Goodbye, Toby.. [A 'Ticci Tob...

By SuicidalCece

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Let me get something straight. (Even tho I'm not lmao) Toby will stay in the fandom, but Kastoway/grisgrisdol... More

We Will Miss You

311 12 33
By SuicidalCece

Third Person POV:

Everything was fine. Even though Toby still always missed his older sister Lyra who died in a car crash, he found a lot of friends who were always there for him. Tim and Brian became something like fathers for him, he became very best friends with Jeff and even if Jeff was always being an asshole to Toby, deep inside of him he cares about Toby and loves him very much (as friends of course) and Toby also really likes Jeff. Toby even has an awesome boyfriend who was always there for him and tried his best to keep Toby happy. Liu and Toby started to date when Toby was 18 years old and Liu was 19 years old. Now they're 25 and 26 which means they've been together for 7 years. So it's really unfortunate that it all came to an end now..

It was also Toby's birthday a few days ago and he got a lot of presents from his CreepyPasta friends and it was the best birthday Toby ever had in his entire life, but the fun didn't last long. After the awesome birthday party Toby still spend some time with his boyfriend Liu and he was so happy. When it was night time Toby gave Liu a kiss and went back to his room where The Slender Man waited for him as he was packing Toby's stuff. Toby was very confused so he asked "W-What are y-you doing?" Slender teleported all of Toby's stuff away only his bed stayed so he can sleep in the mansion for the last time. He took a deep breath and hesitated to answer, then Toby asked once again "S-Slender. T-Tell me w-what's going o-on?" Slender Man was about to leave the room, but stopped to give Toby an answer "You remember what happened with Nina and Helen? You can't stay here anymore. You're not a part of us anymore. I'm giving you some time to say goodbye to the others tomorrow, then you're leaving." after he said that, he left the room.

Toby didn't understand. He fell down on to the floor and his eyes started to get wet. He was hoping that Slender is joking or that he'll change his mind. He couldn't imagine to just leave after all these years. He wasn't even able to sleep because he didn't know where he will go and he was worried what will happen with him and Liu. These thoughts really burden him and he couldn't sleep for hours until he got tired and suddenly fell asleep.

It's 10am and Toby just slept for a few hours. He woke up after Tim and Brian came into his room. Toby just looked at them still a little sleepy and he could see that Brian cried and Tim was close to crying. "Hey.. We just wanted to say goodbye.. it was really fun with you all these years and we wish you all the best.." Brian said smiling as he was starting to cry again. Toby was still a little confused, but he also got sad because apparently Slender was serious. "Well it's also kinda good for you, Toby. Of course we all are going to miss you and of course it will hurt at first, but then you don't have to deal with dumb fangirls anymore or.. stupid people who are talking shit about you.. and you don't have to deal with all these fuckers here anymore. So just see it positively and keep living your life. Just never forget us, but also don't depend on us. We love you and good luck, Toby." Tim said smiling. Toby was a little surprised since he rarely saw Tim smiling, but all the things Tim and Brian said made Toby cry so they hugged and stroked him. He really didn't want to leave, but he knew there's no other way so after the hug he went into the living room hoping the others would be there to tell them, but only Jeff was there watching some gory horror movies. "Hey twitchy wassup?" Toby was kinda scared to tell him. He thought either Jeff will be sad about that or he wouldn't care and both would hurt. Or Jeff would be mad at him for just leaving his brother.

"Toby..? Are you okay, twitchy?" Jeff asked. Toby just stood there for a moment thinking if he should tell Jeff or just let him find out by himself. Then he decided to tell him, because he wanted a properly goodbye with his best friend. "I-I'm sorry.." Toby said and then hugged Jeff. "Woah haha did I miss something?" Toby wanted to tell him, but something prevented him from saying anything. "Okay twitchy that's enough hugging.." Jeff said as Toby stopped hugging him because he knows that Jeff hates body contact. "I-I'm.. s-so s-sorry.." Jeff looked at him in confusion. "For what?" Toby took a deep breath and gathered all his courage. "I.. h-have to l-leave.. p-probably f-forever.." Jeff's mood changed to a little bit sad and still confused. "What do you mean you have to leave?! Why the fuck and where the fuck?!" Toby crossed his arms and dug his fingers into his skin out of nervousness. "I-I don't know.. S-slender said I-I'm not p-part of y-you guys a-anymore.." Jeff got a little angry. "No. No. I don't care what that living tree says. You're staying. I.. I mean..Liu needs you.. you can't just leave.." He said not wanting Toby to notice that he also needs him. After Jeff said that, Toby wanted to answer, but suddenly Slender Man appeared. "The 'living tree' says Toby has to leave and you'd rather be quiet now, Jeffrey."

