko siyang ikinulong sa bisig ko at mariin na niyakap
"I never left you silly" after saying that humagulhol na ito sa iyak,i was hugging her while caress her back.Im happy we're okay now but why do i still have a doubt?
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It's already night so we decided to go home,we've talk a lot of things and seeing her like this made me think,maybe it's really an affection.The feelings,it may all came back but not a love affection.Its just for a friend,nothing more nothing less.She's my bestfriend
I was going to walk away when she pulled me closer and let our lips touched,i was shocked and push her"What was that?!" i asks confused and aslo i have a bad feeling about this,"Nothing," then she walk away.
Ng makauwi ako sumalubong saakin ang kakaibang aura.Everyone was silent,the room filled with a unknown feeling.Ng mapansin nila akong nandito na ay saakin natuon lahat ng atensyon but i noticed there's missing.Wala dito si Jennie unnie maybe she's at her room?
"Annyeong,did you guys already eat dinner?" i ask and they all nod,hindi ko na sila pinansin at nagtuloy tuloy na ako papunta sa kwarto ko until Jisoo unnie called my name
"Ne unnie?" i look at her pero seryoso lang itong nakatingin at ganun din ang iba.I feel uncomfortable,why are they all look like this?did i do something wrong?i asked to my head
"Mind explaining?" then she showed me her phone with me kissing someone,nakatalikod ako but you'll notice it by just looking at my clothes pareho ito ng suot ko ngayon.But i was more shocked when i saw the girl i was with.
It was Hanny,h-how did they got this?it was taken just a few hours ago,it was when i was about to leave when Hanny pulled me closer to her and give me a quick kiss in my lips,i was shocked but still manage to push her away,but how?
"Tell us you're not this person Jane!" parang binuhusan ako ng malamig na tubig.Bigla akong napaupo sa sahig
"H-how d-did you g-get that?" i ask her
"So it's really you" Jisoo unnie was disappointed
"A random number just send this to us"Chae explained after saying "us" lalo pa akong nanghina "what do you mean us unnie?did Jennie unnie saw this?" i asks while looking at her.Ngayon ay nakatayo na ako at hawak ko ngayon ng sobrang higpit ang kanyang balikat
Nakatungo lang ito at hindi umiimik,sh*t,i cursed to my head,sh*t.....i rush to Jennie unnie's room but before i open the door huminga muna ako ng malamin then i entered,revealing a cute dumpling hugging a pillow whier her back is facing me.Dahan dahan ko itong nilapitan and when i was close enough,i hugged her from the back
"J~Jenduk baby" i called her
"Go away!" sabi nito habang garagal ang boses,i feel pain,she's crying
"B-baby i-i" i wasnt able to finish my sentence when she look at me with her emotionless face.I feel spines at my back
"You what?why the hell did you let her kiss you!?and why the hell are you with her?you said you're just going to have a fresh air but why are you with her!?You said you love me Jane!,did you just lie to me?" she asks and i can feel her pain,too much pain,now her emotionless face change to a sad one,I'm really sorry Mandu,i really do love you,and I'll always love you mandu,i-i never lied to you Baby,i said to my head,i wish i have a courage to tell her this but my mouth won't cooperate
"Why?why are you not saying anything?you know what?just leave me alone!" she pushed me away making me to fall down.Her tears keep falling down to her chubby chiks,damn i really want to wipe them but if i did this would just only make it worst
"Mianhe" sabi ko habang nakatungo,tumayo na ako then walk away from that room.Paglabas ko sumalubong saakin ang mga mukha nilang nadismaya.Isa isa silang umalis at pumasok sa kanya kanyang kwarto leaving me and K.
Nakatingin ito saakin ng nagaalala so she approach me and give me a warm hug,that's what i need right now
"Explain" she said then i just nod,hinila niya ako palabas ng appartment at pumunta sa rooftop
"Now say something" she command,i knew she was mad but she choose to hear me out,im glad i met her