Disclaimer : This particular part is a sequel to the first part. I had initially decided to end the OS in the first part itself but my dearest Sayli came up with this beautiful sequel and I couldn't help but post it. So yes! This particular part has been written by her.
Without further ado here you go...
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After a while....
“Abir, main tumse ek baat puchu?” ; Mishti asked softly while still cuddled in Abir’s arms.
“Nahin Mishti....Aajke din ka, I mean raat ka puchna ho gaya. Ab tumhein sirf patni dharm nibhana hain” ; Abir said playfully running his finger across her face.
“Abir seriously suno na...mujhe kuch puchna hain. Par mujhe darr lagta hain ki tumhein bura lagega” ; Mishti said intently.
“Mishti, jab tak tum mujhse baat karogi aur mujhe apne dil ki baat bataogi, mujhe bura nahi lagega” ; Abir replied with utmost honesty.
“Abir, jaha tak main tumhein janti hu...tum woh ho jisne mere bina bole yeh samaj liya tha ki main Kuhu ka insult nahi kar sakti, jo mere bina puche mere piche airport tak mujhe rokne aaya tha, jisko kabhi bhi meri sacchai janne ke liye mere explanation ki jarurat nahi padi hain, toh fir tumne Kunal ki sacchai ki baat bahar aane par mere kehne par bhi mujhpe bharosa kyu nahi kiya?”; the memories of that day welled up Mishti’s eyes.
“Hmmm..” ; Abir did not want to answer that. He din’t think he was ready to open up on his weakness of being jealous about Nishant in front of Mishti. It would only hurt her he thought. But today was the time, when not only physically, but mentally, they had to become one, go back to where they were before marriage, infact go back to where they were before breaking up.
“Mishti, woh meri life ka bahut alag aur bahut kharab time tha. Tum mujhe janti ho... main hamesha unn cheezo pe bharosa karta hu jinhein main apni aankhon se dekhta hu. Uss din maine tumhein Nishant se baat karte hue suna tha. Shayad meri galti ki maine aadha hi suna, par main bahut pareshan tha. Jiss Nanko ke liye maine zindagi jeena chod diya tha, usi Nanko ko uske zindagi ke sach se ladte hue main nahi dekh paa raha tha. Sab kuch itna jaldi jaldi ho raha tha. Aur tumko pata hain sabse badi baat kya thi?” He took a pause before speaking ahead.
Mishti realized he needed a support to go ahead so she shifted her position and got up. Made him sleep on her lap and spoke “Ha Abir main sunn rahi hu”
As if deriving strength from her, he held her hand and continued... “Mishti, Abir Rajvansh pehli baar kisi cheez se jal raha tha. Woh insaan jo ek banjara tha, jo kisi cheez pe apna haq nahi manta tha, jo use jitni khushiyan mile utne mein khush hota tha, jo kabhi kisise kuch expect nahi kar raha tha, woh insaan aaj bahut jal raha tha. Mishti...mujhe pata tha ki maine tumhein apni zindagi se dur kiya hain, aur aisi koi wajah nahin thi jo tum mere liye ruko ya mera intezaar karo” ; he shut his eyes at those memories. But he had to continue today.
“Par....Mishti...tum iklauti thi jo meri thi. Meri zindagi mein aur kuch bhi aisa nahi tha jo mera tha, par tum thi. Aur jab mujhe yeh pata chala ki tum bhi meri nahin rahi tab ek alag si jalan hui, ek feeling jo maine pehle kabhi mehsoos nahi ki”
“Fir tumne jab mujhe Nishant ke sath dekha tab kyu khudko mujhse dur kiya?” Mishti dint even realise when these words came out from her but these were the questions that were always there in her mind.
“Mishti...tum janti ho mujhe. Maine hamesha dusro ki khushi apne se upar rakhi hain. Aur maa ko promise karne ke baad mere paas aisi koi wajah nahin thi ki main yeh sochu ki tum mere sath khush rahogi. Maine socha Nishant ke sath rehna hi tumhari khushi hain aur tumne yeh chuna hain toh acha hi hoga. Par main nahi kar pa raha tha, jitna main iss cheez ko nazarandaaz karta utna mujhe aur takleef hoti aur utna main ulti sidhi cheezein karta. Maine Jugnu pe bhi chilla diya tha jo maine 20 saalon mein kabhi nahi kiya”; Abir literally squeezed her hand that with both his hands.
Something hit Mishti. It was the first time that she had heard or realized what Abir felt when she was with Nishant, first time that she realized what she had done. Till now, she had thought that it was Abir’s sternness which restricted him from getting back to her when she came back. But no, the NishMish attack had caused him more pain than she had ever thought. “Abbirrr..” it was just a murmur though.