"But.. I mean he won't be gone forever.. right? Like can't we meet up with him or something?" Jeff asked. Toby looked at Slender with big eyes hoping he would say yes, but Slender still 'looked' at Jeff and said "No." with a cold tone. "Well at least Toby isn't surrounded by irresponsible idiots like you and your brother anymore." Tim said as he and Brian were coming into the living room. Slender took a deep breath. "Jesus Christ.." 

Jeff got up off the couch to face Tim. "Listen, you shit. I don't give a fuck about what you say about me, okay? Your opinions are as worthy as trash. But fucking leave my brother out of this. They love each other more than anything else and if you weren't always busy with almost killing yourself you would see that Toby is a lot happier with him. But you don't even care about Toby, right? You only care about your pills, your alcohol and your cigarettes. You want Toby to leave so he won't bother you anymore, right?!"

(Note: This is nothing against the real Tim. I don't mean to offend anyone with this.)

Toby's expression changed to even sadder than it was before. He didn't mean to bother Tim that much. It was only for fun. Tim wanted to say something, but Slender was faster. "Alright Toby. we have to go now." Jeff looked at Slender and Toby in shock. "What?! Now?! Don't you wanna say goodbye to Liu?!" "I gave him enough time." Slender answered. "I-I c-can't do this.. C-Can you t-tell him e-everything and s-say that I w-will always l-love him?" Jeff still was a little shocked, but he could also understand him so he fake smiled at Toby and nodded. "Toby please." Slender said and Toby ran to Jeff, Tim and Brian hugging them tight. The hug with Jeff was the longest and even though Jeff felt very uncomfortable he let Toby hug him as long as he wants since it's gonna be the last hug with him. Tim, Brian and Jeff started to cry a little and waved at Toby saying "We will miss you!" as Toby and Slender disappeared. 

After that Jeff ran into his room that he's sharing with Liu, because he was too sad right now to fight with Tim and he had to think how to tell his brother that he probably won't see his boyfriend anymore. Jeff was also a little confused because he never felt so sad and empty before. Well he often felt empty, but not in a depressed way like this time. Jeff saw that Liu was reading a book and he just couldn't tell Liu about this because Liu seemed so.. at least not depressed. (but don't judge a book by its cover, right? *ba dum tss*)

Jeff just stood there trying to gather the courage to tell Liu. He actually never gave a fuck about hurting someones feelings, but well, it's his brother and Toby is everything for Liu. Toby was the cure for Liu's depression. His remedy. Liu even stopped cutting himself for Toby. He was a lot happier when he was with Toby. Jeff hasn't seen his brother that happy for a very long time so he didn't want to ruin it, but Liu will find it out sooner or later so it would be better to hear it from his brother, Jeff thought. "What's the point of the smile you cut in your face when you're looking so sad? What's wrong?" Liu asked as he was putting his book away. "I..need to tell you something.." Liu looked at Jeff in surprise as Jeff was taking a seat next to his brother and taking a deep breath. "I.. I don't know why or what happened... but Toby.." Jeff stopped thinking if he should really tell him or let someone else tell him. "What?! What's with Toby?!" Liu's expression changed to worried and Jeff looked at the floor and just said quickly "He had to leave somewhere I don't know where and he won't come back but he will always love you." Liu got even more confused and started to panic a little. "What?! What do you mean 'he had to leave somewhere'?!" Jeff started to shake a little because he was scared his brother would start to hurt himself again or even worse. "I don't know. Slender just said he has to leave and he isn't a part of us anymore and then left somewhere with him.." After Jeff said that Liu started to cry heavily and as much as Jeff hates hugs he felt like his brother needs one right now so he hugged him and stroked his back.

"And he couldn't even tell me by himself?! That shit hurts." Liu said as he was still crying. "I mean he didn't want to see you that sad before he has to leave forever.. it's kinda understandable.." Then Jeff stopped hugging his brother and asked "But you're not going to do anything to yourself, right?! I mean for you it would be a salvation, but you're hurting everyone who care about you with this. I hate to admit it, but you would even hurt me.. and you don't know if Toby will find out about this. He still loves you no matter what and I'm sure he doesn't want you to do anything to yourself. I know it hurts. Believe me I know that. But you can't change it and doing something to yourself won't help anyone. Please be strong. I literally know you since my birth I know you can be really strong if you want to." Liu started to cry even more, then he hugged his brother tight giving him a BROTHERLY (!!!!!) kiss on the head. He calmed himself down and stopped hugging Jeff after a few seconds, then he smiled a bit and answered "I won't.. I just need some time alone.." as he was stroking his brother's cheek that had a bit eyeliner on it because Jeff cried a bit and then leaving the room.

(Now the depressing part no one asked for xD SvetaToast I'M SORRY XD)

Liu POV:
I still can't believe it.. It's been a week since Toby left and it still hurts like hell.. After all these years he just left.. I hate Slender so much for this.. Do you wanna make him pay for that? hehe. No. Please leave me alone for now, Sully. I'm so damn depressed.. I'd love to kill myself now, but I promised Jeff I won't and he's the only one I have left.. Why killing yourself when you could kill other people? I'm not in the mood. 

Just why Toby.. I literally was about to propose to him.. I love him so much.. he was the only good thing in my life.. I never loved anyone or anything that much in my entire life.. every time I was sad or depressed he cheered me up only with existing.. having him near me already made me so happy.. and now I just feel empty.. I miss him so damn much I just wanna hold him in my arms again and never let him go.. What hurts the most is that he didn't even give me a goodbye hug or kiss.. he just left.. I mean I can understand that he didn't want to see me crying cuz' he's such a sweetheart.. but wasn't that worth kissing me one last time?! I feel like garbage. It's killing me that I couldn't say goodbye and that I don't know where he is or.. with who he is.. Nah he's not the type to replace someone. I KNOW, BUT WHEN WE WON'T SEE EACH OTHER EVER AGAIN HE WILL FOR SURE SEARCH FOR SOMEONE ELSE SOONER OR LATER. You can do that too? I don't want to.. I just want Toby.. no one else.. I rather die alone than with someone else than Toby. But Maybe.. if I'm lucky.. there's still Toby's smell in his room.. Or maybe he didn't take something with him so I have a memory..?

So I went into Toby's room and I was right it still kinda smells like him.. that made me a little bit happy, but of course the complete room was empty.. there was only his closet and his night table. I looked into his closet and there was also nothing.. Fuck you, Slender. Damn since when are you cursing? Since now. I don't care about anything anymore. I like it. However I thought it's pointless to look inside the drawers of his night table, but I'm so glad I did it anyways! In the first drawer there was his hoodie and a note that said "You thought I would leave you without at least giving you a memory?" I started to smile and my eyes were getting a bit wet. Then I looked into the second drawer and there was a book.. It had a big heart on the front and it said "For the best boyfriend in the world" I already started to cry a little. I went through all the pages and on each page was a photo of us where we kissed, hugged or just goofed around. I think there was every photo in it we ever took of us. There were also hearts all around the photos and sentences like "I love you" "I will love you forever" "Please don't be sad" "I'm so sorry" and other cute stuff.. but the last page was the cutest.. there was a complete text..

"Babe? I'm so sorry I didn't say goodbye to you. I wish I did, but I was overwhelmed by the situation myself and I just couldn't take seeing you being sad before I had to leave forever.. I regret it now I wish I would've hold you in my arms one last time. I hope you like the little present I made for you. I wanted you to always remember that I will love you for eternity. Even if we won't see each other anymore I will still love you. Just don't hurt yourself okay? Please don't do it. Every time you feel depressed and miss me just cuddle with my hoodie and imagining it being me. I'm also doing that with the jacket you gave me once. I'm cuddling with it every night. I still don't know what's going on here. Slender even took my phone away from me and doesn't want me to have any contact with any of you. Gladly he let me made this book for you so every time you're sad you can also look at it and hopefully it will make you smile at least a bit.. I wanna cheer you up even if I can't be there for you anymore.. it makes me sad not knowing how you are and if you're still alive. I wanna hug you, cuddle with you, kiss you and tell you that everything's fine.. I wanna see your smile.. I want you to tell me that my ticks are cute and that my mental disorders show that I'm strong like you always did.. I just wanna hear your voice again. Babe I know it hurts, but there's nothing we can do now. We could wait if something changes and if we will be able to see each other again, but for now we have to say goodbye. You're strong, honey. I know that. You'll get through this without me. I'm saying once again I love you. I love you more than anything else and it will stay like that forever. No matter what will happen I will only love you. I don't care that I won't see you again you're still my boyfriend and the best boyfriend in the world!! You will forever own a piece of me. The hoodie and my heart. I hope you also won't ever forget about me. Stay strong.

Love, your boyfriend Toby with the cute ticks~"

I'm crying.. Since I read that I'm only crying and I can't stop anymore.. That's so damn cute, but also so depressing.. I haven't even left Toby's room since that. I send a message to Jeff if he can bring me a mattress and all my stuff and I'm sleeping in Toby's room from now on. I haven't left the room since that except when I have to go to the bathroom. Sometimes Jeff and Jack came over to bring me food which I didn't eat cuz' I'm too depressed.. and to distract me. They even didn't act like boyfriends in my presence to not trigger me. Must've been hard for them. Such sweethearts. They actually did a good job with distracting me, but as soon as they left I was depressed again and cried my eyes out. While I did that I cuddled with Toby's Hoodie looking at the photos and reading his letter again. It's already like that for months. Maybe it will be like that for years. Or forever. who knows? If I'm not dying due to killing myself, I will probably die of hunger or love sickness.

I miss you so much, Toby.. When we won't see each other again while we are alive, then I hope someday we will see each other in heaven..

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