Without hearing it, and since he was in his own zone Abir continued. “Maine socha ki iss baar main tumhare dukh ka reason nahi banunga. Uske liye khudko strong kar liya tha maine. Par woh tumhare birthday ke din tumhe aur Nishant ko dekhkar main control nahi kar paya. Maine kabhi alcohol ka sahara nahi liya Mishti inn do mahino mein, kyuki main hamesha samajta tha ki woh kamzor log karte hain, aur mujhe strong banna tha, par uss din main strong nahin ban paya. Uss din mujhse aur bardasht nahi ho raha tha. Abir Rajvansh itna mahan nahi ban sakta tha ki woh iklauti khushi jo uski thi, who khushi ko use dur hota hua dekhe”; Abir couldn’t take it anymore, he just moved and hugged her wrapping his arms at her waist.
“Nahi hu main itna strong” ; he kept on crying.
“Abir, maine Nishant se kabhi pyaar nahi kiya” ; saying this Mishti explained the whole NishMish attack plan. “Par Abir, yeh sab toh maine who chitti mein likha tha, tumhe fir bhi mujhpe bharosa nahi hua?”; Mishti asked.
Abir was bewildered hearing all of this. Miscommunication leads to so much misunderstanding he thought to himself. He sighed. “Letter...woh mujhe mila hi nahin”
Seeing the questioning look on Mishtis face he told her how Bigben had changed the letter. Mishti dint know what to say. Life had put so many hurdles between them.
Abir got up from Mishtis lap. He held her hand and with extreme earnestness he said, “Mishti, shayad abhi main samaj raha hu ki humare beech itne jhagde kyu ho rahe hain. Tumhe pata hain, jab hume shayad pata bhi nahin tha ki hum ek dusre se pyaar karte hain, uss time ki sabse achi cheez kya thi?”
Mishti nodded in a no.
“Sabse achi cheez yeh thi ki chahe jo ho, hum ek dusre se bahut baat karte the, hum ek dusre kok sab batate the, aur isi ki wajah se hum ek dusre pe sabse jyada bharosa karte the. Mishti, jab hum alag the, woh do mahine hum donoki life ke bahut ki difficult do mahine the. Shayad itna bura time humne kabhi dekha nahi, but use bhi bura uss waqt yeh hua ki hume ek dusre se baat kiye bina rehneki aadat ho gayi. Aur shayad ek dusre ke hone ki aadat chut gayi. Fir yeh shadi sab rasme yeh sab itna jaldi hua, ki hum MishBir toh bane, par shayad apne unn do mahine ko bhulaakar aage nahi badh paye” ; Abir continued.
“Aur yeh tabhi hoga jab hum unn do mahino ke baare mein baat kare aur ek dusre ke hamesha hone ki aadat dale aur khusko yeh bharosa dilaye ki who do mahine kabhi vapis nahi aayenge” ; Mishti continued as if stealing words from Abir.
“Waaaaah ekdam perfect. Angry Chorni ab sentences bhi churane lagi.. Niiiicccce” ; Abir winked.
Mishti hit him playfully. “Tum sahi keh rahe ho Abir. Humne iss cheez par kabhi dhyaan diya hi nahin ki sirf ek saath hona jaruri nahin, balki zindagi share karna jaruri hain. Mujhe pata bhi nahin tha par kitni galat fehmiya hum dono mein thi jinko humne nazarandaz kiya tha. Ab pata chal raha, aur sachmein, bahut acha aur halka lag raha”
“Bilkul purane Abir Mishti jaise”; Abir quickly added.
Both honestly smiled but they seriously felt much lighter, and better after this conversation. Even without them realizing, they had a lot built up in them. “Mishti main samajta hu ki tumhein alag nahi rehna, aur main uss cheez ki respect karta hu. But humein ek dusre ko ab se saari cheezein batani hogi. Maine hamesha yeh mana hain ki kisi bhi rishtey ki zimmedaari unn do logon ke hath mein hi hoti hain jinka woh rishta hain. Aur hum yeh responsibility nibhayenge” ; Abir cupped her face.
Mishti nodded in a yes.
“Aur....tumhari pehli responsibility yeh hain ki....tum apna patni dharm pura karo aur apne pati ko khush karo” ; Abir said dramatically.
Mishti blushed and he kissed her forehead.
“Baki ka khane ke baad, I am hungry now Ajeeb Rajvansh” ; saying she dialed the reception for food.
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~ Sayli